Midnight Misadventures

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I just love my little life

All of it feels worth it

Im living my dream life

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Yosemite National park California - Author: _KissyGlow

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Dreamt about a 2013 revival

Or maybe Dad was just watching GIRLS

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i love you i'll say it, in a secret language

DID YOU HEAR WHAT MY WORDS COULDNT TELLLLLLL 💔☺️💓❤️

[indieteen]

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Babe era staple

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WAIT THIS IS FUCKING LA??????

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Im high so im a little spacey but im just sitting in my boyfriends truckk on a beautiful sunny day at like noon, he just got coffee, we're running errands and this is peace

Right now sitting in the parking lot of the bank in his car waiting for him to come back. Yes to forever, i could do this forever

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this post is free haha

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We were in the kitchen. He was making pancakes and he held the kitten up like simba, giggling and looking at me

Its getting really hard to not to say i love you becasue im running out of ways to rephrase "youre the best thing thats ever happened to me"

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i love you i'll say it, in a secret language

did you hear what my words couldn't tell?

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He's outdone himself FUCK

This may be the most meaningful release since....

well single since the big era

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My favorite artist of all time

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Secret Language Ryan Beatty Out Now

trying not to cry

it couldnt have been any better

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I’m so sorry Liam

I’m sorry i didn’t listen 

That i don’t listen

I’m sorry that I took on your hardship when you didn’t ask me too, and that I made it your problem. I blamed you for not fixing something you weren’t in the position to fix and i hovered and i pushed when you didn’t want me there. 

I now realize that it was an invasion of your privacy. You weren’t just pushing me away you were politely asking me to leave, to stay out of it. And i assumed my stubbornness would be appreciated. 

You are the best thing that’s ever happened to me, and you changed my life in ways i’ll only ever be able to explain to you in person. You are my babe. My person. And even though my love was genuine its not fair to treat you like a mission and not a person. 

I was using the idea of you to prove to myself that i was attractive enough to keep your attention. Someone who you’d want on your arm. 

I have so much love for you that I was so obsessed with showing it, ive never been in love and i just wanted to put all this admiration somewhere. And prove…..that the love i give…..could make someone feel good. I like actually didn’t want anything in return, i just wanted to show how “good” i would be at it since no one would let me. I wanted it to make you feel good, and it didnt make you feel good and I didn’t take accountability for that. I blamed you, for not giving me a place to put all my emotion. 

But you didn’t ask for that, and that’s not your fault. 

You were so self aware, that you couldn’t properly give love back in return. And you told me that, and i didn’t listen. I knew I didnt want anything back from you, i just loved you so much, and I didnt understand why you wouldnt take what i was giving. I didn’t take into consideration that it would make you uncomfortable to receive and receive and not be in the position to properly give. 

You couldn’t, its not my business why but you couldn’t. And you told me, and I didn’t listen. 

I’m sorry.

I’m so sorry Liam, for not listening, for putting pressure on you to see something you weren’t looking for, im so sorry for rushing you’re healing by insinuating it should look just like mine. 

I’m not perfect. I know that. I’m less perfect than you could probably realize. And to be honest, i don’t even know what i’m doing. I have no right to play god with your feelings. This isn’t in my hands, and it never was. And i have to accept that. 

I don’t want to pretend to know what you’re feeling anymore, so when you’re ready to tell me yourself. I’ll be here. I’ll respect your boundaries and i’ll wait. 

For what it’s worth, I love you. To the moon and back. 

And I’m sorry. 

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Interviewer: And Arielle how often are you smoking the pink floyd?

Me: I’d say every night

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this being posted on the original babe day and I didn’t even smoke yet

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2:22

Long time no talk really. Ive been so busy i cant breathe.

But today i finished with the biggest stressor i had in a while so for a brief moment i feel like i can breathe again and take a break. Its an illusion i know. But the therws a mohtn left of the semester and i have milluon ofbthe best things planned with the bsst friends in the world

Like i said before i havent really gotten the chance to think about guya in a sec. Ive been swiping profusely but i just get bored and dont care enough.

Anyway my real point, i didnr get to talk in depth about the christian dream becauae inhad that huge thing today. But it felt magically. It was so aesthetic and so sweet.

At this point it just feels like a vision. We were with friends, amd friends of friends amd thats how i got talking to Christian. It started off as just that and then we werw being so soft and adorable.

It felt like that euphoric summer august of last semsester feeling. Like ubering, warm weather, and runaway by global dan. BUT if that feeling was like a thundering day storm aesthetic. Where everyones chillin and vibing and playing guitar.

It gives me butterflies. Idk how it happened but i just remember feeling he was into me abd being ao happy but surprised like no wayyy. Hes being so open and sweet about it. And asking people if he said anything about me and stuff but then trying to spend all my time with him.

Laying on him.amd talking, legit kissing him, kissing his face and him kissing mine. Playing with his hair. It was so unorthodox to me in the moment. Not that i dont find Christian Leave attractive but....idk i dont feel like i would ever seek him out.

But his personality and presence was so comforting and now in real life i just wanna be his gf. Cause hes just not like an overly macho masculine man that i guess i typically fantasize about.

He was soft and not that lol. Which again i like in theory but applying felt interestting. Especially because i always feel like guys like that are not into me and stuff.

This is getting weird. But the dream was magical and so cute and sweet and i want a boyfriend :(((

Also why Christian Leave. I dont know him that well, or in real life yet he didnt feel like a vessel. Idk.

I want more love dreams and i want to remember them.

Uni? More Christian content tonight pwease

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!!!! Uni!! More Christian content tonight pwease

No seriously I think this is the equivalent of the babe dream to Liam.

Its always a couple years after the dream that I meet the person

Idk im open to love in all forms right now but wow I want the softy Christian pink hoodie wearing Leave

I want him bad

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Another retreat down and let me tell you

Absolutely NO death of a bachelor yet. Like....wow hahahahahaha

Hes still a fucking bachelor and hes running on all of us

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For all the Babe fans!! And the beattbyy.rtf stans

WE HAVE A NEW RYAN SONG TONIGHT

IM.HIGH ready to listen, meditate, and hear a message