Never Easy.
I am by no means a perfect human being nor do I delude myself into thinking that I am. I have done things that I regret and wish that I could take back.
Often times, I wonder if I should have ever have become a mother. I have little to no patience. My children grate on my last nerve. I’m a work-a-holic and much prefer to be at work than to being at home, parenting. Dealing with what I have to deal with on a daily basis.
But then there are glimmers that I’m doing something right. Watching John sift through his math worksheets and just flying through them. The way Haley giggles when she hears something she thinks is funny but nine times out of ten is absolutely stupid and there shouldn’t be a giggle involved.
My life isn’t easy. I struggle daily to keep my temper down. To make sure that my temper doesn’t fly off the handle at the wrong people. Especially with my children.
If I have to do one thing right in the world, I want to make sure that they are decent human beings and don’t end up like me.
