Melankoli Anomali

about an experiment of hope, the movement that follows, and something in between

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...tetes embun bercerita tentang sinar mentari... #kidung #kasunyataan https://www.instagram.com/p/BnmHRCfB5tGotFV_Pha6FPuI9NBuQQ7Ugz-JJw0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1qh6ge2oqrwhg

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"...Jadi bukan hanya bagian dari iman, tapi ini amanat yang paling mendasar. Jangan coba-coba, siapa pun baik dari dalam negeri maupun luar negeri, yang memecah-mecah pikiran kita, seolah-olah ada pertentangan antara Indonesia dengan Islam, bertentangan antara pancasila dan syariat islam, dan seterusnya..." -Emha Ainun Nadjib

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Orang yang bertahun-tahun puasa. Puasa label, puasa ketenaran, puasa fatwa, puasa kekuasaan. Mutlak kekeliruan jika ada orang yang membenci sosoknya. Tetaplah menjadi cahaya bagi yang hampir terbutakan gelap. Dan menjadi pohon rindang bagi yang hampir mati kegerahan... . #caknun #emhaainunnadjib #cendekiawanindonesia #masyarakatmaiyah #padhangbulan #mocopatsyafaat #kenduricinta

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Love is what's left when being in love is gone, okay? It's when you care about someone and you hope they're happy, but you're not under any illusions about them. . Maybe that kind of love is not exciting and passionate--and all those things that fade with time. All those things that you're so keen on. But in the end, it's the only kind of love that really matters... -(free interpretation from Tony Parsons) . Selamat berkurang jatah hidup seiring makin bermaknanya tiap waktu yang kau jalani, istriku, calon ibu dari anak-anakku, rumahku.

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Saat memilih untuk bebas dari kehendak daripada bebas berkehendak adalah kemewahan tersendiri.... . #talijiwo #sastrajendra #predetermination #advaita

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Sapa

Sapaan ini berakhir telak sejak semula.

Manisnya caraMu dalam sekali--dan seperti selalu--

menggiringku kembali pulang.

Perjalanan ini ternyata hanya dari kepala ke dada.

Sejak awal aku selalu di sini, bersamaMu.

Lucunya, ketika ku buka pintu, kalimat sapa yang tercetus dari lisan ini adalah "Ke mana aja, sih? Kangen tau."

Ku mohon, jangan lepaskan, bahkan mengendur, walau seberapa kerasku meronta.

Bisikkan, katakan, teriakkan, cetuskan; "Kau sudah selalu sampai."

Aah...

Sambil merebah dalam maha sistem ketiba-tibaan ini,

salam hangat dari ketakterbatasan tak bergerak untuk yang masih di luar sana.

Selamat mencari. Semoga beruntung. Atau tidak :)

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Instantly, i know, i sense (with His grace), Life is showing me that nothing's belong to me...

That's why there's a sacred sentence; Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiun...

Just be content with what comes and goes. I know that i'm life, and at a the same time; the witnessing of life.

And nothing.

And everything.

And what is.

And what is not...

Laa ilaha illallah. Astaghfirullah.

I'm with You. You own me, Al-Hayyul-Qayyum. Forgive me, i have sinned. Wa atubu ilaih...

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Self-Inquiry

Keheningan yang kubayar mahal, membuatku terkunci dalam kesepian tak asing, kekosongan yang penuh, yang membuatku semakin mengenal diriKu...

Tak ada tuan tak ada hamba.

"Dan kekosongan itu bernyawa..."*

*Homicide - Siti Jenar Chyper Drive

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Just remain unmoving; inside. Let your body-mind do what to do. And you do what You must. Rest as awareness who aware. Tidak ada yang terlambat, walaupun kelihatannya tidak tepat waktu. Paradoksnya, sebaliknya juga bisa. Di antara iya dan tidak, di sana Saya bersemayam. Kenetralan. Tanggalkan justifikasi. Temui ia di sana yang menunggu tanpa agenda. Masuk ke sini. Bertumbuh ke dalam. Kau bisa maju tanpa melangkah. Itu kecukupan. Seperti saat ini...

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Untuk kasih yang lebih rapat dari jarak waktu sekedip mata, selamat hari lahir yang melahirkanku. . Doaku untukmu kusejajarkan seiring harapanmu untuk keselamatanku, semampu hayatku, prioritasku. . Barakallahu fi umrik, mama...

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I have done nothing. I just am. #mooji #advaitavedanta #zen #philosophy #spirituality

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Do you see in a way, how that is saying the most real state is the state of nothing? That’s what it’s all going to come to. With these physicists who think of the energy of the universe as running down dissipating into radiation, and gradually and gradually, and gradually, gradually, until there is nothing left... . And for some reason, we are suppose to find that depressing. But if somebody is going to argue that the basic reality is nothingness. Where does all this come from? Obviously from nothingness. Once again you get how this looks behind your eyes. So, cheer up you see, this is what is meant in Buddhist philosophy by saying ‘we are all basically nothing.’ . Nothingness is really like the nothingness of space, which contains the whole universe. All the sun and the stars and mountains, and rivers, and good men and bad men, and the animals, and insects, and the whole bit. All are contained in void. So, out of this void comes everything and you are It. What else could you be? #alanwatts on #nothingness . . . Biar kayak orang2; foto diri terus ceramah. Lagian ada apa sih rame2? Ganti hari aja heboh. Bersyukur aje udeh, yang wajar... #happynewbreath

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Alhamdulillah kucing tercantik di dunia baru melahirkan. Dan saya yang punya...

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Sekelebat Jawaban

Kehidupan adalah sebuah oase terpisah di tengah gurun.

Entah sudah berapa banyak kabilah yang singgah mengambil airmu dan kemudian pergi menyisakan kotoran, engkau tetap setia menunggu kabilah-kabilah yang berlaku sama.

Kehidupan adalah keterasingan yang samar-samar merindukan kebahagiaan di tengah kesendirian.

Itu sebabnya, kehadiran kabilah senantiasa menjadi dambaan oase yang selalu menyediakan bekal kehidupan dengan tulus...

--Saya, Sastra Jendra.

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Akad (teaser). 181117. @ariestamartha 😊

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What is your concept of God? - GOD IS nondefinable. One word The Taoist have for it is "the nameless." It is not in the sensory realm or the realm of consciousness, ultimately. It's the noumenon--the nothing, the void, and out of that comes the phenomenon; the manifestation of everything. - I think every breath is a prayer. Every moment is a prayer. And God is everywhere and is all-inclusive. One might call that pantheistic. Do you believe you have a destiny, and do you see yourself as here to fulfill it? - IT'S ALL PREDESTINED. Nobody's in charge. It's all just one huge miraculous manifestation. Comes out of nothing, goes back into nothing. We're predisposed to do what we do. - I had nothing to do with what has happened to my life. Everything that has happened to my life, or yours, or any human being's had to happen that way, and nobody was in charge of it. - We want to hang on and be attached to this concept that we are a person, that we are an identity, and we are separate and will live personally forever. It's another projection of ego, a myth, like Santa Claus. What advice or "words of wisdom" would you like to pass on? - WISDOM IS TO REALIZE that we are nothing, just part of the manifestation of this whole universe, and that we go back into nothing. Relax, be quite, be still. Surrender to what is. "10 seconds from now, none of us in this room know what we're gonna think or say or do. So who the fuck's in charge?" "This is what is happening. There's no answer to it. It's just what is." "Do nothing, and see what happen..." #rip #harrydeanstanton #salutbuatngehenya #bocahtuanakal #respect :)

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Allow the dramas and karmas to play out. But remain as the "witnessing" principle. Something will naturally respond, appropriately In the moment...