The Diary of a Megalomaniac

  "The megalomaniac differs from the narcissist by the fact that he wishes to be powerful rather than charming, and seeks to be feared rather than loved. To this type belong many lunatics and most of the great men of history." -- Bertrand Russell  

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In case you missed it, last week I talked to Sex & Intimacy Educator, @sexpositive_cfle In this clip, Bridgetta talked about how she almost left the field of Sex Education because she felt she could not be in a relationship due to the stigma that comes with...well freely discussing sex. Listen to this full segment as well as the entire episode on all podcasting platforms. #itsaboutdamntime #podcastersofinstagram #podcastaddict #podcastinterview #fuckbuddies #relationshipgoals😍 #relationshipsmatter #realrelationships #relationshipsbelike #relationshipvideos https://www.instagram.com/p/CMfNPD5JRf9/?igshid=1otyou21debzh

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First of the Damn Exclusives (DWDS guest blog series) and I couldn't be more prouder or excited that is my coparent, Shanerika of @reallifemomish . This post focuses on Moms and how their quest of perfection can sometimes be derailed by a little thing called life. Click the link in bio to read it! https://www.instagram.com/p/CEj5e1oJaUp/?igshid=7u4opotder5k

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This week has been tough...this news almost broke me. Until I started to think, what was Chadwick trying to tell us? This post I discuss what I think it was. #chadwickboseman #blackpanther #wakandaforever #chadwickforever https://www.instagram.com/p/CEfGcwdpMwf/?igshid=11213u81zheij

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***NEW POST*** Writing has become so so complex. What used to be a simple process for me has turned to overanalysis and algorithms. It's time I get back to the basics! Link to post in bio! #writing #backtothebasics #rememberwhyyoustarted #whyiwrite #blog #newpost #blogger #digitalcreator #damnnewsletter #DaWholeDamnShow https://www.instagram.com/p/B7bl2Kcg9Im/?igshid=1cc0r4k25w9re

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#NewContent #comingthisweek We are not just resting on 2019 Damn Awards... New post coming this week. You can click the link in my bio and subscribe so you never miss a post. #newpost #thisweek #blog #iwrite #storyteller #writersofinstagram https://www.instagram.com/p/B7RNebCA633/?igshid=1ilg08elwcsy9

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Let me say this now so I won't get any crazy phone calls. I'm okay. But if we going to have serious talks about mental health, we must look into what is thought about when you ponder one of life's most important questions. #depression #mentalhealthmatters #holidaydepression #bloglife #digitalcreator #dawholedamnshow #justmythoughts https://www.instagram.com/p/B5u6IYPga1_/?igshid=1qveh7eo00mlj

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Now that I’m back in writing mode, it’s time to address the elephant in the room. Why was there a 6 month gap between blog posts? I explain and what I’m doing to ensure it never happens again. #blogging #breakingthecycle #reversethecurse #generationalcurses #dealingwithdepression https://www.instagram.com/p/B2wrAUHApPQ/?igshid=uypm147rbndf

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Posted @withrepost • @dawholedamnshow @impactmagazine Black-Tie Affair definitely helped me get out of my writing slump and also made me think. Feels good to finally say, new blog post! Link to the post in my bio. Thank you @momentswithtunisha for being an inspiration and recognition the efforts extraordinary people. #impactmagazine #bloggersofinstagram #digitalcreator #uplifting https://www.instagram.com/p/B2kaibvgjxt/?igshid=td15f2thob2r

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This week’s Shout Out of the Week goes out to @yadubya My cousin @yadubya is someone I truly look up to. She just has “it”. The epitome of professionalism in her career, world traveler, funny, quick witted, and currently our family’s Uno Champion. (Although I think she cheated...lol) @yadubya gave me a piece of advice when I saw her a few weeks ago. She told me life is short...LIVE! If you feel like you having did enough living. Just do it. Get that tattoo! Take that trip! Stop overthinking! Well, @yadubya ...when you’re right...you’re right! Thank you!!! #shoutout #bigup #spotlight #recognition #spreadlove #appreciation #honor #acknowledgement #praise #cheer #shoutoutoftheweek https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz-2gGugiLV/?igshid=vrotszupg4jd

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#repost from @jack_eclectic Who else gonna know I’m working on 5 different posts right now, having a few conversations, work on t-shirt designs, and tracking news stories for the podcast next week. #creatives #creativescreate https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz0lsCHgWPW/?igshid=7atxh0f6uevv

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This week’s Shout Out of the Week goes out to Brandy G! Brandy, who is the most recent winner of the “Brr...What Happened to that Boy” Award from the 2018 Damn Awards, really stepped up her game. Lol She’s been really supportive and kept me sane at times when the walls were closing in on me. Brandy, thank you for loving me unconditionally and always supporting me. It’s like ‘99 all over again...except you’re way more mature now...me not so much. Lol. #shoutout #bigup #spotlight #recognition #spreadlove #appreciation #honor #acknowledgement #praise #cheer #shoutoutoftheweek https://www.instagram.com/p/Bza8I0eAEQa/?igshid=1wze183t8duuj

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Posted @withrepost • @dawholedamnshow Learning to accept my shine... This week throughout the struggles I’ve had, I’ve seen some to the light and energy the people closest to me has been saying for years. Not sure if I’m just getting it or I tapped into it when I needed it the most, but I do see what y’all are talking about. I don’t want this light to ever be eclipsed anymore. Admittedly I’m the one who has been eclipsing it the most in my lifetime. Not saying I won’t have my setbacks to old ways that I’m clearly accustomed to but with the help of my support system, I will snap back. This weekend my family celebrate the life of a woman that brought her unapologetic and brilliant energy to everyone she encountered. I want to remember how she inspired me. Learn to embrace your light. You have something yo add to this world. #trustyourself #shineyourlight #dontstopshining https://www.instagram.com/p/BzQlSgbg-GH/?igshid=1q2jmwokmyny3

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When I think about the times I’ve been at my best and the times I’ve been at my worst, the primary variable is knowledge. Knowledge breeds confidence. Confidence breeds positivity. And positivity is essential to accomplishing your goals and happiness. So learn something every day. Always seek knowledge. You want to learn sign language, do it. You want to pick up video editing, do it. You want to master Spanish, Marketing, Eastern/Holistic medicine, a martial art...anything...just do it. Your mind, body, and soul will thank you later!!!!! This is how you create a legacy and leave your mark on this world. These are just my thoughts:..right or wrong...just what I was feeling at the time!!! #knowledge #justmythoughts #thinkingoutloud #personalmotivation #foodforthought https://www.instagram.com/p/ByaexzWAFdD/?igshid=yigsxgzn73ya

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This week’s Shout Out of the Week goes out to @idleofthepeach The band my sisters started almost 15 years ago is having their farewell performance this upcoming Saturday (March 2, 2019). It’s the end of an era. Thank you to all past and present members of the band for not only the music but giving me my first opportunity to manage music artists. The lessons I learned helped me throughout life...personally and professionally. I will 100% be in attendance as you melt people’s faces one last time. I’m not sure what the future holds...but I have a feeling that this isn’t the absolute end. *fingers crossed* 🤞🏾 #shoutout #bigup #spotlight #recognition #spreadlove #appreciation #honor #acknowledgement #praise #cheer #shoutoutoftheweek https://www.instagram.com/p/BuWsJpsgUI1/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ha9qo5anole

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Very few know the meaning of this song for me on this date but I needed to listen to it. I needed to shed tears today. I’m usually good with this anniversary but between recent discussions and a few reminders...uh let’s just say this isn’t a good day and historical it hasn’t been. But that’s okay. I’m gonna avoid doing an audio blog reading what I wrote during the time we lost her because I can’t read it today. So instead I will just try to make her proud. #letnasdown #letgrandmadown #RIP #october19 #sigh https://www.instagram.com/p/BpHE1uMn08c/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1w3olf0p1czrd

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#repost from @doctahjai Just gonna leave this right here. Y’all know what you gotta do. #vote #nov6 https://www.instagram.com/p/BosnNzBFTXu/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=hvouk2s7bc7r

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Leaving a Legacy...

I don’t feel like I have much time left. Seriously I don’t think I’m the guy that’s gonna live a long life. No medical diagnosis. No severe physical ailments. No completely engulfing thoughts of suicide...well not completely engulfing. Just a feeling.

It scares me but I’m trying to make peace with it. Feeling this overwhelming feeling makes me want to put things in order. I gotta give y’all a whole catalogue of shit before I go. I gotta make my mark.

I’m gonna do it by:

Writing more real passages like this. So that my feeling s and thoughts and be documented. This way you won’t ever have to say what happened. You will know.

I’m gonna make an impact in the people I love lives. I’m gonna gonna live thru their memories.

I want to make sure my time here wasn’t just collecting dust and eating.

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