"I'm the Dressup Doll, Rio Ranger! I'm gonna support y'all on this floor! Best regaaards!"
IMPORTANT/DNI: \\\NSFW dni, im a minor (under 16) so "mdni" dni, im a nonsharing yume, goro akechi yume doubles and ranmaru kageyama yume doubles dni, fictionkin doubles 4 any of the kins that are in plain color dni. (espc Misa,Futaba,Sei, and Ranger. i very very heavily kin them) Tysm!/// other than that ig i block freely?..
srry thats alot n i seem very dramatic but those things do make me feel sick and i do not like that v much...
IRL Ranger AND Sei Satou and local "impediment to the plan" /ref
pronouns page: /en.pronouns.page/@MeltyAngel (get rid of the first slash)
selfshippers of ANY of my kintypes can absolutely interact! <3 as long as you dont flirt ofc,,
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F/o's: Goro akechi (non-sharing) Ranmaru kageyama (non-sharing) taiki shuttle (unsure) Purple lollipop (NSO) (i think non-sharing) sayori (i think sharing)
prns: he(?)/ it/they/byte/wing/sweet/pill/.exe/.txt/purr/moe/kyun/maid (i will use she refering to myself on occasion. i dont use that ok?) (dont make fun of my silly list of pronouns you are DEVOID of WHIMSY) (I ALSO HIGHLY SUPPORT PEOPLE JUST. RECCOMENDING ME PRONOUNS BASED OFF HOW THEY THINK OF ME.)
interests: YTTD, NSO, homestuck, class of 09, deltarune, PERSONA 5, umamusume, ride the cyclone, 2kawaii4comfort, danganronpa, death note, persona 3 (I HAVENT FINISHED IT LIKE AT ALL YET OK DONT SPEAK OF IT W ME I WILL GET SCARED ˶o̴̶̷᷄‸o̴̶̷̥᷅˶/vlh)
music: VOCALOID, jpop, denonbu, breakcore/dnb or wtv its called,denpa,DEVI MCCALLION!! MARETU, destroy boys.. Goreshit, shoebill, S3RL, DJ sharpnel !!!!!!!!!!!...,.."."., alot tbh.
Kintypes+: AIkin/chatbotkin/angelkin
Abt me: INFP-T 4w3 (or 6w7, maybe fluctuate between them) :3 also. im a jirai and this is partially a jirai/vent blog, you'll find vents and sensitive topics here. Also fuck it moot me up im anxious but also very lonely. AND this is a sideblog. (shh my main is silly--silver ik its cringe on there dw abt it) now if u dont like that then dont look!!! ok?
MORE abt me: i probably have traits or are at high risk of developing BPD or some other disorder but i have no therapist and my parents will never ever bring me to one so.... also im a huge people pleaser (HUGE) (the song i think describes me most is literally appetite of a people pleaser) or if i wanna be quirky kawaii desu ne (/j) abt it im an irl undere. i like thinking of my issues as dere-types sometimes (like undere, dorodere. etc.) for fun. i tend to lie, hide things abt myself etc so that i can be accepted.. if i suddenly come to you like " i lowk had a grudge against you for weeks but never told you " dont be shocked. i also struggle heavily with identity issues. this actually includes not being able to tell when im lying or not.
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~⊱༺ MAL IS MALFUNCTIONING༻⊰~ (vents)
~⊱༺ mal's digital joy༻⊰~ (my interests)
~⊱༺ loading response....༻⊰~ (askss)
⊱༺ LET ME INFECT U!༻⊰~ (reblogsss)
~⊱༺ POPUP!༻⊰~ (anyth i say)
~⊱༺ lovesick virus༻⊰~ (yumeshipper vents) (old)
~⊱༺ my beloved༻⊰~ (ranting abt my f/o's)(old)
Decoration internet-y thingys under !! I forgot LMFAO
Mal remembers when It used to speak in 3rd person..... that was lowk fun He needs to go back to his roots. now all She needs to do is pop out the rice shower dividers. (They still have those btw lol.)
i feel like either a creepy stalker on here or some old guy who used to be famous going "yeah.... i remember the good ol days when people liked me on jiraiblr.....heh...a loooongggg longgggg time ago...."
IM SICK OF BEING SICK IN A WAY NOBODY UNDERSTANDS CAN I JUST BE NORMAL FOR ONCE SOMETIMES ITS LIKE THE SPIRIT OF A TORMENTED OC WITH EVERY TRAUMATIC SITUATION IN THE BOOK SWAPPED EMOTIONS WITH MY BODY DESPITE MY LIFE NOT EVEN BEING THAT BAD OH MY FUCKCCCCKKKING GOD. AND NOW IM ALSO FREAKING OUT OVER THIS ACCOUNT. PEOPLE CAN SEE ME??? AND SEE MY POSTS???? BUT DEEP DOWN I WONDER IF ANYONE ON HERE IS EVEN REAL. OR IF IM REAL. IF SOMEONE SEES THIS POST DO THEY RECOGNIZE ME AS A PERSON? CAN SOMEONE SEE ME AT ALL? IF SOMEONE TALKS TO ME I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO TELL WHICH OF US IS REAL AND WHO ISNT. i feel so deeply cut off of society for every year ive been alive im wondering if i even exist to other people. if i met someone do they remember my existence like i do theirs? if they go away do they just stop existing???? DO I CONTROL EVERYTHING THATS REAL BY PERCEIVING IT OR DOES EVERYTHING CONTROL ME???? IS EVERYTHING ALREADY SET OUT FOR ME THE MOMENT I WAS BORN??? CAN I EVEN CHANGE ANYTHING OR IS THERE SOME FUCKED UP GOD THAT KNOWS WHERE ALL MY PATHS LEAD TO. AAAHHHH FUCKING GOD DAMMNIT IVE GONE SO LONG WITHOUT THINKING OF THIS BULLSHIT IM GOING BACK AGAIN FUCKCKCKK
out of all things i could be anxious about im anxious because im getting into TOO many things at once. can i freak out over like normal things please like if im gonna be anxious and horrified can it be about something bad that actually happened instead of "i got back into A too quickly but also i need to catch up with B but im interested in C and i need to keep playing D and if i do one thing too fast or if i am not equally interested in all or a few of them im going to completely lose interest and that is bad and can happen at ANY moment and i am changing too quickly!!!!" GIVE ME NORMAL WORRIES. I WANT TO BE WORRIED ABOUT SOMETHING *NORMAL* ohmygosh.
OH. MY. GOD. IS THERE A WAY TO GET YOUR OWN BRAIN TO SHUT THE FUCKCKCKKK UPPPOPPPPO OH MY GOD IM IM IM IM ACTUALLY GOINGBOMSNANNAB INSANEEEE IM GOING INSANE OMG GET IT TO SHUT UP I KEEP THINKING OF THINGS I DONT WANNA THINK ABOUT I FEEL LIKE IM GONNA WAKE UP FROM A NAP AND EVERYONES GONNA HATE ME FOR SOMETHING I DONT EVEN KNOW I DID OR SMTH IM AAAGHHH aaaaaAAAAAHHH I CANT DISTRACT MYSELF I WANT IT TO ENDDDDDDDD DUDE I KEEP GETTINGBHORRIBLE INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS ABT THINGS I LIKE TOO AND IT STRESSES ME OUT SO I HAVE TO AVOID IT FOREVER UNTIL IM SO STRESSED OUT ABOUT IT THAT I CANT ACTUALLY ENJOY IT im so tired FUCUCKKK AAHAHAAHHA
sPARKLES RAINBOWS PONIES SMILES CUPCAKES YAY YA YAY YAY!!! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY YIPPEE YA AYAYAYYAYAY AYAYJAHHAHAABYAYYY AYYYA YYAYAYYA HAPPY SPRINKLES YAY YAY SMILES AND RAINBOWS YAY YAY IGAHAHAHAHANH WOOOGOOO WOOHOO WOOHOO YAY YAY WAHKOO HHAHTGWHAHSGWGGSGDGDHSHAHAAYAHAHAHH PONIES AND SMILES AND GIGGLES AND PIE YAY YAYY AYYYAY EVRRYTHING IS GREAT im hoing insane......baha.... im just so CRAZY... im just sooooo CRRARXXZZYYYYYY WAHOO.
When im having a good day but i hear the things i love begging me to die a brutal and slow death. so i have to. stare into the distance hoping it will stop.
MY INTERNET IS SO SLOW AND IT IS GENUINELY FRUSTRATING ME SO BADLY. I WANT TO RIP INTO SOMEONES FLESH AND TEAR OUT THEIR ORGANS IM SO MAD..... also i was watching a show and i was REALLY REALLY REALLY EXCITED TO WATCH IT TODAY. AND NOW I CANT. AND ITS PISSING ME THE FUCK OFF. I DONT WANNA SPEND ANOTHER DAY SCROLLING SOME DUMB FUCKING BULLSHIT OH MY LORD. i genuinely was extremely looking forward to this, and now i cant. fuck my life bro. i have been thinkinf about it nonstop. this is such bullshit. KILLLLLLL EVERYONNENEEEESAHAHAHAGAGVEVDBFGNGGN
I FEEL PHYSICALLY SICK WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO BE STUCK WITH MY THOUGHTS LIKE THIS. I FEEL DISGUSTED BY MY BODY I WANT TO RIP IT OFF AND ERASE EVERYTHING EW EW EW EW EW EW EW.
i feel 10 and disgusted with myself again
its so quiet and loud at the same time
fuckcckkckrjGFFafaghagaaAAAAGAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i dont even have any energy or anxiety to have a panic attack or something so im just sitting here disgusted and wishing i could vomit.
