holyterraiin:
she feels guilty, she feels undeserving and pathetic. since the start of the school year she’s become less competent in comparison to junho and the rest of her friends. hard work doesn’t mean anything when it doesn’t translate into success or achieving any of the goals and dreams you envisioned for yourself. her path has changed, and she doesn’t know if junho belongs in this new future of hers or if she belongs in his.
half of her feels as if she’s only disappointed in herself because she’s expected to do well, expected to meet above and beyond expectations because her aunt is a high witch. she had been trained for this specific career plan ever since she was little, and she’s not so sure if it was something that she truly wanted. disappointed it took this long for her to realize her whole life has been dedicated to pleasing others without an ounce of self-care.
“i know…” her voice is small, weak, not wanting to argue anymore. this is a reflection of her own inferiority and her own insecurities. and she hates the person she’s becoming because of it. “i’ll see you tomorrow, okay?” she looks to him as she closes her book. “you should go rest, you probably had a long day.”
he’s silent for a moment, both in speech and thought. his gaze is focused steadily on hana, studying her every feature and microexpression as if he can somehow crack the code if he studies hard enough. instead, he’s captivated by the familiarness of her eyes and the softness of her lips (though downturn in frown) - it’s enough to comfort him despite the obvious odds they were currently at.
‘ no. ’ he says at last, firmly. maybe it’s not what hana was explicitly saying she wanted, but it felt right enough for him to insist. junho could in no way turn his back on his girlfriend when she was so obviously upset. ‘ i always have time and energy for you. you should know that. ’ and maybe she didn’t... maybe he hasn’t been the best boyfriend lately... though junho was far from considering that possibility yet.
‘ tell me what you need. besides me leaving, because it’s not happening! do you want to talk? use me as a verbal punching bag, let out your worries? ’ after all, he has no problem lamenting to her at any given moment. ‘ or are you hungry? tea? coffee? are you craving some takeout from the mortals below, i’ll get you whatever you like... nothing’s off limits! ’












