☾⋆*— 情人

[straydreaminggoose]

Why is he so goddamn beautiful

Sorry I’ve been dead recently lol

[mcddz]

chasesuttxn:

“i guess so. i’ve never been one to just sit back and let the world decide for me. why start now?” his voice was soft as he kept his eyes on maddox’s. he could feel the anxiety in his stomach, but he wasn’t exactly sure what he was anxious about. “i remember the first thing i wanted to do after my short program, with my free skate left, was call you. because i was anxious and i needed reassurance and… you were who i always went to for that. but then i realized i couldn’t. i couldn’t leave you in one breath and say i needed you in another. it wasn’t fair.”

“I’d have answered the call,” he said without a second hesitation, his hand slipping back into Chase’s so he could slot their fingers together. It felt good to touch him again, even if it was just his hand. Maddox had missed the chance to reach out and reassure for so long. “I’d have answered any call you sent. I… even if it was to say you had a new man, and you needed… I dunno, sex advice,” he muttered, a smile threatening on his lips. He was joking, but serious at the same time. Chase could contact him for anything in life. Anything at all, and he’d answer.

[mcddz]

chasesuttxn:

his breath caught in his throat when he felt a hand on his chin, “i… i don’t know how the fuck to deal with all of this.” he kept his eyes on maddox, “jesus, i’m still in love with you and i don’t even know what to do with that.”

“So you chose to fight it?” he asked softly, voice dropping lower and more intimate. “You think I don’t feel the same way? Damn it, Chase… ever since you left, I can’t even think straight. I don’t even watch movies we used to enjoy together, because they make me think of you… and I… okay, don’t laugh at me, but the whole one-night-stand thing to get over you? Yeah, I even failed at that…”

[mcddz]

chasesuttxn:

chase took another sip of his drink, swallowing hard, “i… i mean… you were my first everything. i fell in love with my sport and then i hid from everything else. but you… i fell in love with you too.” he shook his head, “i shouldn’t be doing this.”

Maddox sat forward in the seat and twisted enough so he could look at Chase, his hand reaching to cup the others chin and force their eyes to meet. “Why shouldn’t you be doing this? You think I didn’t fall in love with you too? Don’t run away from me, Chase… not again.”

[mcddz]

chasesuttxn:

“yeah. and stupid me couldn’t bring myself to do it. too attached to you.” chase rubbed at his eyes, sighing, “i got some messages from some cute guys too. you should be flattered.”

“I’m always flattered when you tell me that kinda thing, but… why? What stopped you?” He didn’t want to jump to conclusions—despite Chase’s words—so Maddox chose to proceed with caution, even if his tone did sound hopeful when he asked, “were you… was it your feelings for me?”

[mcddz]

chasesuttxn:

taking another drink, chase shook his head, “nope… i never tried. skating was my first love so i hid in that. besides, i couldn’t get over you like that.”

“Not even… fooling around with others?” he asked, a hint of surprise entering his tone as he looked over at Chase. “I always thought… well, you hear a lot of sex stories about the Olympians at the Olympic village, and I just… I assumed…”

[mcddz]

chasesuttxn:

taking a long sip from the beer, chase smiled, “tell me about you… any hot boyfriends in your life?”

Snorting, Maddox shook his head and took a quick swig of his beer. “Nope. Did the whole, one-night-stand, attempt to move on thing, but… I didn’t date. What about you?”

[mcddz]

chasesuttxn:

“holy shit, yes. i need beer.” chase ran his hands over his face, “i fucking need a beer. you know me way too well.” he leaned back against the couch, “i’ve missed this.”

A chuckle slipped from his lips as Maddox entered the kitchen, pulled the fridge door open and plucked two bottles of beer from the shelf. They were the twist cap ones, so he took care of removing those, then returned to the living room and sat at Chase’s side. Their thighs touched with the move, and Maddox handed him a beer with a cheeky smile playing on his lips. “I have too. I’ve missed you.”

[mcddz]

chasesuttxn:

“i’m sorry that i left. but… i’m just sorry that i had to leave you. i left to be great at my sport. and i did that. but… i did that at the expense of being with you and i hate that i had to do that.”

“But I understand… it’s not…” Sighing softly, Maddox let his words trail off and stood from his seat, his hand slipping from the others. “Do you want a beer? We should talk about this, but… we need to relax. It’s been so long, and we’re both… nervous.” 

[mcddz]

chasesuttxn:

chase flushed a bright red, biting down on his lip, “i guess i just thought… i don’t know. that you’d be too upset with me.” he moved to slid his fingers through maddox’s, “i…”

“I was upset with you… very upset with you, but I get it. And I’m not going to hold you back. I… cared about you, Chase. I still care about you. A lot. I’m not going to hinder you in any way.” Turning his hand in Chase’s, Maddox slotted his fingers between the others and squeezed softly.

[mcddz]

chasesuttxn:

chase felt his breath catch when maddox touched his hand, looking over to meet his eyes. “i mean… i got a gold medal. and a bronze one. that was cool… but other than that… i mean, i haven’t really been up to anything. skating 24/7 pretty much.”

“You think I don’t know that? Like I didn’t watch or something?” he teased, a smile edging onto his lips as his hand moved to cover Chase’s own. “I was keeping up with your career, you know. And feeling very proud as I did. You were amazing. You always are.”

[defwang]

i wanna tuck him in so bad 🤧

[mcddz]

chasesuttxn:

“i missed you. when i was gone…” chase shrugged slightly, wringing his hands in his lap, “i guess… how’ve things been? we haven’t really spoke since i moved.”

“I missed you too,” Maddox replied with a smile, biting down on his lower lip as he reached to gently touch the back of Chase’s hand. He was adorable when he was nervous. “Things have been… slow. Quiet, but okay. How were things with you? I mean besides all that awesome winning you’ve been doing lately and all.”

[mcddz]

chasesuttxn:

“i know, but it’s just… it feels different. and scary.” chase began chewing on his lip, looking down at his feet. “i’m just so… first, i guess i’m sorry that i had to leave. then… i’m just…” he swallowed hard, sitting and bouncing his knee slightly. chase wasn’t usually easily shaken. but this was different. this was maddox.

Maddox could only nod in agreement. He had to admit that seeing Chase again was scary, and his heart was all kinds of racing, but he was happy to see him. Glad he’d returned. “I know what you mean… but you don’t have to apologise. I know why you had to leave.” Maddox took the seat opposite Chase’s own and reached out to still the man’s bouncing knee. “Talk to me.”

[mcddz]

chasesuttxn:

“i, uh, yeah. hi…” chase stepped in cautiously, biting down on his lip. if he was being honest, he had no idea how to handle himself in this situation. “i… how’re you? how’ve you been? i don’t know how to even…”

He could tell Chase was nervous, and although he felt the same way, making sure the other was comfortable was a top priority for Maddox. Pushing the door closed behind Chase, he settled a hand on the small of his back and ushered him towards the living room. “Come on, sit. It’s just me, yeah? You can talk to me about anything.”

[bennettpreston]

if chase was being honest, he was excited to be heading to maddox’s house. he had missed the boy over the last few months… he had been so happy with maddox, but he couldn’t stay in seagrove for olympic season, so he left. he went back to california to train, which meant he was leaving maddox. but he never really wanted to leave the other boy. he had fallen in love with him and shared his deepest, darkest secrets with him, but he had fallen in love with skating first, so he left. so, maybe all of that was why he found himself at his door with a bag of fries and grilled cheese, which had become chase’s junk food staple while he was with maddox. he knocked softly, bouncing on the balls of his feet.

[mcddz]

Maddox didn’t even have time to clean up after work, so a simple and quick wash of his hands would have to suffice—seeing Chase was much more important than how he looked anyway. The fact he was practically covered in oil—his cheeks smeared and trails of it running down his neck towards his clavicle—was neither here nor there for him. He just wanted to see the other man. Hearing the knock on the door, Maddox dashed out into the hallway, tousling his platinum locks lightly to at least try and appear somewhat presentable before he pulled the door open. A smile melted onto his lips as he took in the sight of Chase before him, and Maddox had to fight to contain the urge to pull the other into his arms and hug him tightly. “Hey, come in,” he said, stepping aside and making room for his ex to enter.

[mcddz]

text ☎️ chase

chase: okay... i'll see you soon.

maddox: i'll see you soon. safe travels.