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All I want is to just be good enough...

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Just a girl who lays awake at night wondering why she will never be good enough for someone

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Things are getting weird again, and I'm left reminded of the fact you're never coming back.

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I lost 2/3 of my mom's this year 🥺😭

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You came to me in my dream last night. But it was the you before you got sick. You had your bags all packed and said you were ready to go. Idk if this was your way of telling me you're fine, but I miss you Cathy.

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I smelled your cologne randomly today while working, and i broke down in tears. I don't think I'll ever fully get over you or be okay that you left.

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Family vacations are just different when you don't have a full family to enjoy it with....

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See the difference was you wanted me to be your bestfriend, but I wanted you to be my boyfriend.

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I told you we can no longer be friends tonight. My reasoning was because of my unhealthy attachment to you.

Your response was "I don't wanna lose you as a friend. I love our vibe. I'm nothing special anyways."

Which made me cry even more because you'd rather I remain in a friendship that's literally killing me instead of find peace and the chance to find happiness in the future...

Goodbye Zach....I can't do this with you anymore

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I love when someone messages me asking if I'm okay after seeing my snap story of me crying....and when I tell them no and explain what's wrong their response is "well that seems like such a stupid thing to be upset over..."

Thanks, I have BPD...normally everything I get upset over is a stupid little thing to other people....but to me it's crippling and feels like the end of the world.

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The hardest thing to come to terms with is knowing I'm saying goodbye to the best man that I've ever taken an interest in. He truly will be the one that got away, and I don't think we will ever move on....

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I found someone who truly and genuinely liked me....and I fucking ruined it by being a closed off, cold hearted bitch....

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I met a pretty cool guy today.

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Going to start letting Brad take Ofie overnight on Fridays. Hoping it can progress into him taking her every weekend. I sure need a break and yesterday really made me realize I need his help raising our child.

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I guess this is goodbye then....good bye to the one chance I actually had at an extremely successful relationship....he's moving back home to Virginia..and i can't stop crying about this

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Finally did it and hooked up with the guy from work 😌

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You were supposed to move out and be more helpful.....not cut us off completely