Milky Hearts

Heya, I'm bunni Bun/Bunny or They/Them. I draw on a occasion | Been clean 231 days (Jun 1st 2026)

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Block, don't report! I rlly will kill myself, I am so fucking serious. I cannot take being termed again /srs

Heya, I'm bunni (or Elli). I go by they/it/bun pronouns and I'm a sex repulsed asexual-aromanic, however due to trauma I do suffer from hypersexuality and intrusive thoughts in that realm. I draw on occasion and may post "lighter" vent (ex: nudity, self-harm, strong language, and light gore). What I post of is mostly self destructive and I do not recommend anyone to do any of the stuff on here. I use this to vent personal problems. Sometimes my judgment will be clouded and I may have bad opinions that- as with any other person- will shift and change as time passes and I mature.

These problems may include:

Tourette's syndrome- Tail twitches

Depression- Tired bun

Anxiety- Shifting eyes

Disassociation- Outside the pen

Anger- Prey and a biter

Identity- Faux Fur

Abandonment- Dripping heart

Suicidal- Fox in a bun hen

Self-harm- Stained fur

Family/Relationship Problems- Vin kin

Dsphoria- Wrong burrow

Ed- Incorrect feed (Thinspo: vin$ Harm reduction/tips: V!nt)

Sexual stuff- Fluffy shell

Positivity- buns bandaid

General reblog- bun cries

Mine- Bunspeak

Food posting: Nibbles

Want something funny? Revolving around mental illness?: Mental meme

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@h0meicide -system vent (this is my vent blog, that is our systems vent)

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My ex girlfriend had a bad habit of making fun of my vent art because it was cringy, ugly, or had poor anatomy. She also had a bad habit of critiquing the art my parts (esepically younger parts) made when in her presence and even made fun of them to their face.

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Depression makes me mad. I should have the energy to take care of my hygiene, but instead I'm laying in bed feeling disappointed and angry at myself.

The last few days this week have been hard on my mental health for no real reason. I think it's reasonable that some days are harder than other when recovering, but it still makes me mad.

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Turns out I have OCD

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I wish for one moment, I would be okay.

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My sister is becoming violent because of her disability. She just bit open my hand and clawed my arm up bc I told her she couldn't have anymore water. She drank four cup fulls.

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I'm so worthless. No one will miss me. She's right. I'm just useless and worthless. It is unfortunate that people love me, bc I'm selfish, disgusting, respectless, and nasty. I don't deserve to take up space when I'm so horrible.

I'm sorry.

[milk4thou]

You left me. I begged to go and you left me. Then I got called a skanky, two-faced, unloved, disgusting, respectless bitch. You left and you're too pussy to say anything to anyone. You have never defended me.

You've let them beat me. You've let me get degraded. You've let me get assaulted. You've let me get starved. You've never listened to my begging. And the worst part is, you will always be like this. Of course I'm mad!

All you care about is smoking a cigarette. I want you to, at the very least, to comfort me after you brought me here and ruined me before I ever got a chance to be me. But you need your nicotine fix. I hate you.

[milk4thou]

I'm exhausted of this! I'm so tired trying to be mature. I'm just gonna kill myself. I can't take this anymore. I can't take no matter how much I try, they will always do this to me. I just want to be dead.

Please let death be better than this.

[milk4thou]

You left me. I begged to go and you left me. Then I got called a skanky, two-faced, unloved, disgusting, respectless bitch. You left and you're too pussy to say anything to anyone. You have never defended me.

You've let them beat me. You've let me get degraded. You've let me get assaulted. You've let me get starved. You've never listened to my begging. And the worst part is, you will always be like this. Of course I'm mad!

All you care about is smoking a cigarette. I want you to, at the very least, to comfort me after you brought me here and ruined me before I ever got a chance to be me. But you need your nicotine fix. I hate you.

[c0ffinbunnii]

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I think I'm going to go back to rotting in my bed all day. If I'm going to be called disgusting and lazy and skanky. I may as well just slowly kill myself. There's no point in trying when everyone's going see me like that.

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BTW, I'm in serious recovery! I'm keeping this blog up as a diary (I'm transferring it to an actual diary though). I'm considering myself ED recovered and SH recovering :D

Thank you mental illness, it has not been fun.

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Bun failure 😔 I'm back and on hour 38 of my current fast

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Nvm, ED is not worth it.

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Damn. Hate this cycle.

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Heya! I'm still depressed, but I'm much, much better. It's more high-functioning!

I still really wanna starve myself, but I've figured out that it isn't about getting thin anymore. It's about control. Feeling something that I can control about my life. I feel really outta control since poverty is driving me to work and college is looming terribly over my head.

I wanna be.. a forensic scientist technician, a therapist, or an artist. Money is tight so I always thought I should become a FST and just suffer if it doesn't make me happy. In the grand scheme of things, I guess, I have options.

Anyhow. I'm 32 days clean of SH and 45 of ED!!

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Hey, less pessimistic than before update! I'm 69 days clean of SH and I'm unsure how long I've been clean of my ED. I'm doing really good actually!

I think I have PMDD along with my PCOS, which has contributed greatly to my depression and anxiety. I'm on new medication (anti-psychs, depression, anxieties, etc) and that has made me feel much better. I got medically recognized a few months ago as a DID system and I'm being treated as one.

College is still looming over me and I feel really bad about it. I want to go to school as a FST, but I think ME would be a suitable job. As a plan B, artist 💀.

That's some life updates.

[milk4thou]

New, New update!

I've been clean 174 days and sober for just as long! Things are genuinely looking up for me and my system!

I'm being treated as a DID system and I'm in the process of getting a DX, along with autism! My medication hasn't changed since last time.

I'm looking forward to college and I'm opening commissions for my art to start saving up for it + I'm looking to get a job at my local pharmacy!

[milk4thou]

And I was an idiot. Nothing's has changed. It's always been this bad and it always will be. Nobody wants to hire a skanky bitch, nobody likes me. My own family doesn't like me. There's no point. There will never be any point in trying.

[milk4thou]

I wish I were a boy *said miserably*

Transgenderism: :)

[milk4thou]

Heya! I'm still depressed, but I'm much, much better. It's more high-functioning!

I still really wanna starve myself, but I've figured out that it isn't about getting thin anymore. It's about control. Feeling something that I can control about my life. I feel really outta control since poverty is driving me to work and college is looming terribly over my head.

I wanna be.. a forensic scientist technician, a therapist, or an artist. Money is tight so I always thought I should become a FST and just suffer if it doesn't make me happy. In the grand scheme of things, I guess, I have options.

Anyhow. I'm 32 days clean of SH and 45 of ED!!

[milk4thou]

Hey, less pessimistic than before update! I'm 69 days clean of SH and I'm unsure how long I've been clean of my ED. I'm doing really good actually!

I think I have PMDD along with my PCOS, which has contributed greatly to my depression and anxiety. I'm on new medication (anti-psychs, depression, anxieties, etc) and that has made me feel much better. I got medically recognized a few months ago as a DID system and I'm being treated as one.

College is still looming over me and I feel really bad about it. I want to go to school as a FST, but I think ME would be a suitable job. As a plan B, artist 💀.

That's some life updates.

[milk4thou]

New, New update!

I've been clean 174 days and sober for just as long! Things are genuinely looking up for me and my system!

I'm being treated as a DID system and I'm in the process of getting a DX, along with autism! My medication hasn't changed since last time.

I'm looking forward to college and I'm opening commissions for my art to start saving up for it + I'm looking to get a job at my local pharmacy!

[milk4thou]

Heya! I'm still depressed, but I'm much, much better. It's more high-functioning!

I still really wanna starve myself, but I've figured out that it isn't about getting thin anymore. It's about control. Feeling something that I can control about my life. I feel really outta control since poverty is driving me to work and college is looming terribly over my head.

I wanna be.. a forensic scientist technician, a therapist, or an artist. Money is tight so I always thought I should become a FST and just suffer if it doesn't make me happy. In the grand scheme of things, I guess, I have options.

Anyhow. I'm 32 days clean of SH and 45 of ED!!

[milk4thou]

Hey, less pessimistic than before update! I'm 69 days clean of SH and I'm unsure how long I've been clean of my ED. I'm doing really good actually!

I think I have PMDD along with my PCOS, which has contributed greatly to my depression and anxiety. I'm on new medication (anti-psychs, depression, anxieties, etc) and that has made me feel much better. I got medically recognized a few months ago as a DID system and I'm being treated as one.

College is still looming over me and I feel really bad about it. I want to go to school as a FST, but I think ME would be a suitable job. As a plan B, artist 💀.

That's some life updates.

[milk4thou]

Heya! I'm still depressed, but I'm much, much better. It's more high-functioning!

I still really wanna starve myself, but I've figured out that it isn't about getting thin anymore. It's about control. Feeling something that I can control about my life. I feel really outta control since poverty is driving me to work and college is looming terribly over my head.

I wanna be.. a forensic scientist technician, a therapist, or an artist. Money is tight so I always thought I should become a FST and just suffer if it doesn't make me happy. In the grand scheme of things, I guess, I have options.

Anyhow. I'm 32 days clean of SH and 45 of ED!!