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   “He would definitely get all soft and mushy over a rescue,” she confirms with a laugh, and she can picture it, his big puppy dog eyes, his sincere little smile. And that decides it, really: she’ll suggest it tomorrow, maybe, see if he wants to. Maybe not immediately—as easy as it seems to have been for Medusa to make space for her snakes, a dog seems like it might require a little more legwork to find space for in the Manor, especially since Danny’s still sharing a room with Lazarus. But it might be nice, to have something to look forward to in the future, the promise of something nice.
She thinks he could use more nice things. She’d like him to have all the nice things in the world, really, surround himself with the kind of softness he’d been denied for so many years by the programming jammed into his head.
   “He’s… doing okay, I think,” she says. They’ve seen a lot of one another, but they’ve also been on their own more and more. He’s been at Dulce’s quite a lot, spending his time with Gabe, trying to make a breakthrough and get his brother back, and while sometimes she goes with him to keep him company, most of the time she figures it’s better for him to have his space, to go alone and let it be just him and Gabe, especially when he knows that he can always ask for her to be there if he needs.
It’s Medusa’s second question that catches her off guard. And Medusa isn’t the first person to ask her how she’s holding up, not at all. But something about the conversation they’ve shared makes her feel like she ought to answer this question with something other than oh I’m fine, finally recovering. Because she thinks Medusa will understand the feeling she’s been having trouble putting into words.Â
   “I gotta admit, I feel a little lost,” she says after a moment, shrugging as she says it. “I mean, don’t get me wrong, not having all of that shit on my shoulders, getting a break, it’s nice. But, you know, I had one thing driving me for weeks, something to do, something to focus on. And now it’s over and we’re just as in the dark as we were before, if not more, and I’m… kind of at a loss.”
   “I didn’t realize how nice it would feel to have, like, a purpose. I’ve spent a decade here taking things one day at a time, and now I feel like I’m really missing having something to look towards.”Â
Medusa is strangely glad to hear that Danny is doing okay. She didn’t think about him much, when he was Reaper. When he was a mostly absent shell of a person, a damaged thing, a blunt force object. She had been sad for him, quietly, but she hadn’t put too much time into worrying about him. Its differnet now, with Danny coming out into the light. He’s just a boy, it feels like. His body is older than hers is, but she still has the urge to take him under her wing and make sure he’s safe. His body has been used to kill and spy and do a thousand things, but there’s something soft and so innocent behind his eyes. He isn’t like the rest of them, and he didn’t pick this life for himself. He’s someone who needs a gentler hand, she thinks. And someone who needs to be protected.Â
Catalyst seems pretty committed to protecting him, caring for him. That much had been true even when he was Reaper, when one of them knew that there was a real person lingering underneith the surface that might come out at any moment.Â
She just hopes that he’s taking care of Catalyst in turn. And that Catalyst is taking care of herself. There’s been a lot of weight put on her shoulders lately. Because everyone trusts her, because she’s probably the best of them all. Because shes kind of wonderful in nearly ever way, beloved by those around her.
Catalyst is a little lost, she says. And Medusa is glad that she admits it, instead of giving a mostly true but half hearted platitude about being fine. And Medusa can’t help but smile, just a little bit, at the words that leave her mouth. Because they sound like the words of someone whose finally realising how much they’re worth, how much they can do, and how strange it is to not know what to do next.Â
“No, I get it.” She nods her head. “Living one day at a time is fine, it’s nice sometimes. But maybe you need more than that.” More than the daily grind, more than living from one mission to the next. She purses her lips, quietly in thought for a moment. “You know, you were good. Really good, with that purpose of yours. It was nice, to see everyone rally behind you.”Â
“It sounds to me like you’re finally realising that you’re a better leader than half of the clowns who tell us what to do every day.” And its a traiterous thought, but Medusa has never thought much of Ms White since she woke up here –– she doesn’t have a reason, or a vendetta. She just thinks the woman is weak, and it’s a little pathetic that no one has gotten rid of her yet. If she had any interest in leading, she would have done it herself. But Catalyst... Catalyst was soemone they could all work with, in one way or another. She had proven that even the people who didn’t like her would work with her, when it came down to it. “God, I hope that didn’t make me sound like Dr. Judgement and his band of merry incompetents.”Â










