Walking Trigger Warning

My main account is @usernotfound341 where I post smut-ish and rant sometimes. I made this blog to rant more about mental health and my issues on that front. I’m 19 and I have a long list of mental illnesses: general anxiety, social anxiety, depression, AUDHD, ptsd, SPD (sensory processing disorder), and some jumbled up combination of eating disorders.

[mental-mess-lol]

Hey y’all! (I am not from the south, it’s just fun to say). This is my little introduction about myself.

I am queer (sapphic, lesbian, honestly I have no idea), I’m probably gender fluid (afab but still trying to figure out what is happening with thy gender), I’m 19, and I am practically a walking mental health trigger warning.

I have: depression, generalized anxiety, social anxiety, SPD (sensory processing disorder), AuDHD, PTSD, I have some weird mash up of multiple eating disorders, I struggle with self harm, and I’m probably missing some.

I will probably mostly be ranting about mental health or gender-related things here and probably reposting relatable or helpful posts.

Feel free to ask me any questions or reach out to me for help ❤️‍🩹

[kosmogrl]

it’s so humbling when you think the weather will magically make you feel better and then you’re outside the sun is shining and you’ve never felt worse

[mental-mess-lol]

I stuck my head out the window earlier thinking it might help my panic attack but I inhaled a bug and started diabolically crying and hyperventilating more and gagging

[angel-lennon-222]

you can take the girl out of the eating disorder

but you can’t take the eating disorder out of the girl

[hylianane]

functionally suicidal character saying “I would die for you” to their significant other and its like. I get the sentiment, honey, but if a hot dog vendor told me he’d sell hot dogs for me, I wouldn’t feel very moved now would I

[victusinveritas]

[black-crested-jaybird]

I always think of the description I saw years ago: Self-imposed deadlines don't help me, because I know the person who set them, and they're full of shit.

[makingtrouble]

Give yourself the treat before you start. I'm serious. And ideally during the task and afterwards too.

Executive dysfunction comes from a lack of available dopamine. Common advice is wrong. You need to provide your own dopamine before you can start. Otherwise you're trying to run your car on empty.

"But what if I still don't do it" well you already weren't getting it done anyway. Now you have a little treat. Try again later.

You deserve kindness and care even when you aren't being productive.

(Also read How to Keep House While Drowning by KC Davis)

[luguuuu]

[mental-mess-lol]

Me recently. It’s just been so hot and I’ve been using so much brain power that when I get home, I lay on the floor next to my AC vent for at least 15 minutes

[restinpiss]

The feeling of picking your skin is infinitely more euphoric than any fidget toy

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

It's always "stop harming yourself or we'll have to lock you up!!!" and never "what do you need to change to want to harm yourself less and how can we help you make some of these changes?" and that's why we're not getting anywhere

[femme-fl0ra]

*head hitting wall noises*

[ruhrohrexia]

i wont worry about it i say to myself with the always worried disorder

[goth-queen]

[roryslaces]

[wingkink]

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

[coquettelust]

what doesn’t kill you makes your nervous system more sensitive for the rest of your life

[cannagracie]

hey i noticed your vibe was off for .5 seconds, was it something i did?

[wrappedinchaosx1]

i am either completely fine or i am thinking about everything at once there’s no in between

[tofranil10mg]