You can call me M! I’m Non-binary and I use he/they pronouns. I'm a 24 year old college student based out of the Southeastern united states. I love sad ass music (MITSKI MY BELOVED) and over-analyzing background characters.
Currently I’m super obsessed with The Amazing Digital Circus (Gangle and Ragatha are my favorites ❤️💙)
Other than TADC I’m a fan of:
Homestuck, Dungeons & Dragons (Dimension 20), Undertale/Deltarune (Im currently playing Deltarune), Poppy Playtime, FNAF and a lot of other things. Generally speaking I love any and all indie horror!
I am also an avid AO3 author! I have recently gotten back into writing again as one of my jobs gives me the freedom to write on the clock! (Boss makes a dollar, I make a dime, that’s why I write fanfiction on company time)
I'm a Queer Leftist. FUCK ICE, FUCK TRUMP And FUCK A.I.
The off label drug research run by the MS Society and MS Trust in the UK and the National MS Society in the US are the only reason I can walk right now. Decent charities.
we have to thank our brave soldiers in fandom who write gen fics. we have to thank our brave soldiers in fandom who write character studies and stories with no focus on romance or sex. we have to get on our knees and thank the brave soldiers in fandom who write about minor characters and friendship and family with no focus on romance or sex. i know it’s hard to care about characters in a world that seems to only revolve around ships but i see you. and i love you
I've been seeing so many cool as hell character analyses of Simon's character and his aggression, that I thought I'd take a crack at it! This post is greatly inspired by @ctrl-shift-alt-9 's blog, they have some really cool ideas to bring to the table, and they don't shy away from making Simon look bad.
Which, I wanna open up a paragraph to say, Simon looking bad is fucking important. If you're against the death penalty, you have to be against it for everyone, not just for people you pick and choose. If it is, you'll try to make the people who you don't think deserve it fit in the category of innocent person, which I think ended up being applied to Simon. To believe in restorative justice, you have to believe the not-innocent person has the means to get better. Which is exactly what I think is going on with Simon! And isn't that so much more compelling, anyway? That someone who was once terrible and terrifying decided to make the world a better place instead? Rather than being perfect from the start, or doubling down and insisting on what they did?
Many people are inclined to believe Simon has an aggression disorder. Maybe it's true! I've seen someone ( @lxcke ) point it might be intermittent explosive disorder, which, his behavior in the movie really matches what I've read up on, almost like it was tailor made. I wouldn't be surprised, Simon grew up with all kinds of trauma and that shit has lasting effect on the mind. But, this post here also points out that people get really weird when they're cornered and scared. Simon is in an extremely stressful, painful and scary situation, and he knows it.
That's what I wanna talk about. He knows it. He's bizarrely self-aware of his responses and reactions through the entire movie. One scene that comes to mind is, when chasing for the location of the skeleton, he apologizes to Ava for the radiation blast. Those are his words:
Like ctrl-shift-alt-9 pointed out, his past history implies aggression was likely encouraged and a safe emotion to feel. While I believe this kind side isn't new to him, Someone with this possible track record being this self-aware of his emotions while in the Situation That Makes You Lose The Plot is fucking commendable. Not only that, he's admitting vulnerability and fear to his captors. He's confessing guilt and apologizing to people he knows might not want to pull him out of the blood ocean, might just execute him in there. Like, yeah he insists several times to Ava that he'll be free, but that's a normal response especially with his agreement with the COI. We're looking at what he's like when in touch with his emotions.
In several times in the movie, Simon lashes out, and then immediately feels bad about it and tries to ground himself. When he breaks the speaker and sobs afterwards, when he hits the panel and says sorry to it. When he tries to get the computer to work after finding the SM-8 the first time - he hits the mouse but moves on and says it's not his problem. Even when he's talking to the eel's speaker voice, he hits the panel again, then sighs tiredly and cries.
This man is extremely aware he's inside the Torment Nexus, and he's trying to remain focus and not crash out and lose his entire shit so he can survive. I'd say he's focused on beating his own aggression, has been deconstructing it for a while, in order to, like he said to Ava during the hangar scene, make amends. I think it's a fair assessment to say, based on such observations, he doesn't want to be violent, not anymore. Someone who automatically says sorry to an inanimate object is someone whose first intention is to be kind. At least, kinder. I always think your second thoughts on something (saying sorry) are your real ones, cause the first thoughts (hitting shit) are usually the ones conditioned into you.
Hell, I'd say Simon is way more in touch with his own emotions, way more aware of his own responses to pain and punishment, than anyone in the COI, definitely more than Ava. He's probably been dealing with his guilt and what he wants to do about it since Filament Station and prison.
And, why, why in the fuck is he so self-aware? How can he be so adjusted in the Makes You Crash Out And Lose Your Shit Death Box? It took until the end of the movie for him to unleash the Butcher again and hit every teeth in the submarine. Is this bad writing? Did Markiplier, in all his complexities for Simon, made someone who irrealistically reacts to life or death situations?
Nah. I honestly, genuinely believe it was that or dead. Simon needs to ground himself and focus on survival, and that's part of how he does it. From locking in and making his own map of the AT-5 tunnels, to apologizing and admitting out loud that he's scared, to try and make peace with his imminent death when he was down to the last light of his oxygen. If he didn't have those qualities, he wouldn't have survived long enough for us to see him in the movie. He died from circumstances outside of his control (aka GIANT FISH eating the submarine that was coming to get him), and until then, he survived on his own wits and by coping any way he could. Learning how to grow and recover from his violence.
He'd be dead long before the movie started if he didn't try, and the voices even try to use insecurities based on that against him. Half measured. Half commited. Never enough.
Well I think he was pretty damn committed. And that's how an eel eats shit.
It's really funny when they kidnap him from the middle school and put him in the lab to look at the astroturf stuff from space (the sun eaters) and he is hyping everyone up when stuff happens like they are middle schoolers
"Carl are you sitting down?" "Carl and I had a baby."
Him asking Stratt for a water and then her being handed two venti coffee's and him being life 'coffee is fine' and she's like "I need both". She has the personality of an ice cube. (/p?)
"Whomp there it is" I am so close to turning the movie off
opens alien container and sniffs it like leftovers and than yelps and puts it in the science blaster glass case
is it bad I think the hail mary spinning while they do science is like the cutest thing ever?
Grace immediately just dancing at the alien to establish he's chill and friendly ig
"You aren't tapping you're pointing... sorry :("
grace if you even think about taking off your helmet
"we're uh... we're clock bros"
'I need skin to skin contact. Statement." - Rocky lol
"Hello grace frienddd"
"We die we die all of rocky die we die. Earth die." while grace is driving badly
rocky save grace!!! amaze amaze amaze
wait they actually succeeded!!
they both !! get to !! go home!!
of course something is wrong with the predator
him sending the stuff to earth and then going BACK to save rocky is a major hell yeah for Dr. Captain Ryland Grace
hey. you have to love your trans brothers of color okay. and your trans sisters of color. and your nonbinary siblings of color. you have to okay. its simply non-optional
Shoutout to weird girls who became weird boys and weird boys who became weird girls and weird girls and boys who became both or neither. Let's all be weird and strange together
the best fanfiction you've ever read was written by a woman in her 40s before she made dinner for her kids. it was written by a teenager after school when they should've been studying for a history test. and a barista came up with the idea while they cleaned the espresso machine and busser fact-checked it on their break and the post-doc edited between writing grant proposals and the nurse apologized for typos in the notes after a long shift and behind every drabble and one-shot and multi-chapter fic there is a person with a wonderful and interesting and chaotic life and it is such a privilege that we get to be a part of it because they decided to do this thing we all share, for fun.
No more waiting, no more debating, go get your hrt. "I don't know if I'm really trans!" You are. Now go. "I'm scared!" We all were. Now go. "There's a long wait to be seen!" Go get your name on the list then. DIY if you need. "What if my friends don't accept me?" They weren't really your friends. Now go. "What if my spouse doesn't accept me?" Get a divorce. Now go. You do not need to continue to live in agony and depression to pretend to be someone else. Go get your hrt.
“A Ragdoll. Made of cloth and stuffing, stabbed and shot like it meant absolutely nothing.
Every other adventure ends with a sliced off limp or a gash that leaves a path of fluff in her wake.
Ragatha learned to fix herself with a needle and thread. Reattaching her eye, or sewing closed a gash in her leg.
She'd become accustomed to it.
Possibly too accustomed.
Ragatha tries to hide her brokenness and Pomni chooses to support her. A lovely friendship blooms, but what if Ragatha want's more? Is she willing to deal with going against the rigid plan she holds herself to in order to finally have what she wants ?”
I don’t know if I need to put a spoilers warning on this considering iron lung came out like I think several months ago but I digress if you haven’t watched iron lung don’t read this .
FIRST OF ALL!! The costuming!! I mean, the use of layers to communicate like how the temperature is changing, and how his mental state is changing. I really loved the costuming and the set design. Everything was so meticulous and detailed. 
additionally, the scary lady that’s mean to him through the port hole window that he blasts with the radiation gun, Lowkey hot. And who was gonna tell me that Markiplier is so hot in this movie? Even covered in blood that man is so fine!! I feel like everybody in this movie is at least a lil hot lol.
 Also, us not learning his name until an hour into the movie is heartbreaking!! And you think that maybe it’s just because he’s really only talking to himself and the lady in the radio. Finding out that not only do they not refer to him by his name they refer to him ONLY as convict. On top of that they don’t even have a file that has his name on it in front of them. He is only convict. They literally took his name from him!! They are dehumanizing him! Using him like a tool!!
There will be no records of a Simon sacrificing everything that he cared about in order to possibly help humanity. There will be no records of him, using his only light source and his only flotation device and a piece of clothing that is deeply sentimental to him from his mom to just try and save humanity.
Preparing the black box so that even after his ship explodes and he is killed there may still be a way to save humanity. Telling his mom to take care of it because he put his little leather thing on it. All while being down there being punished for something he did not do!! All after being lied to like five different times that they were gonna bring him back up and that he would be free after this.  It’s disgusting. It’s heartbreaking.
I’m screaming from the rooftops!!
 Also the religious vibes, the existential horror, the hallucinations, ripping his own arm off and then the blood splurting out of it while The fucking submarine fills with human blood.
Holy shit!!!
Anyways, I really liked iron lung. I really liked the theming. I also really appreciated the set design and the costuming. Everything felt really intentional and detailed. Even the moments of like I guess hallucinations or like visions of the like blood monster stuff was like really intense and almost fantastical in a way that made you as the viewer wonder if it was real or not.
I knew that there wouldn’t be a happy ending, but even at the end I was kind of like… what if we let Simon go home to his Mom? 😭 bc I was genuinely bummed when that shit exploded.
