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[mihii-i]

ℂ𝕠𝕞𝕖, 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕒 𝕕𝕣𝕚𝕟𝕜 𝕗𝕚𝕣𝕤𝕥. ❣️

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TT: @furinasgoldfish / mihi ✧˚ · (furina’s goldfish)

[mihii-i]

mizisua haters are lwk so fucking annoying especially that one bitch on TikTok that says they shouldn’t be shipped syfm 😹😹😹😹🙏🙏🙏

It’s not anyone’s fault YOU can’t comprehend their relationship and the complexity behind them, don’t try to push your braindead opinion as correct and something everyone else should follow. If u don’t like them fine but genuinely just syau

[paratoxinz]

REALLY interesting how much conflict Mizi and Sua seemed to have even before the idol industry drove them even further apart, and while I'm immensely curious to learn of Sua's past it's nice to see even more evidence of how Mizi's own affects both herself and Mizisua's relationship.

In both ALNST and ZOMST, Mizi is in an abusive situation that causes her harm both physically and mentally. In ALNST, it's largely due to negligence and lack of understanding or proper care for her at the hands of Shine. In ZOMST, it seems to be at the hands of a mother who takes out her frustrations on her, however apologetic she may or may not be after the act. In both ALNST and ZOMST, she has the same issue as a result: she doesn't want to be seen as small. Treated as lesser. Seen as cute, or as some decoration, or pitied. When her options are crush or be crushed, she wants control, which leads to a lot of dysfunction in her relationships with other people, but especially with Sua.

Not some pet you keep around the house, huh?

Sua means well, at least to a degree, suggesting Mizi can stay with her at zero cost. She may have ulterior motives driven by immense love and a desire for total codependence (which, again, makes me wonder of Sua's own past and how she could have gotten here albeit we have her ALNST counterpart to go off of), but she would obviously never wish to see her lover harmed. It's just that by housing her and by asking for nothing in return (and really, having Mizi beside her is enough), she can kill two birds with one stone. Not only will Mizi be safe, but Mizi will rely on her. Finally, Sua will be needed as much as she seems to need her. But what Mizi once again longs for in this world is a certain level of control to feel safe, whereas Sua wishes to be one with Mizi in a way that strips her of the very autonomy she craves. Ultimately, Mizi's needs win out over her own. Sua will prioritize her until the very end, if only in hopes that one day, the same devotion will be returned. If Mizi needs solace, she can find it in Sua. If Mizi needs to lash out, get angry, Sua can be on the other end of that, too. She won't mind.

Sua frames her "desire" for it as an attempt to finally understand her, but there's almost a sort of twisted thrill in it for her too, I think, to be who Mizi's attention is turned towards, whether for better or for worse. I think this is another means of Sua wishing to 'belong' to her, another way of insisting that Mizi is fully hers, too. An attempt to frame it all as romantic. It is also, of course, a way of Sua wishing to forget her own emotional pain that I'm sure she's feeling, replacing it with physical pain. While Sua says such things, she leans in for a kiss, distracting Mizi from both the harm she's brought to the rat and from the argument they're having, further supporting the fact that she has an incredibly unhealthy idea of what love is. It seems they once again have no plans to discuss the elephant in the room when it comes to how much they hurt each other both with words and actions, instead focusing as much as they can on this fantastical idea of their romance that isn't actually as soft or as pure as they try to pretend.

Mizi doesn't actually return any of it here. No slap, and no leaning in for the kiss herself, merely staring. She doesn't want to hurt her, as much as it's inevitable. She doesn't actually want to pretend everything is fine, either, to lose herself entirely in this idealized version of their relationship until the very end. She'll take the latter over the former, but it hurts her. It hurts them both.

No matter the universe, Mizi will always want to have just a bit of power, to have a choice. And it seems that just like in ALNST, in this world, that choice will be taken from her in the very end by the one she loves most. Just like how, in every universe, Sua would do anything but live without her.

[mihii-i]

coems 🤑

[mihii-i]

love your tcoaal fics !!! Just wish there was more INCEST

fucking loser

[mihii-i]

to the shitty tiktoker that compared Sua to Bear from obsession your take is genuine ASS like why spend money for internet if you’re just gonna drop actual bs like this

I heard her other takes suck dick too so

[meltedchoco]

Insufferable zombie stage fans when it comes to making the most ass takes ever in the fan base history im dying

Not to mention people compare mizi to bonnie blue and call her mizi blue too??? If this fandom were in zombie stage they'd 100% be the reason for mizi's exploitation

This may be one of the reasons why im not and never ready for the alst anime drop cuz holy mischaracterization😭🥀

[mihii-i]

IM SORRY WHAT..THEY COMPARE MIZI TO BONNIE BLUE..????

This is the first I’m hearing of ts im HORRIFIED

also heavy on the alnst anime dropping and everything somehow getting worse..I thought the fandom was already stupidly illiterate but each new take amazes me with how stupid it gets.

if I see a single dudebro do smt like make ai art of Sua and give her big boobs I’m dying like actually

[meltedchoco]

NO SAME AND FR-

BRADAR I DONT WANNA SEE WEIRD MEN SIMPING OVER MZISUA OR MAKE SEXUALIZED AI CONTENT OF THEM, NOT WHEN THERE'S ALREADY A MALE SUA YUMESHIPPER (by this im also referring to weird girls who yumeship themselves with ivan🫩)

[mihii-i]

…is the male Sua yumeshipper peakeunc. Cause I saw his fuckass content too and I just avoid it all costs cause it’s weird asf and his comments about Sua creep me out. I hate the Pinterest girls that yumeship wit Ivan too THERES SO MANY OTHER MALE CHARACTERS IN OTHER FANDOMS LITERALLY WHY INVADE A QUEER PIECE OF MEDIA 🥀

[meltedchoco]

LITERALLY😭😭😭😭💔💔 it seems like for some sort of reason characters whose romantic and sexual attraction are only for the SAME gender attract a lot of enjoyers from the opposite gender🥀🥀 it creeps me out even more when that girl who yumeships with ivan on x draws her yumesona pregnant and have a baby with him😭😭😭😭 not only she mischaracterized him BUT she also enjoyed rarepairs like lukamizi and tillsua ewewewewew🥀 (wanna be moots btw u seem cool🥹 its ok if u dont!)

[mihii-i]

Ivan would be dead bro…also the minute I heard lukamizi my brain just shut off cause ok

also yes absolutely I’d love to be moots

[mihii-i]

to the shitty tiktoker that compared Sua to Bear from obsession your take is genuine ASS like why spend money for internet if you’re just gonna drop actual bs like this

I heard her other takes suck dick too so

[meltedchoco]

Insufferable zombie stage fans when it comes to making the most ass takes ever in the fan base history im dying

Not to mention people compare mizi to bonnie blue and call her mizi blue too??? If this fandom were in zombie stage they'd 100% be the reason for mizi's exploitation

This may be one of the reasons why im not and never ready for the alst anime drop cuz holy mischaracterization😭🥀

[mihii-i]

IM SORRY WHAT..THEY COMPARE MIZI TO BONNIE BLUE..????

This is the first I’m hearing of ts im HORRIFIED

also heavy on the alnst anime dropping and everything somehow getting worse..I thought the fandom was already stupidly illiterate but each new take amazes me with how stupid it gets.

if I see a single dudebro do smt like make ai art of Sua and give her big boobs I’m dying like actually

[meltedchoco]

NO SAME AND FR-

BRADAR I DONT WANNA SEE WEIRD MEN SIMPING OVER MZISUA OR MAKE SEXUALIZED AI CONTENT OF THEM, NOT WHEN THERE'S ALREADY A MALE SUA YUMESHIPPER (by this im also referring to weird girls who yumeship themselves with ivan🫩)

[mihii-i]

…is the male Sua yumeshipper peakeunc. Cause I saw his fuckass content too and I just avoid it all costs cause it’s weird asf and his comments about Sua creep me out. I hate the Pinterest girls that yumeship wit Ivan too THERES SO MANY OTHER MALE CHARACTERS IN OTHER FANDOMS LITERALLY WHY INVADE A QUEER PIECE OF MEDIA 🥀

[mihii-i]

to the shitty tiktoker that compared Sua to Bear from obsession your take is genuine ASS like why spend money for internet if you’re just gonna drop actual bs like this

I heard her other takes suck dick too so

[meltedchoco]

Insufferable zombie stage fans when it comes to making the most ass takes ever in the fan base history im dying

Not to mention people compare mizi to bonnie blue and call her mizi blue too??? If this fandom were in zombie stage they'd 100% be the reason for mizi's exploitation

This may be one of the reasons why im not and never ready for the alst anime drop cuz holy mischaracterization😭🥀

[mihii-i]

IM SORRY WHAT..THEY COMPARE MIZI TO BONNIE BLUE..????

This is the first I’m hearing of ts im HORRIFIED

also heavy on the alnst anime dropping and everything somehow getting worse..I thought the fandom was already stupidly illiterate but each new take amazes me with how stupid it gets.

if I see a single dudebro do smt like make ai art of Sua and give her big boobs I’m dying like actually

[mihii-i]

listen I love some of y’all’s small talk in my inbox but if it’s the same person constantly sending me unnecessary stuff that’s not a request TOO often please refrain from doing it in such a short succession 😭

[mihii-i]

Will you write for zombie mizi or sua?

yeah ofc I will..but I probably won’t write any nsfw for zombie Mizi cause she’s kinda lobotomized so

god they done got my girl badly im sobbing

[mihii-i]

HOW THE FUCK DO I LIVE UP TO MY HYUNA FIC HOLY SHIT

[mihii-i]

Ykw guys I’m so done and tired that I don’t even care if they make Taizu canon anymore maybe some of the Mizu fans will learn their fucking lesson and not dumb her down to a mean masc lesbian with no tragedy going for her

[fluffypotatey]

you do know you can stop shipping a thing when it begins to make you uncomfortable, right? you have free will

you aren’t a fan anymore with where the story is taking them, and that is okay. it also, most likely, means that this story Is Not For You anymore, and you have to be okay with it

[mihii-i]

7 hours before my flight..

THIS IS WHEN I LOCK IN

[mihii-i]

Well, I finally got some sleep... I'm still tired

aye if you’re the same person don’t use anon it’s creeping me out..use like my DMs or something to tell me anything random like this

[mihii-i]

wellll i mean you kinda chill tbh✌️😛

LMFAO I CANT EVEN TELL WHOS WHO OR IF YALL ARE JUST THR SAME PERSON XAUSE OF ANON STOP

[mihii-i]

since when do yall talk to me in my inbox so much holy

I mean I’m not complaining butttt