Mackenzie

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https://www.instagram.com/countryhomemagazine/

[christmasspiritallyear]

[autumncozy]

[pinkpunkthiin]

me finally getting a therapist bc i’m sick of always being so depressed and anxious but carefully not telling them about my eating disorder yet bc i’m still too fat to recover:

[rubiesandhoney]

[thegoodvybe]

[ipoetried]

Today, I learned an important lesson from my therapist.

At the end of our hour, she told me that although I’ve been hurt and broken badly, she can see I still have parts that aren’t shattered. 

I laughed lightly and I said “Yeah, one day that will be all of me, no parts shattered anymore”,

And she said “No, it won’t.”

And, for a second, I felt my heart break - but she continued.

“But it will be the most dominant part of you. Think of your body - if you break your shoulder, even after it heals it will be tender. It will be a sore spot. You will be careful with it. There will be a gentleness when you care for it. If you crack a rib, laughing will hurt and, even after there is no longer a fracture, you may laugh lighter just in case. You can heal, but it is okay to be aware of the parts of you that once hurt the most. The most important thing to know is that where there is tenderness, let there be gentleness.”

[typelikeagirl]

[tookyou2weeks-deactivated202107]

“I don’t miss you precisely. I miss having something to do on Friday nights, and someone’s arms to crawl into. I miss being a part of an us. And that’s an awful reason to hold on - being so afraid of being with yourself that you’ll give yourself to anyone else. We always hurt more than we healed and yet, I still find myself missing you. Loneliness takes us places that love doesn’t.”

— L.A.L. || Loneliness takes us places that love doesn’t

[psychedeliki]

Νever let your loneliness

drive you back to toxic people.

[heartbrokenlysurviving]

“You are truly beautiful; I get so lost in those deep brown eyes. But this is me deciding that I am worth more than this, that your beauty isn’t enough. You see, I want to be adored.”

- (via @heartbrokenlysurviving)

[fightingborderline]

<3

[justacoffeeandcigarettesplease]

My family: Are you ok?

Me *to myself*: No, my life is screwed up. I hate myself and my body is disgusting. Everything gets me upset. I’ve fasted for several days and I’ll get a panic attack when I’m going to eat my lunch. My hair sucks and I hate sunshine at winter days. So what is there to living for?

Me: Yes, everything’s ok? Why are you asking?

[fightingborderline]

“And when I’m older, and people ask me about the people I’ve met in life, you are probably the first one who goes through my mind. And I’ll explain that you were the most bittersweet love of my life I’ve ever met.”

— fightingborderline

[renmoldovan]

[extramadness]