Stuck Here

In life we do things. Some we wish we had never done. Some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads. but they all make us who we are. And in the end they shape every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them we wouldn't be the person…

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[blood-drunken]

wasted day and wasted existence

[remanence-of-love]

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[seaphine]

don't turn off my lights then complain about my darkness.

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[mournfulroses]

Nikolay Punin, from a diary entry featured in The Diaries of Nikolay Punin: 1904 - 1953

[depressingxthings]

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

I feel disgusting. Scared. Lonely.

But it doesn't matter.

I'm always breaking down. But I don't matter. So why bother...?

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

Maybe happiness is possible. Maybe comfort and peace are possible.

I just think none of these things are possible for me. I'm incapable of experiencing any of these feelings.

I was only made for pain.

[watchoutforintellect]

“But I do feel strange-almost unearthly. I’ll never get used to being alive. It’s a mystery. Always startled to find I’ve survived.”

— John Steinbeck, from Journal of a Novel: The East of Eden Letters

[depressingxthings]

[paper-wounds]

[innerel]

At what point does life start feeling like life, and not like death?

At what point do we go from slowly dying, to actually living?

[depressingxthings]

[alicecoopersbush]

yayy i'm going to feel like this until i die

[depressingxthings]