Melississist

Songs that remind me of stuff

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“La Negra tomasa” - Caifanes

November 2012-May 2018

Black Friday 2012 and 1 month after my break up of my longest relationship. The ex moved out and I had friends over a lot more often. This night my friend “Arrogant Basterd” gave me a call that there’s a friend he’s bringing over says he thinks I’ll like him.. I rolled my eyes and said whatever I was still bitter to the thought of hooking up with someone new again after my split. My friends arrive and there he was “Decaf”.

I remember this boy when I just turned 18 and he was still 16.. I was with my rebound at the time summer of 2008. I remember I asked him who that was.. he said thats “Decaf”.

Now Decaf is a 21 year old, tattooed, long haired, single dad. Apparently he knows who I am too. Not surprised since we have many mutual friends from our hometown.

I still came off mean and bitter to him. I knew what he was here for and I was like how dare our friend even try to hook us up. He was one of those guys with kind of bad rep and has been very popular among the girls in our hometown but eventually that night I caved.

It became a regular thing that winter I’d see him. He played his role as dad during the day, worked at night and since both our jobs ended after midnight it would be our time. We were absolutely just in lust.

There was one night I was expecting him. I left the door wide open to my one bedroom apartment. I was standing over my computer and in first few seconds of “La negra tomasa” comes on. I’m getting into it moving hips very slowly and dancing. It was a song that came on a lot during my kickbacks at my apartment. Then right at the first “Ay! Ay! Ay!” He’s walking in towards me singing that part. Then I’m sure you know what happens next.

Our friends knew this relationship was just one about one thing. We were quite mean to each other but had a few things in common and were able to have many intellectual conversations. Anyways we eventually stopped, he found someone he actually wanted to be involved with. Shit kinda broke me but I knew how he was and left it that. Over the next year we were just friends and I was able to meet his daughter on Christmas Day 2013. She was adorable. Then over the next 4 years we’d reunite and stuff but over that time I really learned he’s a scumbag.

I’m not going to leave it at that though. If it wasn’t for him and the heartache from the first year I knew him I may have not gotten into hooping then all the way to performing at Burning Man. Thanks asshole 🖤✨

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“Looking up” - Paramore

September 2010 in San Diego, my sister Vanessa and I are huge Tegan and Sara fans. Tegan and Sara went on tour with Paramore that year. Super excited again to see Tegan and Sara we decided to drop ecstasy again right before the show (sorry John). We also didn’t know what the big deal was with Paramore yet. They never really caught our attention. So apparently when Tegan and Sara opened for Paramore this time around it seemed like we were the only fans... but it’s Tegan & fuckin Sara!?! and already tough to imagine they were touring with Paramore in the first place. Anyways their set was short and sweet. Love their performances but was disappointed by the crowds reaction of them. Did I mention during Tegan and Sara’s set the ecstasy didn’t quite hit us yet.. Now during intermission that’s when my sister starts tripping on this bearded man that’s many rows away just stroking his beard like it he were up to something. Then she imagines our neighbor (who sold us the ecstasy) dancing in her head. Hinting to me that she’s in a good place I think. I am too and suddenly lights dim low. The excitement of this audience was loud it hurt my whole fucking body. Everything was soo much more intense because of the ecstasy. The energy of the room was completely different from minutes ago. We were finally enjoying the show and even joked about switching our Tegan and Sara shirts for Paramore ones. Well then this song came on “Looking Up” what I was getting out of it was a girl who’s band was finally successful, about the struggle and how worth it, it is now. It got to me because I was there wondering what am I doing with my life? Why aren’t I doing this? I am a creative person that put so much on hold. For what? Romance? and here I am doing drugs behind my kind boyfriends back.. I convince my sister for us to start heading out to beat traffic. I’m literally running away from this song. I remember running away to “Honestly, can you believe, We crossed the world while it's asleep? I'd never trade it in, 'cause I've always wanted this! And it's not a dream anymore! No. It's not a dream anymore! It's worth fighting for”

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“Everyday” - Dave Matthews Band

Summer 1999 at Camp Gilmore, A church camp I was sent off to for a week. I was 9 years old strolling through the camp woods leaving the all girls cabin. I hear a nice song and look up, there’s speakers in the trees. The lyrics always cheer me up instantly whenever this song comes on throughout my life. It’s actually a rare thing because I don’t really listen to Dave Matthews or know anyone else who enjoys their music. I’m a big fan of the video too. There’s this guy going around town just asking for hugs and some of the outcomes are great. “All you need is love”. If I am giving the chance I would just love to run into a group of random people, this song just comes on and hope my people come singing a long to the top of their lungs. I will fucking join them... 💯

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“679” - Fetty Wap

November 2015 I found myself again at an OC fire spinners meet up hoping to run into the “sexy flexy” once again (I didn’t get his name first time and idk why that nickname). Earlier that year January I believe, I went to my first meet up, I had just became new to the world of fire spinning. I went with my friend Draco and my best friend Ari. Draco and I got to participate along with the other fire dancers. It was such a great atmosphere, everyone was so friendly there were new spinners, some seniors and the owner of the house did a fire puppet show! But then there was this dude... holy crap.. total babe and impressed absolutely everyone.. I couldn’t take my eyes of this man.. best part tho he noticed me too.. When we had to all say our goodbyes as the event was ending I go tell this guy I enjoyed his performance and he told me I was great too. He then noticed a burn I have on my hand, gently grabs it, tells me how to care for it and that he burns himself a lot too. Me being painfully shy at these things quickly says bye and makes my escape to my friends waiting as they were ready to go. We didn’t get each others names. When Draco, Ari and I were driving off , I talked about that encounter, Draco then mentions “He’s a traveling fire performer” Me: “So I’m never going to see him again!?” “Nooooooooooooo!!!” (Overly dramatic scream) That year whenever I was a little bummed out. I would get my Ari to send me videos of him just to cheer up a bit lol anyways now November and there’s another one of these meet ups! Same deal awesome fire spinners, every one taking a turn to show off, everyone there supportive af and then he’s there... turns out he does travel for some of his performances but actually lives in the greater Los Angeles area.. of course. We meet again and end up hanging out the whole night. We learned to eat fire together which was fun. Being flirted with and fire, hell yess.. we also did that cheesy cross our arms and “ate fire” off the fire torches. It’s better than wine btw.. There’s still time to go up and spin in front of the crowd. This really rad girl I just met earlier that night asked if she can choose my song. She was a hooper too and loved what I danced to earlier which was “drunk in love” by Beyoncé so I’m like why not!? So it’s me next and that new song “679” - Fetty Wap comes on. That’s what she chose for me. I flowed pretty well with that song. Fell in love with it and now use it whenever I perform with my fire hoop for private events. Anyways me and this dude didn’t really have much in common but that we were just super attracted to each other.. nothing ever happened but unwanted dick/ass pics to my phone.. who sends ass pics?? THE END

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“Raining blood” - Slayer

April 23, 2011, Big 4 concert Indio, CA

So we were in the crowd watching Slayer, the pit was about 8-10ft away from us and there was a moment I SHIT YOU NOT.. my friend puts in his mouth guard, raises his devil horns hand gesture and suddenly and coincidentally the crowd moves a bit creating an 8ft aisle from where he’s standing, and directly into the pit. He runs in. Still one of the most metal moments I have ever witnessed 🤯😳😈☠️

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“Bro Hymn” - Pennywise

2010 my 20th birthday party. My dads house was packed with all my friends and my theme was 90’s. My uncle Jorge was controlling the music for a while and he played this song and my friends went nuts and we moshing in the garage and having a good time. My uncle turned to me and said this song reminds him of his sister (my mom) who died 6 years. I lost my mom but he also lost his big sister.. I can’t imagine that pain either if I lose my sister. Shit I think my whole world would end. Anyways party continues and every birthday I have had growing up my dad makes an effort to smash my face in the cake. NOT THIS TIME and I warned him.. so the happy birthday is sang and this jackass grabs a little chunk of the cake to slap my face with it and all of a sudden everyone else follows and there’s an epic cake fight.. 🎂 still one of my most beautiful memories 🖤

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“Crazy Train” - OZZY OSBOURNE

2006 my grandpa owned a Pontiac Firebird convertible (fourth generation). My grandparents would go out of town often. One day hanging out with one of my best friends, I decided to go for a joy ride. We got in the car and started driving around the neighborhood. (Note: I was 16 and didn’t have a license). “Crazy Train” comes on and of course rock out to it. A little while later not paying much attention to where we were driving, I somehow ended up on the wrong side of the road and was almost hit my another driver... My grandparents were pretty strict and I imagined the horror i would been put through if I fucking crashed that car.. lesson learned but with that car. Went on taking my dads car later and got my own car and license 2 years later.

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“Photograph” -Def Leppard

October 21, 2012 that weekend my 3 year serious relationship had ended. Same weekend I got “love will tear us apart” tattooed on my chest, something out of impulse because of the split. I went to a group of friends kickback and drank a lot. Ending of the night after all the friends left, the friend of mine who was hosting the kickback ended up getting close and by the end of the night we had drunken sex to Def Leppard playing in the background. I felt pretty awful about it because it was shortly after my break up. That friend of mine and I haven’t been very close since.

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“EVIL” - 45 Grave

2006 my boyfriend would drink to the point he’d pass out and it’s impossible to wake him up. This one time we were at a friends house and we all had been drinking. He passed out in the bathroom. I was obviously not thinking straight myself and I threw mouthwash on his face.. he woke up screaming in pain.. 🤷🏻‍♀️ our friends turned up this song and every time the part “you’re evil” would play they would sing it loudly and point at me.

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“I am not a robot” - Marina & The Diamonds

It is Coachella 2015 my first time. The shrooms I’ve taken have kicked in hard... my best friend and I were separated for a bit watching some different artists and was now trying to look for me while I was by the set watching Marina & the diamonds. If you are familiar with psychedelic’s you know it’s difficult to read and text.. “where are you!? I’m here & I can’t find you!” She texts me. “I can’t find me” I text her. At the same time I was at Coachella I was going through some recent heartache too. My mind was all over the place like I was enjoying myself and the other half was miserable. Marina suddenly sang “I am not a robot” a song I have not heard yet from her. Every single lyric was clear and the song just spoke to me like she got the words out of my own mouth. It was perfect. My friend found me btw

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“Young Folks” - Peter Bjorn & John

2007 I checked my voicemail and it was this song. Boyfriend had a past & we argued often. I still “went along with him” but more because he just wouldn’t leave me alone..

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“My Number” - Tegan and Sara

I want to say anywhere between 2006-2007. My sister and I decided to walk to Carl’s Jr. on a cold wet day. We carried a portable CD player with us and shared the head phones listening to this Tegan and Sara album. Whenever this song came on we would both loudly sing this part together. “He grabs me by the hand, drags me to the shore and says maybe you don’t love me but you’ll grow to love me even more and I... Well I’m not surprised!!” I’ll never understand why but I always loved that. Love you baby sister<3

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“Car underwater”- Armor for Sleep

My relationship with this guy was an odd one. I’m pretty sure we’d both agree. One day in 2008 him and I uhh let’s call him “DL” took a drive out to the desert to do my aunt a favor and pick up my little cousin from school. We passionately sang this song out loud. Many emo songs later and after the favor for my aunt. We decided to attempt to purchase alcohol at a liquor store out there. We are 19 & 18 at the time. DL approaches counter with a 6 pack of bud light. No ID was asked for. I still can’t believe that worked btw.. That day DL taught me his way to consuming much alcohol.

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“Bling(Confession of a king)” - The Killers

End of summer 2008. An 18 year old me waking up in my car 7am in the Fontana Kmart parking lot next to Nydia. Hungover because Vodkisim was the religion we stupidly followed.. the guys and us would get a whole bottle vodka and hang out at the parks and drink after hours all summer. Called it Vodkisim. That album was on repeat that summer. Thanks Tony.

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“Enjoy the silence” -Depeche Mode

Year 2006. I was 16 and had this goth boyfriend who ended being emotionally and physically abusive towards me. We had gotten into a big argument after he locked his keys in his moms mini van. This song stood out at the time dating that douchebag. He is the one responsible for getting me into what is considered “goth” music. I couldn’t listen to the song for years without thinking about him and the bad times.

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“Jessie’s girl” -Rick Springfield

My first experience at a strip club. I was 22 with my own apartment, had just became single and was starting a new life. One night around November 8, 2012, the gang at the time and I decided to spontaneously celebrate our friend Diego’s birthday by going to a strip club. Diego actually never showed up. One bottle off Sailor Jerry later I was in someone’s car with my friends on our way to a strip club “Jessie’s girl” plays, we drunkenly sing along. Very intoxicated me settling in to my new surroundings at the moment then gets asked by my best friend if I want a lap dance by one of the strippers. I accepted. Next up on stage her name was Candy. Looked like Megan Fox with big breasts. Looked over to my best friend and said “her!” Shared the lap dance with my best friend. The end.