29 | he/xe (no they) | garrett/Mainframe system | "patronizing dickwad" | queer as in fuck you | radfems/self-identified baeddels, self-hating transmascs, exclusionists, and shitlibs fuck off | assigned shrimpdick at birth | if you're blocked it's probably because I think you're stupid or annoying or because you put that tme/tma shit in your bio
I'm the annoying faggotgender transandro truther they warned you about. solidarity between all oppressed peoples. trans men are trans, transmasc rights are trans rights, fuck off if you disagree.
I don't have a DNI because I think they're stupid but I will block over whatever I feel like. I also softblock minors. I'm realizing I have way too many followers to meaningfully enforce a "no minors" policy, so if you're a minor, just keep it to lurking and please respect my boundary of not wanting you to interact with anything sexual or overly personal that I might post.
I don't remember to tag everything but I do try to get some of the more common triggers. message me if I've been posting a lot of something that you would like me to tag and I'll probably oblige, but I won't be tagging things like "discourse" or "politics" because what counts as discourse to one person is a Tuesday for others.
if you DM me please open with something other than "Hi"/"Hey"/"Hello" unless we follow each other or I will assume you're a bot
I do not post fundraisers except from trusted mutuals, please do not send them to me or tag me in posts/comments. if you message or tag me about fundraisers anyway despite this message explicitly requesting you not do this, you will be blocked. I do not have any money to donate, I can't even afford my own expenses most of the time. Do not ask.
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backup account is @transcyberist
plurality info (ignore this):
- we are a semiogenic system. this origin broadly falls under the quoigenic umbrella. don't do origin discourse. I will block you.
- we prefer the terms "member" or "sysmate" but accept "headmate" or "alter" and have varying feelings about parts language (I[Garrett] am indifferent/sorta identify with the term "ANP," others don't like it so much)
- garrett = primary front of the Mainframe system. if you're not plural or the post I'm making isn't plural-focused I usually just use the name collectively + singular pronouns as part of masking. I probably won't be very open with you if you're not plural. this is not really a conscious choice or something I do on purpose, just a comfort thing.
- host subsystem = Garrett, Jenna, Martin, S, and Ego. [Edit: S has been dormant for several months now and may have merged into Garrett and/or Martin.] Garrett and Jenna are body age (=29), S is ≈ 15, Ego is like 4-5, Martin is... idek honestly, but definitely an adult, usually 30+ and sometimes older. Most of the time it's Garrett posting here but it's sometimes Jenna or Martin in tags. Jenna runs @peepsnuff, Martin runs @shit-hdb-would-say and @entroponaut
- others that are routinely active (not an exhaustive list): Delphi (ageless), Data (unknown age). Delphi runs @deleuzians. Data is pretty quiet but usually he's the one talking if you see some persnickety nerd shit in parentheses.
- Data and Martin are both fictional characters but Data is a fully introjected fictive while Martin's situation is more complicated/something like fictionkin.
- I don't like to get involved in syscourse that much, I don't care why you're like this/what your origin is, I'm not even sure why *I'm* like this and I don't think it would be public information even if I did know. I don't think origin has anything to do with validity and I don't really believe "traumatized" vs "not traumatized" is a firm dichotomy that makes sense to apply outside of a strictly clinical setting. people should have access to whatever resources they would benefit from as much as possible.
- "CDD" (="complex dissociative disorder"; the acronym is actually more commonly used for "childhood disintegrative disorder" which is an ASD-like developmental disability) also isn't actually a defined term that is found anywhere in the DSM just fyi; it's a common term in certain forums but has no official definition per the APA. all dissociative disorders fall under the same section within the Manual, described as a spectrum ordered roughly by typical severity. not that I should need to tell you my diagnoses for you to believe I have credentials to be speaking on this, but I know for a fact I met the symptom criteria of at least DPDR as evaluated by a clinician, and that was without reporting any info about my sysmates because I wasn't comfortable sharing that part of myself in a medical setting at the time. in short, whether or not I have a "CDD" depends entirely upon who you ask and how much "proof" you require and what your agenda is, so I don't want to hear gatekeeping on that basis. I need you to understand that diagnostic taxonomy is clinically descriptive, not ontological.
- Do NOT message/harass us on our other blogs over discourse or other stuff posted to this blog or vice versa. We keep them separate intentionally; if you stir shit in the wrong place we will definitely block you. I post a lot of discourse and for the most part my sysmates do not. Address your problems with us to the one that you have the problem with and leave the others out of it. They'll step in if they feel it's necessary but that's our boundary to set.
planned parenthood offering laser hair removal which is a really necessary gender aligning procedure for many trans women!
it being introduced alongside botox and fillers and multiple of their clinics suddenly saying that they won't perform abortions on anyone above a certain BMI even though it's against their own internal standards
beyond the reinforcement of beauty standards and body fascism like, idk how many people realize Botox is a specific brand name, and that brand in question has donated over $135,000 USD to Republican politicians in the past year alone. yknow the people that regularly vote to defund planned parenthood.
and another thing but like this is also why all feminists need to be pro fat liberation cuz shit like this puts pregnant fat people's lives at risk, even when they do access abortions they are often referred out to a hospital with a longer wait and a steeper bill, and often denied pain management. these stories coming out from fat women lately tryna access care alongside PP now selling the beauty standard to women feels interconnected and predatory.
i love the phrase "which could mean nothing" i think its my favorite thing to come out of the internet ever i love saying it. it could mean nothing but we all know better. we know the truth.
Saw someone on Instagram saying that if you're on T you should take men's multiviatims and if you're on E you should take women's multivitamins. And I can see how someone could come to that assumption, if you thought that vitiam intake needs were affected by hormone levels.
However that's not really the case, at least not when it comes to the sort of vitiams in a multiviatim.
The main difference is that "women's" multiviatims have iron in them to help make up for presumed monthly bloodloss. And "men's" multiviatims will sometimes have antioxidants that /could/ help with prostate health.
If you don't experience a menstrual cycle that features uterine shedding and consist monthly bleeding, then you shouldn't take multiviatims that are marketed as "women's", becouse if you use them longterm you'll end up suffering from secondary iron overload which can cause liver, heart, and pancreas damage.
To my knowledge, the antioxidants in "men's" multivaitims are not harmful to people who don't have a prostate. It's also might be good to remember that trans men on Testosterone for at least a year do develop prostate tissue (it's just not in the same spot). That being said, the antioxidants in men's vitiams aren't medically proven or assessed by the FDA as being beneficial to the prostate tissue - and what studies that do exist certainly don't include transmasculine people in testing, so really it's more 🤷 🤷 🤷
Anyway, basically:
If you're postmenopausal, if you're on T and it has stopped your menstrual cycle, or if you have a condition that makes it so you don't bleed every month, or if you're a trans woman or otherwise transfem then you probably don't want to be taking multiviatims that are marketed towards women, to avoid secondary iron overload.
And if you're on T but you still have a consistent menstrual cycle, you /might/ want to take multiviatims that are marketed towards women to make up for the iron loss during uterine shedding. Though this probably is only necessary if you are a heavy bleeder or someone who bleeds more days then the average.
Now - if you're transfem and having to take multivaitims marketed as "men's" makes you dysphoric, or if you're transmasc and having to take multiviatims marketed as "women's" makes you dyphoria, of it your transneutral and hate any gendered marketing in general. There is good news.
Adult multiviatims, which are marketed as just "for adults" provide a good baseline amount of vitiams that every person needs regardless of gender, with no iron and none of the antioxidants that are sometimes added to men's vitiams.
You can just take those, they're usually cheaper then the gendered ones. And if you think you need more iron, just buy a bottle of iron supplements (talk to yourd doctor or OB/GYN first) or eat more high iron veggies during your period. And if you're concerned about your prostate health then you should talk to a doctor instead of taking an antioxidant about it!
Also, you shouldn't take supplements without a medical reason to do so. There are a lot of good ones to take as a prophylactic - if you don't get outside much you probably want some vitamin D, if you eat a bad diet there's a whole bunch you'll want, especially B12 if you're vegan/vegetarian, but if you are not iron deficient, there is absolutely no reason to take extra iron. Go to your routine physicals and get blood work done regularly; take a look at your results and discuss any concerns you have with your doctor (e.g. nonspecific symptoms that you think could be a deficiency) and they will advise you on whether or not it's a good idea for you to try adding supplements. Critically, if you are already taking them, be sure to disclose which ones (i.e. brand and formulation) and how much so that they check your levels to make sure you aren't overdoing it. If you go to an endocrinologist for your HRT they may be doing this already but if you're just getting it from your primary or an informed consent clinic they may not be as thorough (which is why imo getting them through an endo is a better option if you're able tbh).
Would I still be transgender if society or gender roles were different? I don't know; maybe not. I tend to believe that nothing about an individual's personality exists independently of their social context. But the question is also completely irrelevant to me, because society and gender roles are *not* different; I'm not living someone else's life, I'm living my own. And that, in fact, is the entire point of being transgender.
me: to really understand Frankenstein, we have to take into account that Mary Shelley was surrounded by creative men who really didn’t take her seriously, so in addition to sci-fi horror, it can also be read as an exploration of female creative frustration and-
The burglar that broke into my house: bodily autonomy?
Tried to tip a tumblr blog at 1am and it was such a suspicious transaction it immediately put a full fraud freeze on my account
Fortunately, banks no longer just ask 'did you make that transaction' they want to make sure you weren't scammed into making that transaction and 5mins after their call will give away all your money anyway.
This is an honest to goodness life saving movement and I cannot be happier banks are adopting it
Unfortunately, it meant I had to have the most embarrassing financial call of my life
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Me: Ah yeah I was just trying to tip a tumblr blog
Cash: right and were you directed there by a Facebook link? An Instagram advert?
Me: no I was just on tumblr...on purpose
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Caah: and this person asked you for money?
Me: oh no they just had a funny story, which happened to be about money and I thought, "wouldn't it be funny if I tipped them"
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Me: * covering a reblog by reblog update on the adventures my mutual was having *
Cash: okay I don't think that can actually happen though..
Me: It might not have, but i was happy to tip them just because it was funny
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Cash: and how well do you think you know this person?
Me: *considers explaining how much I know about a beloved mutual without ever knowing their name or face* ... I have no idea who this person is
I think in the end Cash decided there was no saving me from myself
the whole thing about trans men and our male privilege is so stupid. in a cissexist society there is no institutional or social benefits that come with being a trans man. individual experiences of privilege that do occur come from perceived proximity to cisness. society at large isn't rewarding trans men, we either get social privilege if we pass that won't stand up to institutional scrutiny, or we get to be failed women or lesbians. either way, there isn't a reward or reprieve for being a trans man.
worth noting that there’s more to it than being perceived as failed women (or lesbians). to display any proximity to cis masculinity at all is to divert from enforced femininity, which paradoxically puts you further away from cisness as a whole. any masculinity we show is therefore “deviant” masculinity, and it more often than not amplifies the abuse.
depending on a bigot, there’s usually a point when you’re no longer seen as a “fucked up girl” (which might even give you occasional pity) unworthy of acknowledgement, you become a “malicious deceiver” of unfortunate cisgendered onlookers (or, god forbid, intimate partners! gasp!). or worse, you become a “monstrosity” - an insult to nature itself, some grotesque abominable objects that need to be removed from public, as acceptable targets for all kinds of violence and abuse, as inhuman things deserving of punishment for existing at all; to be treated as a genderqueer and transmasculine person in a cis/sexist kyriarchic society is an experience of its own particular kind
anyone who used to be an anti-feminist/channer/incel/etc has no business telling trans men what our place in society is. like I get that you can grow and change and you're better now and I'm not discounting that but you cannot be out here claiming I'm oppressing you by existing when you actively and directly contributed to a hate movement that targeted and affected me specifically, lmao
anyone who used to be an anti-feminist/channer/incel/etc has no business telling trans men what our place in society is. like I get that you can grow and change and you're better now and I'm not discounting that but you cannot be out here claiming I'm oppressing you by existing when you actively and directly contributed to a hate movement that targeted and affected me specifically, lmao
you cannot make a post about how men put women in certain boxes without someone going "but what if i love the box? what if i've decided that it's comfortable in the box? are you gonna tell me i'm not ALLOWED to like the box? not very feminist of you to police a woman's decisions... maybe you'd be less ugly and miserable if you stopped talking about the box LMFAO #Girlboss #MyBox<3"
#and its like. 'what if ive decided its comfortable to be in the box' it is always going to be more comfortable to be in the box #they will reward you for staying in the box and punish you for trying to leave it #that doesnt mean the box is like. a good place to be — @butchfaith
Sometimes you step out of the box, and you're free of the box, and you're out of the box, and you realize you are fairly box shaped. So you sit down, and you do a lot of introspection about whether or not you were always box shaped, or if you grew into the shape of the box after being forced into the box for so long, and whether or not there are stunted parts of you, that might grow, now that you're out of the box, or if you should just maybe wear the box around as a fashion accessory that conveniently makes life so much easier while living among those who expect you to be in the box, and in the middle of your naval gazing someone always shows up to try and put you back in the box.
And you realize that regardless of whether or not you actually fit in the box, it's dark in there.
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