Angel.

[mercilessisme]

I think I'm done with letting you treat me like shit. You were my first real love, the the beginning you showed me what love was, but by the end I was empty and a shell. I will always love you and care for you. But I'm allowed to move on. Like we said, we don't know what will happen in the future. But for now we need to experience life. Live life. I think I want to start...I'm less and less scared of what you'll do if I move on everyday. You don't fulfill me anymore, I can finally say that. You were my first love, maybe you'll be my last, but for now, I'm going to do me. I'm going to experience life, I'm going to see and do what I want. Fall in love, not only with others but with myself. There are so many types of love. I deserve to not be scared. I deserve to be treated nicely. I deserve community. I deserve the world, and I'm gonna give it to myself. So...let's see where life takes us, maybe one day we'll meet again and it'll be time.

[mercilessisme]

Sorry corona, my shit mental health means I go on public transit for an 2 hours (there and back) for a thearpy apt. Weekly

Also 45 min - an hour everyday that I go to school (there and back so about 2 hours depending)

[mercilessisme]

Update on corona thearpy 😔 I video chatted one every other week and called the other one once a month and now I'm not even in thearpy 😂😬. Years of it and I'm finally out, congrats? I think?

[soulsuck]

*

sex with him is like harming yourself

you might think that you want it

or even that you need it

but you don't

here we go

it starts with a kiss

you know it's wrong

but it feels so good

the cut

his hands on your shaking body

touching him

belonging him

the blood running down your sleeve

but when it's over

the pain kicks in

the guilt trips over

you're left alone

[mercilessisme]

I think I'm falling in love with you all over again and it scares me.

[life-at-work]

[mercilessisme]

Everyday I feel less connected. To the world, to myself, to others.

I remember having friends and being close to others. I'm not sure how to do that now. I want to be close to others but...I feel numb. I barely have the effort to breath anymore.

[mercilessisme]

I thought I was doing okay. I thought I was handling it well. But I feel so numb to everything. Why. Why did the world introduce us if we were only going to lead to ruin. Sometimes I wonder if we are going to meet in the future and fall in love, you would get to know me for who I am then. We could talk about how it just wasn't the right time. Forgive one another for everything and leave it in the past.

Somebody asked me today why I stayed through what I did. I didn't have time to think before the words escaped my mouth, "love is blind". I forgave the unforgivable in the name of love. I wonder if because of those things there will ever be a chance for us again. I wonder if one day I will grow to the point where I not only don't need you, I don't want you.

I miss our love.

[mercilessisme]

Sorry corona, my shit mental health means I go on public transit for an 2 hours (there and back) for a thearpy apt. Weekly

Also 45 min - an hour everyday that I go to school (there and back so about 2 hours depending)

[ankle-beez]

su future: steven has ptsd

us:

[thatgirlneedsaxanax]

I just wanna say… From the bottom of my heart… Get the fuck away from me if you have bad intentions

[teawiththegods]

[spaceyshenanigans]

Me, whenever I’m insulted:

[anxietyproblem]

[bebx]

The story of Beb’s life

[babiesarelazy]

[middlescjool]

buzzfeed unsolved ?¿ yes ma’am

[psychicpinenut]

summary of this episode