29 | he/xe (no they) | garrett/Mainframe system | "patronizing dickwad" | queer as in fuck you | radfems/self-identified baeddels, self-hating transmascs, exclusionists, and shitlibs fuck off | assigned shrimpdick at birth | if you're blocked it's probably because I think you're stupid or annoying or because you put that tme/tma shit in your bio
I'm the annoying faggotgender transandro truther they warned you about. solidarity between all oppressed peoples. trans men are trans, transmasc rights are trans rights, fuck off if you disagree.
I don't have a DNI because I think they're stupid but I will block over whatever I feel like. I also softblock minors. I'm realizing I have way too many followers to meaningfully enforce a "no minors" policy, so if you're a minor, just keep it to lurking and please respect my boundary of not wanting you to interact with anything sexual or overly personal that I might post.
I don't remember to tag everything but I do try to get some of the more common triggers. message me if I've been posting a lot of something that you would like me to tag and I'll probably oblige, but I won't be tagging things like "discourse" or "politics" because what counts as discourse to one person is a Tuesday for others.
if you DM me please open with something other than "Hi"/"Hey"/"Hello" unless we follow each other or I will assume you're a bot
I do not post fundraisers except from trusted mutuals, please do not send them to me or tag me in posts/comments. if you message or tag me about fundraisers anyway despite this message explicitly requesting you not do this, you will be blocked. I do not have any money to donate, I can't even afford my own expenses most of the time. Do not ask.
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backup account is @transcyberist
plurality info (ignore this):
- we are a semiogenic system. this origin broadly falls under the quoigenic umbrella. don't do origin discourse. I will block you.
- we prefer the terms "member" or "sysmate" but accept "headmate" or "alter" and have varying feelings about parts language (I[Garrett] am indifferent/sorta identify with the term "ANP," others don't like it so much)
- garrett = primary front of the Mainframe system. if you're not plural or the post I'm making isn't plural-focused I usually just use the name collectively + singular pronouns as part of masking. I probably won't be very open with you if you're not plural. this is not really a conscious choice or something I do on purpose, just a comfort thing.
- host subsystem = Garrett, Jenna, Martin, S, and Ego. [Edit: S has been dormant for several months now and may have merged into Garrett and/or Martin.] Garrett and Jenna are body age (=29), S is ≈ 15, Ego is like 4-5, Martin is... idek honestly, but definitely an adult, usually 30+ and sometimes older. Most of the time it's Garrett posting here but it's sometimes Jenna or Martin in tags. Jenna runs @peepsnuff, Martin runs @shit-hdb-would-say and @entroponaut
- others that are routinely active (not an exhaustive list): Delphi (ageless), Data (unknown age). Delphi runs @deleuzians. Data is pretty quiet but usually he's the one talking if you see some persnickety nerd shit in parentheses.
- Data and Martin are both fictional characters but Data is a fully introjected fictive while Martin's situation is more complicated/something like fictionkin.
- I don't like to get involved in syscourse that much, I don't care why you're like this/what your origin is, I'm not even sure why *I'm* like this and I don't think it would be public information even if I did know. I don't think origin has anything to do with validity and I don't really believe "traumatized" vs "not traumatized" is a firm dichotomy that makes sense to apply outside of a strictly clinical setting. people should have access to whatever resources they would benefit from as much as possible.
- "CDD" (="complex dissociative disorder"; the acronym is actually more commonly used for "childhood disintegrative disorder" which is an ASD-like developmental disability) also isn't actually a defined term that is found anywhere in the DSM just fyi; it's a common term in certain forums but has no official definition per the APA. all dissociative disorders fall under the same section within the Manual, described as a spectrum ordered roughly by typical severity. not that I should need to tell you my diagnoses for you to believe I have credentials to be speaking on this, but I know for a fact I met the symptom criteria of at least DPDR as evaluated by a clinician, and that was without reporting any info about my sysmates because I wasn't comfortable sharing that part of myself in a medical setting at the time. in short, whether or not I have a "CDD" depends entirely upon who you ask and how much "proof" you require and what your agenda is, so I don't want to hear gatekeeping on that basis. I need you to understand that diagnostic taxonomy is clinically descriptive, not ontological.
- Do NOT message/harass us on our other blogs over discourse or other stuff posted to this blog or vice versa. We keep them separate intentionally; if you stir shit in the wrong place we will definitely block you. I post a lot of discourse and for the most part my sysmates do not. Address your problems with us to the one that you have the problem with and leave the others out of it. They'll step in if they feel it's necessary but that's our boundary to set.
I'm not normally a Disney adult but this mug fucks so severely just from a pure design standpoint tbqh, it's literally my fav mug except for the fact it isn't dishwasher safe
we we’re talking about how we had a mutual friend and how that was so wild and then they mentioned another friend i knew and i was like “yeah i played soccer with them both in the park” and my friend was like “wait does your deadname start with a C” and it turns out she was also there and we just had no idea who each other was this entire time till now
Romcom where two people meet cute and bond over how awful their exes were and plan elaborate revenge schemes but it turns out they both transitioned and are helping to plan revenge plots against themselves
hey by the way. disability does not automatically equal pain and suffering. being disabled does not automatically mean you're better off dead. are there disabilities that are objectively painful and cause suffering? yes. are there individual disabled people who wish they were dead? also yes. but on the whole, able-bodied people vastly underestimate our quality of life.
i have chronic pain and fatigue likely to be diagnosed as fibromyalgia. i have sensory issues that impact me to the point that i'm only comfortable going outside at night. i'm also treatment resistant -- medications, physical therapy, acupuncture, chiropractic, and other things i've tried have little to no effect.
but i'm pursuing a degree and a career. i have passions and interests and life goals. i have very little social life, but there are people on the internet who like my silly little words and art. i have a partner i'm marrying in 6 months. do i suffer? sure, sometimes, but who alive hasn't? who gets to decide what the cutoff between "low enough suffering to justify living" and "suffering so much non-existence is the only option" is?
which is all to say: bringing disabled people into the world is not "cruel". disabled people going about our lives is not sad or pitiable. we do not need to medically kill ourselves to be happy. we are fucking people.
Do you have a LEAST favorite bicycle? One that was unkind to you? Is this possible?
all bicycles are born with kind souls but some of them are built for a person with proportions I have yet to see in the big wide world and trying to ride said bike is a lot like a brand new baby horse trying to figure out the whole "six long legs and a proboscis" thing on day 1
“It’s easier for trans women to pass/be stealth!!”
“It’s easier for trans men to pass/be stealth!!”
Actually it’s easier for people with very specific bodies (white, thin, average height) with large incomes and supportive families to transition medically in a way which is more likely to conform to strict ideas of ‘man’ and ‘woman’
I swear every time I see someone try to make the argument for one of us having it better they exclusively either cite celebrities (again, see white, rich, thin) or assume that the people they know irl are representative of every trans person.
It also begs the point that YOU DO NOT KNOW IF SOMEONE IS STEALTH UNLESS THEY TELL YOU. No one actually knows how many trans people successfully live as stealth.
Most of the passing trans people I know personally are women, but most of the trans people I know to be stealth are men. I also know far more trans women than I do trans men. Not to ignore the fact that these arguments completely erase non binary people who are pressured to just pick a binary gender to ‘pass’ as because it is functionally impossible to be a ‘stealth’ non binary person.
It is completely possible to have important conversations about the specific oppressions that different kinds of trans people face without framing one group as being completely objectively better off. Stop trying to pit us against each other. It isn’t easy for *anyone* to be trans in this world.
"transfeminists are trying to divide the community!" and the attempt to cause division in question is just.... asking trans men and transmascs to be conscious of their own transmisogynistic behaviors/beliefs and like, pointing out tangible evidence of them having privilege over us by virtue of not being transfem? how are we causing divisions when all we're doing is asking you to try not to contribute to our oppression? are you not the ones actively dividing the community by forcing us out of trans spaces with your transmisogyny and refusal to listen to even gentle criticism about the way you talk about and behave around your "trans sisters" that you claim to care so much about? it's always "protect the dolls" until we tell you that you're the ones making us feel unsafe in the first place, then you have egotistical meltdowns and compare us to our own oppressors. the divide begins and ends with your refusal to listen to us when we try to speak.
it is true, though. studies show that trans men/mascs do face the highest sexual assault rates, and it is a fact that they make up the lesser portion of political figures
whether there are more of us in politics or not doesn't mean shit when we get paid less than trans men on average and even in relatively "liberal" countries like canada, a whopping 30% of trans women have been denied employment solely on the basis of their gender in the last 5 years. consider for a moment what our overall unemployment rates might look like because of this. as for your cherry-picked sources on sexual violence, i raise you v-coding and the fact that studies indicate that almost 50% of us have been or will be sexually abused in our lifetime. sexual abuse of trans women is not only enabled but rewarded by society - it is quite literally baked into the justice system in the U.S. thank you for proving the point made in my post though.
is it common for people to not read the studies they use as sources?
we as trans people all have incredibly high rates of sexual assault, and not one single moment of loss of sexual autonomy is acceptable whatsoever, trauma should never be compared, it is all shit.
but just like people bring up trans women having higher rates of nonsexual violence on a regular basis in conversations about trans people as a whole (to note: the study you linked here says trans women are four percent more likely to be physically assaulted, whereas the gap between trans men and trans women in the same study in regards to sexual assault is seven percent) this too is necessary to understand specifically what our communities are facing, and the likelihood of us facing them.
according to the 2011 study ‘injustice at every turn’ done by the national center for transgender equality, trans women were shown to be ten percent more likely to be assaulted in prison or jail, two percent more likely to be assaulted by police, eleven percent more likely to be assaulted in shelters, and five percent more likely to be assaulted in the workplace. do you know what all of those places have in common? they’re public. yet in study, after study, after study, after study, after study, including the one you linked, trans men have higher lifetime rates of sexual violence, with one of these showing a gap as large as seventeen percent between us and trans women, which denotes that said violence is happening to us in private. that does not mean it is not happening. there is nothing but horror to be had at even the concept of v coding, but that is not something that should be used, nor makes sense to use, when speaking about lifetime rates of sexual violence in the overall trans community.
speaking of the overall trans community, that hrc study on the wage gap says in the very first paragraph of methodology that this study should not be used to represent the entire lgbtq community. which you are explicitly doing. i again, can only imagine you must not have read your own sources.
if you were to have looked into this topic further perhaps you would have found this study done using the data from the 2015 u.s. transgender survey that expands on the nuances at play regarding transgender men and women and our incomes.
if you’ll notice, this study found that transgender men are more likely to work part time, and in the study you linked, they only included full time work in the data.
i do appreciate you posting that canadian study though, i have been looking for data on sexual violence in the canadian trans community for ages, and that really helped me out!
