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little young girl don’t you cry

i know you’re wise but you’ve been fooled a few times

I’m so tired of men telling me that they have deep feelings for me, yet don’t really show that they actually like things about me. I’m tired of feeling like an object that they feel they need to collect rather than a human being that they want to connect with

I can’t believe I used to hate myself so much. why did I like hurting myself?

I think I’m far past the need for sarcastic or deprecating humor. and i’m not necessarily talking about slight digs or witty/dry humor, but humor that in any other context would be hurtful or rude. it’s just…not necessary. I like lighthearted humor. it just feels more like humor lol

one thing i hate about “modern dating” is that people often conflate love bombing with someone showing that they actually want them. it really only sets people up to get their heart broken. like idk i don’t think i would want to have someone go so gung-ho about doing things or buying sweet things for me right from the start before really getting to know me. bc what about if/when they find something out about me that they don’t like and they’ve already done all that stuff for me? then when they start backing out they feel disappointed and i feel like shit and unworthy of love. i don’t take someone not cuffing me after a month of talking as a slight on my self worth because how much do you really get to know about a person in a month? after two? after three? i mean, obviously everyone has their limits but if i don’t end up in a relationship, so what? as long as i had fun and that person didn’t drag me down then i don’t see a problem. i guess i’ve gotten to a point where i know i can stop associating with people who i know aren’t good for me anymore that i feel this way. also the whole relationship label isn’t as attractive as it once was to me because ik that it won’t make me as happy as having people who genuinely add to my life does. but maybe i’m just getting old.

I almost never post on here anymore but I just kinda wanted to show off my weight loss because fuck it took a lot of work but I feel so much healthier now 🙌🏽 forty pounds down baybeeeeeeee

#weightloss #health #running #healthy eating #self care

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You have to trust the process

Because you won’t build a lifestyle overnight.

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So I uhhhhhhhhhhhh lost 30 lbs officially today after five months ish of work and I only wish I had done it sooner

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No tea no shade on me, but tbh why would anyone want me. What would I ever be perceived to offer. And why would they want to leech that off of me.

Thoughts about romance:

Sometimes I wonder if I’m really cut out for the whole dating thing. Like the idea of it sounds exciting or whatever, but actually doing it and feeling like I’m the center of someone’s intense desire is kind of unnerving. I mean yeah I haven’t “liked” anyone in nearly two years, but I don’t think I even liked that person. When we got physical, I didn’t feel totally attracted to him. But romance in general just turns me off. On one hand, being desired and sought after sounds cool and all, but at the end of the day those are just feelings, and what’s to say that that person is doing it sincerely and not just trying to fulfill some role they think they’re supposed to fill in society? So on the other hand, what is really real in the world of love? People fall in and out of love at the drop of a hat, so is falling in love in and of itself real? From my experience and perspective, it’s not leaning towards a yes so why should I play into that. Do I even have to? Will playing into that make me happier than I am? Ugh. I guess in the end, whatever happens, happens.