I wish I had any further motivation beyond my immediate survival.In the past few months it feels like I've grown immensely as a "person" but have stagnated everywhere else in terms of my own creative activities . Don't get me wrong I know damn well breaking a hand would put a damper on anyone but the stagnation had started long long before then.
Hopefully one day I get over this and actually just try but with my imposter syndrome and existential nihilism running rampant I think that day isn't going to be soon.
But at least I can say for certain I am "content" everything in my life may be just as chaotic as before but for once I am proud to be Meat.
I am proud to be loved.















