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[mihlen]

Please note that this is a 21+ blog!

This blog may feature sex, violence, dark themes, and otherwise objectionable content in fictional contexts. Specifics on carrd. Please read before following!

안녕하세요, 밀렌입니다! That is to say, I’m mihlen, hello hello—mind the lowercase! I followed a friend back to Tumblr, and now I'm here, haha. I’m more of a writer than an artist, but I hope you find something to enjoy!  (tooltips + taglist below)

Twitter　| 　 AO3 　| 　Toyhouse

Accounts

Though I will treat this account as my main, it is actually a sideblog! Thus, my asks/follows will be through my shell account, mihlennial. So don’t be alarmed if you see it, it’s not an imposter! It’s me!

My reblog/fandom account under this network of aliases can be fond at @emporium-mihlennia.

Last but not least, my account for interacting with more outlandish or otherwise niche kinks is @mihlkis, so if that kind of stuff is of interest, you can head on over there!

Terms of Engagement

By Others

Feel free to @ me on reblogs or replies!

Asks and PMs welcome! I can’t promise a timely response, but feel free to reach out whether it’s here or Twitter.

Happy to interact with other people’s OCs with discussion!

I don’t have any policies on fanworks yet because I don’t think it’ll be relevant? But if you’re interested, please ask first, and I’ll figure something out!

Please do not repost my works or OCs! 

ㅤ By Me

In art, OCs will be tagged in order of appearance from left to right, followed by all the credits in the same order (i.e. #OC1 #OC2 #Creator1 #Creator2)

In writing, OCs will be tagged in order of presence in the plot and, if equivalent, by order of appearance.

I will primarily be following other OC blogs to keep my dash clear, but I don't mind interacting with all sorts of blogs!

Tags

General Content

#mihlen.txt — textposts

#mihlen.png — art

#mihlen.fic & #밀렌fic — fics

#mihlen.daily — daily writing excerpt

#mihlen.ask — replies to asks

#mihlen.info — info about me

#mihlen.oc — my OCs

#cameos — other people's OCs

Content Warnings

#dead dove — explicitly dark or otherwise taboo themes

#RACK — 'risk-aware consensual kink' for BDSM

(other tags will be added as needed or possibly upon request)

OC Content

For creative works and otherwise informational content, OCs will be tagged by their full names in Western naming order (“Given Name(s)” “Last Name”), as written on Toyhouse. 

#Chartreuse Fraise

#Demari Nocenti

#Minkyu Han

#Mirac Tran

#Sakiko Kawaguchi

#Valence Rezgui

Ships will be tagged with both a generic name and the Eastern fandom tradition of Top/Bottom or, when not explicitly sexual, the more dominant personality first. These tags are preserved on AO3. 

#TBD — Dimitri (© Kill) x Minkyu

#mijumi — Junta (© Kill) x Mirac

(more to be added as they become relevant to this blog)

For other organizational purposes or more miscellaneous OC posts, I will use the same format as my general content with a shortened version of my OC’s name:

#[OC].txt — textposts about the OC

#[OC].png — art of the OC

#[OC].fic — fic about the OC

#[OC].ask — ask about the OC

#[OC].ref — info about the OC

#[OC].misc — misc about the OC, including reblogs and writing excerpts

Frequent Faces

@idolkilling | twitter (the reason I'm on Tumblr!)

@enigma-sanctity｜twitter

@ramsauced｜twitter

Who am I?

A relatively private person! Agender, aromantic, asexual. I consider myself Korean & American, rather than Korean-American. The longer I stay active on Tumblr, the more info will be unlocked—consider me

(dividers by strangergraphics-archive)

[mihlen]

호가호위 ("The Fox Borrows the Tiger's Prestige")

Word Count: ~5,800 CWs: torture, whump, angst, mindbreak, hurt no comfort, noncon

Day 1 for @unwholesomeocweek—Hatefucking/Violence/Divorce In one of the most famous gumiho stories, a human tricks the spirit-fox and swallows its bead of knowledge for himself. If he looked up to the heavens, he would learn of the cosmos and master the universe. If he looked down to the earth, he would learn of his world and uncover the secrets of men—but only just that. The human—the fool—looks down. Minkyu, fox-cursed, does the same.

Image credit: https://unsplash.com/photos/a-drawing-of-a-human-body-with-a-lot-of-branches-2tcwyzxTGRU

Continue reading at AO3!

[mihlen]

Procrastinating a bit on my other entries because I feel the urge to talk about process, ahaha. This was the second entry that I worked on, but the first that clicked into place for me.

Three Points of Process

The first thing I decided for this fic was what, in my process, I call the 'gimmick'—I wanted Minkyu's loss of knowledge to be represented visually and in the reading experience by switching to Cyrillic once he stops understanding Russian. This formed the core pillar of the writing process to me, and informed every other decision. As a formally trained linguist, I have a bit of a soft spot of languages and translation, so I had a lot of fun figuring out how to represent Dimitri and Minkyu's multilingualism—a shared pool of English, Russian, Korean, and a spattering of other European languages to varying degrees. I learned how to incorporate hover-text translations in this one too, which was fun! 　

Second thing that I decided (to my exasperation) was the incorporation of actual facts. Since Minkyu's core value is Knowledge, and the crux of the fight between him and Dimitri is betrayal in pursuit of knowledge, and because Minkyu is a showboat who is very proud of the things he knows (regardless of their origin), I felt the narrative had to reflect Minkyu's surprisingly vast pool of information. This led to the finalized version of the opening, which not only outlines in layman's terms the basic steps of brain surgery, but also goes into a tangent about a common bit of misinfo—that the Hippocratic Oath claims doctors should "do no harm." It was a bit of misinfo that I was mistaken about too, so I learned something new in the process of writing! 　

INCORPORATING DESCRIPTIONS WAS SO HARD FOR THIS ONE… In my first draft, Tarou was the only one who got any sort of description at all!! Which is so funny because Minkyu is typically so vain, but the situation was so untenable that he barely had time to think about the specifics of what he looks like at all. Still, this was one of the first fics I've written where I was sure it would be written by people who have no idea who Minkyu or Dimitri are, or what they look like. With Minkyu I cheated somewhat, banking on the hopes that people would recognize his name as Korean, so I could get away with mentioning his signature blond hair and hope people end up somewhere close. Dimitri though, I wanted to make sure people got a sense of him somewhat… at least his scar and his eyes. And that he was handsome! That was actually a point I fretted over—Kill's OC Dimitri is so handsome, I didn't want someone to be able to imagine him otherwise. Starting the story with him behind Minkyu, where Minkyu can't see him, was not super conducive to this ahahaha. I never got to work in that Dimitri has strawberry blond hair without it seeming forced, so alas, I had to drop it. I envy people who are good at working in character descriptions! Especially for their POV character. This is an aspect of my writing where my hypophantasia rears its head.

[mihlen]

La morte mi trovera vivo ("Death Will Find Me Alive")

Word Count: ~3,600 CWs: mind control, possession, whump, murder, cannibalism, noncon

Day 3 for @unwholesomeocweek—Necrophilia/Corruption/Power Imbalance Archaeologist Ilienna Vivaldi hasn't been the same since the accident took her memories. Though surrounded by supportive colleagues, she frets over what was lost. Perhaps she should have worried more about the space that was left behind.

Image credit: The Illustrated Scroll of Strange Birds and Beasts (怪奇鳥獣図巻)

Continue reading at AO3!

[mihlen]

I rarely draw and normally don't post my drawings, but Ilienna's fic is going up later today, and I don't think there are any visuals of her on my blog, so thought I'd share a quick one I drew some time in 2024.

[cremini-crashout]

UNWHOLESOME oc week DAY 2: Body Horror

What do you do with a dying world? Don’t take action and it’ll just shrivel into oblivion. Let’s reject such a fate and go deeper, where flesh no longer matters and layer by layer you’re undone. The world is beautiful no matter what state it’s in. At least it’s alive.

[mihlen]

Word Find Tag

Saw this challenge floating around, but the poster requested that non-tagged individuals make their own post, so that's what I'm doing!

📝 Search for the words <around, about, near, close> in your writing.

around (WIP "Sibling Rivalry," ft. Mirac) “My mother is a merciful woman, Doctor, so I’ll give you a choice,” Mirac said, tightening the whip around the older man’s neck. The weapon’s glow cast the doctor’s face in unflattering shadows, making him look prematurely dead.

about (WIP "Pelt," ft. Minkyu) What most people don’t realize about Minkyu is that he does try to tolerate some discomfort, and he bears in this moment the best he can, until his muscles can no longer ignore how his nerves sound the alarm. “Stop,” Minkyu hisses and yanks his paw away bodily, rolling over to groan. “Time out. Fuck.”

near ("Sense Memory" ft. Blake + @idolkilling's Tortora, available on AO3) Part of him doesn’t understand why Tortie is here right now, near him. Tortie shouldn’t be anywhere near him. Warm hands fish him from the cold pool of his mind. He rises into himself like a corpse from a lake and realizes, Tortie's not the one running cold—he is.

close ("This is the Price of Yearning" ft. Demari, available on AO3) When they tolerate it, he pours himself against them, like he can erode away the jagged edges of their shared history like a river smooths a stone. He drinks them in like he could drown in them, wishes he could drown them, live in the warmth of their lungs, close to their heart.

I don't have anyone specific in mind to tag (seeking more writing friends, ahaha), so if you follow me and would like to give this a go, feel free! You can use the words above, or you can use <favor, hunger, space, trail>

[mihlen]

Something funny to me about the most recent fic is that Dima and Minkyu will inevitably get back together, but given how badly things ended, I have no idea how ahaha

[idolkilling]

All my entries for @unwholesomeocweek are gonna be late cuz fibromyalgia was beating my ass all May and I could not draw a thing but trust I am #cooking please wait for me 😭 !!!

Preview for the comic I’m making for day one—HATEFUCKING / VIOLENCE / DIVORCE :] And I’m a much slower writer than I am an artist, so I’m not sure if I’ll be able to finish this fic before the 7th of July, but here’s a bonus preview for day seven—BAD SEX / CANNIBALISM / CODEPENDENCY—featuring the most obvious choices I could have gone with:

[mihlen]

호가호위 ("The Fox Borrows the Tiger's Prestige")

Word Count: ~5,800 CWs: torture, whump, angst, mindbreak, hurt no comfort, noncon

Day 1 for @unwholesomeocweek—Hatefucking/Violence/Divorce In one of the most famous gumiho stories, a human tricks the spirit-fox and swallows its bead of knowledge for himself. If he looked up to the heavens, he would learn of the cosmos and master the universe. If he looked down to the earth, he would learn of his world and uncover the secrets of men—but only just that. The human—the fool—looks down. Minkyu, fox-cursed, does the same.

Image credit: https://unsplash.com/photos/a-drawing-of-a-human-body-with-a-lot-of-branches-2tcwyzxTGRU

Continue reading at AO3!

[idolkilling]

I’ve been too sick (chronic pain) to draw almost all month… ^_T Warmup doodle of pookie I might clean up at some point later

[mihlen]

Once again thinking of starting a quarterly or tri-annual magazine for OC serial works...

[mihlen]

Sometimes I think about how my OC Demari is, in some universes, a cis-identifying trans man, and I think it's one of the funniest things about him...

[mihlen]

Writing is so hard, why is this even a hobby, every step of the process is an agony

[mihlen]

Continue reading at AO3!

"Academic Troubles" was probably one of my first, if not the first explicit fic(s), back when I was still trying to prove to myself that I can write dark/sexual content ahahaha—it's over three years old now, wow. I like to think I've found my footing since then.

It also served as a concept test for my OC Mirac Tran, who has since ended up a mainstay in my roster. This fic spotlights all his signature traits: his sadism, his salirophilia, his manipulative tendencies. He trends older in AUs now (30s+), but whether he's a teenager or a full-fledged adult, those facets of him remain the same.

[mihlen]

Continue reading at AO3!

"Academic Troubles" was probably one of my first, if not the first explicit fic(s), back when I was still trying to prove to myself that I can write dark/sexual content ahahaha—it's over three years old now, wow. I like to think I've found my footing since then.

It also served as a concept test for my OC Mirac Tran, who has since ended up a mainstay in my roster. This fic spotlights all his signature traits: his sadism, his salirophilia, his manipulative tendencies. He trends older in AUs now (30s+), but whether he's a teenager or a full-fledged adult, those facets of him remain the same.

[judasrpc]

WEIRDLY SPECIFIC BUT HELPFUL CHARACTER BUILDING QUESTIONS

What’s the lie your character says most often?

How loosely or strictly do they use the word ‘friend’?

How often do they show their genuine emotions to others versus just the audience knowing?

What’s a hobby they used to have that they miss?

Can they cry on command? If so, what do they think about to make it happen?

What’s their favorite [insert anything] that they’ve never recommended to anyone before?

What would you (mun) yell in the middle of a crowd to find them? What would their best friend and/or romantic partner yell?

How loose is their use of the phrase ‘I love you’?

Do they give tough love or gentle love most often? Which do they prefer to receive?

What fact do they excitedly tell everyone about at every opportunity?

If someone was impersonating them, what would friends / family ask or do to tell the difference?

What’s something that makes them laugh every single time? Be specific!

When do they fake a smile? How often?

How do they put out a candle?

What’s the most obvious difference between their behavior at home, at work, at school, with friends, and when they’re alone?

What kinds of people do they have arguments with in their head?

What do they notice first in the mirror versus what most people first notice looking at them?

Who do they love truly, 100% unconditionally (if anyone)?

What would they do if stuck in a room with the person they’ve been avoiding?

Who do they like as a person but hate their work? Vice versa, whose work do they like but don’t like the person?

What common etiquette do they disagree with? Do they still follow it?

What simple activity that most people do / can do scares your character?

What do they feel guilty for that the other person(s) doesn’t / don’t even remember?

Did they take a cookie from the cookie jar? What kind of cookie was it?

What subject / topic do they know a lot about that’s completely useless to the direct plot?

How would they respond to being fired by a good boss?

What’s the worst gift they ever received? How did they respond?

What do they tell people they want? What do they actually want?

How do they respond when someone doesn’t believe them?

When they make a mistake and feel bad, does the guilt differ when it’s personal versus when it’s professional?

When do they feel the most guilt? How do they respond to it?

If they committed one petty crime / misdemeanor, what would it be? Why?

How do they greet someone they dislike / hate?

How do they greet someone they like / love?

What is the smallest, morally questionable choice they’ve made?

Who do they keep in their life for professional gain? Is it for malicious intent?

What’s a secret they haven’t told serious romantic partners and don’t plan to tell?

What hobby are they good at in private, but bad at in front of others? Why?

Would they rather be invited to an event to feel included or be excluded from an event if they were not genuinely wanted there?

How do they respond to a loose handshake? What goes through their head?

What phrases, pronunciations, or mannerisms did they pick up from someone / somewhere else?

If invited to a TED Talk, what topic would they present on? What would the title of their presentation be?

What do they commonly misinterpret because of their own upbringing / environment / biases? How do they respond when realizing the misunderstanding?

What language would be easiest for them to learn? Why?

What’s something unimportant / frivolous that they hate passionately?

Are they a listener or a talker? If they’re a listener, what makes them talk? If they’re a talker, what makes them listen?

Who have they forgotten about that remembers them very well?

Who would they say ‘yes’ to if invited to do something they abhorred / strongly didn’t want to do?

Would they eat something they find gross to be polite?

What belief / moral / personality trait do they stand by that you (mun) personally don’t agree with?

What’s a phrase they say a lot?

Do they act on their immediate emotions, or do they wait for the facts before acting?

Who would / do they believe without question?

What’s their instinct in a fight / flight / freeze / fawn situation?

What’s something they’re expected to enjoy based on their hobbies / profession that they actually dislike / hate?

If they’re scared, who do they want comfort from? Does this answer change depending on the type of fear?

What’s a simple daily activity / motion that they mess up often?

How many hobbies have they attempted to have over their lifetime? Is there a common theme?

[sparklylovegiver]

Our newest menu at the OC Ask Bar!!!!

[idolkilling]

Lost maidens in your area (perfectly fine to recruit into your party) (definitely trustworthy and won’t slip parasite eggs into your ale at the tavern) (you can follow her alone to a secondary location no problem)