optimistrealist

Mel. 21. Aspiring Fiction Writer. Psychology Major.

[psych-facts]

Twenty years from now it won’t matter what shoes you wore, how your hair looked, or what kind of jeans you bought. What will matter is what you learned and how you used it.

(via psych-facts)

[melsings]

Over-Caffeinated 062317

Sweet tea this time. Chicken Express sweet tea. That shit's so good. I need to go to Kroger in the morning, preferably before it gets crowded but I might sleep in instead. I can't wait until my curtains come. -Mel<3

[melsings]

Over-caffeinated 062117

What is sleep? My sugar + caffeine intake was a disaster and my body’s tired, but my mind is still awake.

I can’t stop clenching my jaw and it’s so annoying. I need to get it fixed, but my dental implants are taking priority right now so it’ll be a while.

I don’t have class until 3:30 tomorrow, but I can’t sleep in for the life of me. I did order some curtains though, so perhaps that will help.

-Mel

[kushandwizdom]

[melsings]

Nowhere Else I’d Rather Be

My spring 2017 semester ended yesterday. I only had to take one final and I got a perfect score on it. All my grades came out good, but numbers aside, it was the best semester ever. I got to have 3/4 classes with my two favorite professors, plus I met another great professor who I am taking another class with next semester. A few years ago, I didn’t want to go to college and I didn’t think it was for me, but I’ve come so far and there’s nowhere else I’d rather be. I think I have a little over a year and a half left and then hopefully grad school.

Now to go have dental work done today.

-Mel<3

[melsings]

Irrelevant

I want to bring my Tumblr back to life. My personal blog and Facebook have sort of been a bust for a while so maybe I’ll have better luck on here. Or maybe I’m just irrelevant. One of the two.

I have a final tomorrow morning and then some down time before summer classes start. I’m taking three classes this summer and it will be terrible but worth it when those classes are out of the way. I have a little under two years left of undergrad if my math is correct. I’m excited for the future and the possibility of going to grad school, but I am terrified at the same time.

So I’ll just be blogging about my daily life and college on here for anyone who wants to listen.

-Mel<3

[sologatos]

[disbar-deactivated20160905]

Problems start when we refuse to let change happen and cling to old habits. If we hold on to the past too tight, the future may never come.

Gossip Girl (via disbar)

[nogreatillusion]

I consistently leave social situations feeling like I’ve talked too much and too loudly, and emphatically said things I don’t mean. I leave wishing I’d given more compliments and eaten more slowly. How do other people speak so fluidly, tell their stories so gracefully? I am messy and hungry and always swearing, always starting my sentences without knowing where they’ll end. 

[moonbrains]

yes yes yes yes yes yes yes

[justoutsideyourgalaxy]

Some wallpapers to make you feel more at home :)

[ajamieahhhhh1234-deactivated201]

Things only bullied kids will understand

-Beliving that none of your friends actually want to be your friend and they hate being near you -Hating normal things because they were used to mock you -Having to seek constant validation for your existance -Remembering particular insults you’ve been called for years and will probably never forget them -Beliving you’re too ugly for anyone to ever love -Not wanting to go to a new school/further education because you know the same thing will happen there -Having your parents tell you that you’re only being ‘teased’ -Having people wash their hands in disgust if they accidentally touch you.

[cursedwitchazel]

Remember, you don’t have to feel all of these to understand

[calamari-chaos]

-Having people say you like someone as a way to gross that someone out -Never quite trusting anyone. -Having people ask you out as a dare -”They’re only making fun of you ‘cause they’re jealous!” -”He’s only mean to you ‘cause he’s got a crush on you!” -Having to deal with bullshit ‘zero tolerance’ policies

[melsings]

I don't know who I am, who I am without you. All I know is that I should.

Stand Where I Stood by Missy Higgins

[fuckcons]

Highkey only want you

[itsokaytodecay]

I don’t think people realize how much strength it takes to pull your own self out of an anxiety attack or a panic attack. So if you’ve done that today or any day, I’m proud of you.

[catsbeaversandducks]

[brxkenpetal]

I AM DYING THIS IS JUST TOO CUTE 

[melsings]

Alone.

Every day I feel alone. I sit in lecture halls filled with people and feel alone. I sit in rooms with my entire family and I feel alone. At the store, in the mall, in the post office. Everywhere I go, despite the hundreds of people, I'm alone. I'm an introvert so you'd think I'd be okay with it. Sometimes I am. But sometimes I'm not. Sometimes I feel like I'm screaming at the top of my lungs and no one can hear me. No one can see me. It's like I'm fucking invisible all of the time.

[weirdbuzzfeed]

And that was when I ruled the world.