I am grateful and pleasantly surprised by the support of some of the people in my life. Even the person who has a tendency to be problematic was so empathetic. I think I kind of got triggered by the guy that told me āDefinitely take time to decompress, perhaps hiking or walking can help?ā I wanted to be like stfu stfu stfu. Why are you giving me a plan of action? Why are you telling me that after something heavy? Itās insensitive. It hasnāt even been 24 hours.
I was talking to AP about some stuff. He has his issues and isnāt perfect, but I was happy to see him help others out, especially for RY. RY was a cause of worry for some of us, but Iām glad he had at least one person he felt comfortable enough to be open with. Also talked to AP about the deaths in our lives. Iām glad heās been taking care of himself and trying to get his sibling to do the same. The reality of the future is kind of bleak, but we can still try to do our best today and make it a bit more bearable. It is tiring, though.
I was talking to LM about some stuff. Iām so tired of people doing stupid shit and self-sabotaging. Iām so tired of selfish, egocentric people. Iām tired of people. Tired of witnessing unloyal, two-faced people. I am cynical, Iāll admit. I think the small pockets of genuine selfishness I see from others are what help me not give up hope on society. To those, I say thank you.








