all the things he said, running through my head

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“I don’t want to start any blasphemous rumours, but I think that God’s got a sick sense of humour, and when I die I expect to find him laughing”

— Blasphemous Rumours by Depeche mode

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nine months later and you're still on my mind. the first thought every morning. my last thought every night. you still haunt me in my dreams. you were my safety, my security, my sense of peace, you were my home. without you, I have nowhere to go, nowhere to live, nowhere to be safe. I never knew how much I adored you until someone else took you away.

i begged God for this family, he delivered, until someone else played God with my life.

I am not healing despite how hard I try.

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I went through an ugly split nine months ago. It's genuinely ruined my life. He blocks and unblocks me every single day. Why? If I'm so awful, if he wants nothing to do with me, why block and unblock? Why not leave me blocked?