hi, hello - my name is sara and i write depraved things about pedro pascal characters. i'm not super into writing one-shots (love reading them tho) so all my stories are in series format. my DMs are always open, i love talking fics, pedro, tlou, narcos, and anything at all regarding men old enough to be my father.
happy reading, i appreciate you all tremendously <3
Back Where the Bluebonnets Bloom [ joel miller ]
"She stood there for a minute, shifting from one foot to the other, her neck craned back so she could smile up at him, bright and unabashedly, like she hadn't left him here alone for the last seventeen years, like he was her favorite person on this planet. The sight tore into him, ripped open something soft and spongy he could only keep caged in her absence."
summary: Joel and Willow grew on the same street in Austin, Texas; they went to the same school, they rode the same bus, they spent almost every day from the ages of eight to eighteen together. Best friends, inseparable. Then adulthood got in the way. Willow moved to California for college, Joel stayed behind and started a construction company with his brother.
Two marriages, two divorces, and one child later, and Joel and Willow haven’t seen each other in over ten years. But when Willow moves back to Austin to try to spark some inspiration back into her career, the two are forced to face their intertwined past.
pairing: joel miller x ofc rating: 18+ mdni
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Joel and Willow were childhood best friends who haven’t lived in the same city for seventeen years, until Willow moves back to Austin and they get a second chance at what should have been.Â
First chapter coming to AO3 on September 1st.
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To the Light [ joel miller ]
"He was such a greedy fuck, when had that happened? What was it about her that had turned him into this… desperate, frenzied, fucking insatiable man that had stooped to the point of planning his entire day around getting a glimpse of her. It wasn’t just one thing, he knew that, rather it was an amalgamation of everything about her, everything he could see, everything he knew, and the large cavern of things he didn’t know, but wanted to so badly it ate away at him, like a virus, like fucking cordyceps, surging through his body and altering his brain chemistry, his ambitions and intent, so that it was just her, his sole focus was just her."
summary: Joel finds a young woman being held hostage by a group of men while he's out on patrol one day. He brings her back to Jackson, where she's given the opportunity to have something resembling a real life, for the first time. The two of them orbit around each other, destined to crash, if both of their reservations don't get in the way.
pairing: joel miller x ofc rating: 18+ mdni word count: 96.8k (complete)
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Joel finds the love of his life lost in the woods.
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Read insatiable (a To the Light one-shot) here.
Read hearth (a To the Light one-shot) here.
Dawn [ javier peña ]
"It had been wrong, back then, his feelings for her. He'd known that and that's why he'd never let anything happen between the two of them. But he'd always been weak. That first time he'd seen her after Richie had gone off to fight a war just as brutal and useless and the one he'd been fighting out in Colombia, that first time he'd really seen her— just a glimpse as she left the market, bag hoisted up on her hip, long, wavy hair bouncing behind her, shapely legs visible in that little yellow sundress that hugged her waist just right— he'd been a fucking goner."
summary: Javier Peña returns to his hometown after leaving the DEA. He doesn't want the undeserving praise everyone is trying to push on him, he doesn't really want anything at all, beyond a quiet life on his father's ranch, such a stark contrast to the atrocities he'd witnessed over the ten years away. But there's one familiar face that he can't seem to shake no matter how hard he tries.
pairing: javier peña x ofc rating: 18+ mdni word count: 80.8k (complete) a.n. first chapter of my new Javi fic is up! each chapter will be named after a Lana Del Rey song with a corresponding lyric (idk Javi is Lana coded to me). I hope you enjoy <3
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Javier Peña falls for his best friend's little sister.
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Nights Like This One [ joel miller ]
"Joel couldn't resist the tug any longer, finally succumbing to the dull ache at the base of his spine as he turned around and locked eyes with her— bright fucking blue, twinkling animatedly when they met his. Most of the time her eyes looked hollow, devastatingly so, but he'd noticed that when they got into these bickering matches her eyes lightened, and so then how was he ever expected to stop?"
summary: Joel Miller is hired by an elderly woman to fix up her home. However, in the middle of the renovations, she dies and her daughter, Lily, moves from California to Austin to live in her mother's home. Joel continues to work on the house despite the two of them constantly butting heads. Tensions rise and the two are destined to crash whether they like it or not.
(Initially takes place pre-outbreak, story spans through outbreak day, all the way to 2023).
pairing: joel miller x ofc rating: 18+ mdni word count: 142.6k (complete) a.n. hi my friends! a few things: i did change sarah's age because i wanted to, i have creative liberty this is MY FUCKIN STORY!! lol. also i know nothing about construction, so i apologize, watch me make shit up with only google as my guide. please don't hate or be mean to my OC, she's going through some shit and the roles will be reversed later on after outbreak day, so let her be the emotionally unavailable, cold one for now. chapter length will be much shorter than most of my other fics solely because this has so many chapters. i'm writing it more in novel format than fic format, so forgive me. blame my useless, $120k creative writing degree. i hope you enjoy this. i'm having a lot of fun writing it.
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Joel Miller finds the love of his life right before the world ends.
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Amor Fati [ alpha!din djarin au ]
"Perhaps it was his own form of rebellion that he still had not had the Vision, at forty-five years old. Not that those things were controllable, but it did serve as some bit of flimsy vindication that Din did not have a mate, someone to fuck babies into for the satisfaction of the government. Of course, not every alpha had a true mate, but those that didn't still usually mated with one of the unmated omegas, they still served their purpose. Din had never fucked an omega, would never fuck an omega."
summary: Din lives in the lonesome world of unmated alphas. Ever since The Collapse he's hated this world, what it's become, what it's turned people into. Until he has The Vision, perhaps twenty years too late, he sees her face.
And then nothing, not even his flimsy morals, can keep him from finding her.
pairing: din djarin x ofc rating: 18+ mdni word count: 64.4k (complete) a.n. hi my friends!!!! i've been cooking this one up since November, so i'm super excited to start sharing. i've never written ABO before, so please be gentle with me. i may break some rules, but i do hope you'll forgive me. FYI this will be real AU -- no helmet, no star wars, mostly modern world with some world building involved. i hope you enjoy!
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The Din Djarin A/B/O AU
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The Measure of Man [ joel miller ]
"All his sins, all the atrocities he'd committed, all the blood that stained his hands had finally caught up to him. The third time Joel nearly died he accepted it, not with relief, not with hope, but with grave assent. He asked for forgiveness as he slipped into death's cold embrace, he asked for mercy, not for a miracle, not for a second chance, he only asked for sympathy, for charity, a chance to go anywhere but the fiery afterlife he knew he was condemned to."
summary: There are people of virtue who believe themselves to be monsters. There are monsters who believe themselves to be human. Most of us, though, exist in the impalpable space between monster and human.Â
pairing: joel miller x ofc rating: 18+ mdni word count: 90.4k (completed) a.n. hello and welcome!! the first two chapters of this will serve as an intro to the characters and the plot, so they'll be much shorter than the following chapters. hope you enjoy!!
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Joel is saved by a woman he believes to be an angel, who believes herself to be a monster.
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The Human Condition [ therapist!joel miller au ]
"Joel passed his palm over his mouth, his eyes drifting over to the clock on his office wall for perhaps the fifth time in the last thirty minutes. He dreaded his one o'clock appointment, but not for the reasons that he should. He dreaded it because he looked forward to it far more than was appropriate, for reasons that would surely get him fired."
summary: Violet Wood is lost, thinks perhaps she's been lost since the day she was born.
Joel Miller is a psychiatrist who has experienced a tremendous loss of his own.
Neither of them are expecting each other.
pairing: joel miller x ofc rating: 18+ mdni word count: 53.1k (complete) warnings: extreme trigger warnings for suicidal behavior/attempts, mental health discussion, EDs, self-harm, depression, anxiety a.n. i have been thinking about this forever, and i'm really excited to start sharing, albeit slowly. hope you all enjoy <3
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The Joel Miller Therapist AU
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The Age of Innocence [ joel miller]
"He didn't know what was coming over him, he'd always thought she was sweet, cute maybe, but never once had he noticed just how full her bottom lip was, how pert her ass was, how pretty it was when the apples of her cheeks filled with color."
summary: Nestled in the Sierra Nevada mountains is an old gold mining town— Twain Harte— named after the American authors Mark Twain and Bret Harte, both of which never lived there. A woman named Liliana does though, and when she was a little girl she was saved by a man, a man she has spent twenty years loving from afar.
Until something changes.
pairing: joel miller x ofc rating: 18+ mdni word count: 80.1k (complete) a.n. lmao i hate myself. i've been slowly adding to this idea for a while, and i'm too excited about it to wait until after i write Fate Forgone Virtue, so i guess i'm writing them simultaneously?? I used to live in Twain Harte, so i'm very excited about the setting of this one. each chapter will be named after a place within the town. also the playlist for this one is a little different, i wanted to compile a bunch of songs that remind me of my time living there, rather than ones that relate to the story per se. i'll shut up now! i hope you enjoy <3
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Joel Miller finds himself infatuated with a young woman who has loved him all her life.
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Mercy for Those Seeking [ joel miller ]
"Sometimes it felt like Ophelia had been fighting to stay above water her entire life, just waiting to finally drown, waiting for the water in her lungs to surge up into her larynx, or her vocal cords, closing them up and cutting off her oxygen."
summary: Sometimes it takes a moment akin to an atom bomb to remake a life. Other times, all it takes is a whisper. This is both. For fate can exist as a single, chance meeting.
pairing: joel miller x ofc rating: 18+ mdni word count: 106.9k (complete) a.n. been working on this one while i've been away and i'm very excited to start sharing. i thought i would wait a bit longer, but i'm nothing if not impatient. i really hope you enjoy this one, it's a bit different than my other fics, but i hope that won't deter you.
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Joel is a construction worker. Ophelia is an architect. Chance or fate brings them together and sends Ophelia on a journey of rebirth.
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Requiem [ ghost!din djarin ]
"Some things— some phenomena— don't allow for escape, they don't provide room for disregard. Sometimes people find themselves tethered to a place, a thing, an idea, a person with something indestructible, a reinforced rope one cannot saw through nor ignore. Let this be a warning or a promise, perhaps both, as oftentimes the two come intertwined."
summary: Some souls are tied— bound together through life and death, through centuries of reincarnation, intertwined with something stronger than steel.
Din Djarin has been dead for fifty years, trapped in black nothingness, some liminal space between this realm and the next, until he is summoned back to a small town in Washington by the arrival of Annabelle Larson— whose name he has heard ringing in his head for as long as he can remember.
pairing: din djarin x ofc rating: 18+ mdni word count: 79k (completed) a.n. i'm so fucking excited about this. most of my stories are based in reality, but this is very much paranormal/fantasy/sci-fi. not even the town is real. I'M MAKIN' SHIT UP! i really hope you enjoy this, i've been thinking about writing a ghost fic since last december when i saw Nosferatu.
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The Din Djarin Ghost AU
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Sanctuary [ javier peña ]
"She glanced over at him, her lips hinting at a smile as his pretty brown eyes locked on hers. She wanted him to tell her something now, not that she had taken him here as a greedy means of give and take, even though that’s all their relationship was. Give and take. Just sex. If she couldn’t know his last name or why he had scars all over his chest, then she wanted to know what he thought was beautiful, what he thought was ugly, what existed in both spaces for him."
summary: Takes place after the third season-- Javier moves to San Francisco to escape what he'd witnessed in Colombia over the past several years. The DEA is desperate to get him down to Mexico to help take down the Guadalajara Cartel, but Javier isn't so sure he wants to continue down that path. His decision only becomes increasingly more difficult when he meets a bartender named Emma, whose commitment issues seem to mirror his own.
pairing: javier peña x ofc rating: 18+ mdni word count: 93.4k (complete)
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Javier Peña meets his match in the form of a little bartender in San Francisco.
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