warnings: Major manga spoilers, y/n is used one (1) time, not edited
inspired by āCalifornia and Meā by Laufey (loosely)
authors note: hey⦠iām back with my once a year one shot⦠and itās angst again⦠heh
jokes aside i recently reread the manga and i had a writing bug this is actually a bit of an old draft that i revived so hopefully the writing and pacing is still good :) i hope you enjoy reading it as much as i enjoyed writing it.
Looking back you knew that deep down⦠deep, deep down. It would have never worked out in the long run. But how could you not fall so helplessly in love with him?
You met Iwaizumi Hajime in your first year of college, both of you majoring in sports science with the intention to become professional athletic trainers. It all started with a dreaded group project, every class seemed to assign one no matter how universally hated they were. Despite all its cons, it was the reason why you started talking to the gorgeous international student who spoke better english than some native speakers you knew.
You grew close over the course of your time working on the project. The other two members not carrying their weight, leading to you two working on it into the late hours of the night at the library. You could listen to him talk about his passion for sports for hours. The way his eyes lit up when speaking only served to draw you in more.
You both ace the project, you canāt say the same for the two other students who you spoke to your professor about after too many missed meetings and unfulfilled promises.
In your second year, Hajime finally agreed to show you videos of him playing volleyball in high school.
āYouāre amazing Hajime,ā you say genuinely as you stare at the screen, your eyes only focused on him and no one else. You donāt see the way he looks at you after you say that.
Second year is also the year he takes a trip out to California, managing to score an interview with someone he could potentially intern with.
You scold yourself for feeling an ache in your chest at the fact that he was already planning for his life after graduation nowhere close to where you were now. You only just became friends, it would be fine.
āI bumped into someone I knew in high school, he was one of our biggest rivals. Weird right?ā he says once he comes back and the two of you get the chance to hang out in your dorm. You hum in agreement, distracted by the glow of his sun-kissed skin and the light in his eyes as he goes further into detail.
In third year he finally asks you out on a proper date. His tanned cheeks flushed a darker shade as he nervously rubs the back of his head with one hand, flowers clutched in the other. The sight is painfully adorable and one youāll never forget.
Not too long after, the Rio Olympics happen. He points out two young athletes on the volleyball team. A former teammate turned rival, and an underdog who surpassed everyoneās expectations.
As the match continues, the feed cuts to a shot of the athletic trainer cheering as team Japan scores a point. Neither of you say anything, but an unexplainable emotion fills the room. Anticipation? Dread?
Itās near the end of you fourth year when he shows up to your apartment a month before graduating, looking like he was carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders Before he even spoke you knew exactly what this was about. He had been stressing over this decision for months now.
āIāve decided. Iāll be in California for my internship.ā he says hoarsely, barely able to spit out the words.
It hurts, it hurts more than words can describe. Your sweet, passionate, headstrong Hajime. He looks so torn up in a way youāve never seen before. You knew he had potential and the drive to excel in this field.
But a selfish part of you wanted him to take the local internship like you did.
āThatās great Haji, I know you really wanted that one,ā you say with a weak smile. Maybe you couldāve fought for him to stay but you didnāt. Because you knew he would stay. You wouldnāt forgive yourself if you got in the way of the opportunity of a lifetime. If you were the reason that he couldnāt achieve this dream of his after he realized that volleyball wasnāt the path he desired. You couldnāt make him stay.
You see him off at the airport after one last summer together. Tears in both your eyes. promises of calling every night, planning visits soon, making this work because you could get through this. you both were strong, and determined.
Still, with careers as stressful and unpredictable as you had. Along with the struggles of trying to figure out life as young adults. It was just never in the cards for you.
You tried, you both tried so hard, but after too many schedule conflicts and unanswered calls, you realized that this was just hurting you two more than anything.
There was no dramatic fight, no affair, no revenge worthy event. Just a relationship that had run its course. A mutual split that ended with the both of you saying that you would still keep in touch. Be friends once more.
But life gets in the way. As it seems to always do, and the time between your last efforts to talk grow and grow until you canāt remember the last time you heard his voice.
Before you know it, youāre scrolling on your phone one day and one of his posts shows up. With that same grin you fell in love with and an unfamiliar skyline in the background.
āHomeā he captioned it. The one word piercing you straight through your chest. He had travelled all the way back across the word. Even after all this time you didnāt think heād be so cruel as to not tell you, unknowingly taking a part of your heart with him.
Despite your hurt, more time passed you often thought about him, did he have another partner? Someone he could tell about his time studying abroad? Would he mention you at all?
As for you, partners came and went, none of them comparing to the brief yet unforgettable experience you had with the boy from Japan with the spiky hair. It had been over 5 years since you last saw him in person, you try not to think about him much but your brain does the math immediately, he would be 27 by now.
However your time apart did not mean that you werenāt working towards your own goals and passions. Your heartbreak over the one that got away was never going to prevent you from achieving your dreams.
After endless hours of work, volunteering, learning, and applications, through it all you landed a spot as an athletic trainer for the Tokyo Olympics.
Already the country itself caused a whirlwind of mixed emotions for you, but the fact that you were going to be working with your countriesā menās volleyball team made an even bigger storm in your mind. Even so, you werenāt about to let this opportunity go to waste because you had unresolved feelings about your ex boyfriend.
Being an athletic trainer for the olympics is both stressful and exhilarating at the same time. Youāre so busy keeping up with your team you barely have any time to sleep, but the energy in the village is so electric you canāt bring yourself to care. Too awestruck by the fact that all of your work has lead to this moment.
Too distracted by your duties that when you pass by a couple members of team Argentina during the preliminary rounds, you donāt pay any mind to the player that does a less than subtle double take when you make brief eye contact.
It isnāt until after the matches end and youāre back at the Olympic village when you see that same player talking both frantically and animatedly with a person wearing the team Japan trainers uniform that the pieces finally all fall into place.
And it isnāt until after another sleepless night when after all this time, a voice youād grown used to hearing in your dreams rings in your ears while youāre in line for breakfast
āā¦y/n?ā
You take the briefest moment to take a breath, and turn to the source of the voice. Immediately itās as if youāre back in your second year dorm room, getting lost in those dark eyes and warm voice without a care in the world.
You smile softly, and a weight you didnāt know you had lifts off your chest. You wave, āHajime.ā
this is my first time actually posting something iāve written for dragon age! iāve loved the series for so long and decided to finally bite the bullet.
I wanted to write about Lucanisā reaction to that crow armour you can get from the lords of fortune. letās pretend that there arenāt other npc crows that wear it.
āCāmon! Itās blue, has feathers, and some flowy stuff. Doesnāt that check all the boxes for what you crows wear?ā
Rook turns her head to look up at Taash with an unconvinced look, āwe also prefer to have our vital organs covered Taash. Youāre sure there isnāt a missing shirt?ā she asks, turning back to the merchant of the Hall of Valour, who only raised his hands and shrugged.
āItās rumoured to have been worn by a pretty well known crow before making its way into my collection.ā
āRight.ā Rook replies, unconvinced
āPerhaps the crow was so good at their job they felt they didnāt need to cover up. Isnāt a big part of the crow uniform making statement against enemies?ā Neve pipes up, a hint of amusement in her tone.
Rook narrows her eyes at the woman before turning back to the armour before her. Neve wasnāt wrong about crow fashion, and the quality was really nice but it was just so⦠exposing.
āif I showed up in Treviso in this Viago would burst into laughter and then kick me out⦠again.ā Rook mumbles.
Taash groans in impatience, theyād been standing here for the better part of twenty minutes as Rook looked at the merchantās stuff, ācome on Rook, we have a ring to fight in! just get it! Show off some skin for once.ā
Rook blushes at that, everything she wore usually covered her up. Even her casual clothes she wore back at the lighthouse was the most sheās ever shown.
āWhy donāt you try it on and see how it fairs in the ring? Iām sure Isabela would be more than happy to introduce you in your new outfit.ā Neve offers
Room sighs, she didnāt know why but ever since she talked to Neve about her very limited knowledge on beauty and fashion and Neve and Taash have both been very insistent on her trying out new styles.
āFine⦠We have plenty of gold anyways.ā
She doesnāt notice the victorious smirks Neve and Taash share over her head.
āāā
āLucanis.ā
āDavrin.ā
Silence rings through the library of the lighthouse as the two men greet each other. Both pretending to look at the various titles in the spines of books. Lucanis swirls the coffee in his cup and clears his throat before taking a sip.
Davin finally speaks, āSo⦠You and Rook hey?ā
Lucanis pulls his gaze away from the bookshelf, turning to Davrin with a raised eyebrow, āwe have been over this no?ā
Davrin shrugs leaning against another bookshelf, ājust double checking, leave it up to both crows of the group to end up in a nest together.ā
Lucanis chuckles, āwe have not ānestedāā
Thereās a pause before Davrin continues, āYou two havenāt really gone out alone have you? Outside of our work against the gods i mean.ā
Lucanis blinks at the question and pauses to think, āwell uh⦠no not really.ā
āWhy not?ā
Lucanis sighs, it had been weeks since their near kiss before he cowered away, and while they continued to show clear attraction on both sides, itās not as if there was an official label on their⦠relationship. Would it be too much to spend time alone? With no goal in mind?
āitās complicatedā He finally says stiffly.
Davrin chuckles, āI can see that,ā
The familiar whoosh of the eluvian from below can be heard, āperfect timing,ā Davrin hums.
The doors to the eluvian room creak open and the murmur of chatter can be heard as the three make their way up the stairs.
Neve surfaces first and a sly smile crosses her face when she makes eye contact with lucanis.
Well that canāt be good, he thinks to himself as he takes a sip of his coffee,
āWelcome back,ā Davrin greets, āHow was the ring?ā
Neve shrugs, āIsabelaās out another 60 gold. We wouldāve been back sooner if someone didnāt take their time shopping.ā
Rookās laughter can be heard as she climbs the staircase, āI didnāt take that long neve.ā she says as she reaches the top of the staircase.
Lucanis chokes on his coffee.
āSooo what do we think?ā Taash says as they walk up behind Room. A large grin on their face. They put their hands on Rookās shoulders and spin her around like a doll, ignoring her sounds of protest.
Davrin throws an amused look back at Lucanis, āWhat do we think Lucanis?ā he turns his gaze back and crosses his arms, āI think youāre missing a shirt Rook.ā
āAccording to the merchant Iām not.ā Rook says with a sheepish chuckle. Suppressing the urge to cross her arms over her chest.
āThing fits like a glove though, she fought in the arena with this armour on and left perfectly fine.ā Neve says, nudging Rook with her elbow.
āMierda, you fought in that?ā Lucanis finally chokes out. Barely recovering from the initial shock of seeing the woman he was already extremely attracted to wearing⦠That.
āLike a badass.ā Taash confirms, smirking at the sight of Lucanisā face, āwell Neve you had to show me that⦠thing right?ā
Neve nods, the mischievous smile never leaving her face, āright of course. would you like to come with Davrin? For the thing?ā
The elf smiles knowingly, āIād love to.ā
the three waste no time in leaving the library of the lighthouse, the door swinging shut behind them.
Rook chuckles nervously under Lucanisā stare, rocking back and forth on her feet.
āItās a bit much right? The merchant said a renowned crow once wore this armour but I think he just lost the shirt.ā
Lucanis rakes his eyes up and down her body. Trying desperately not to focus on her chest.
But how could he when she was wearing a variety of necklaces that led his eyes even further down? For once he could see almost the entirety of the tattoo she had on her chest, who put that there? Who had the pleasure of seeing the full expanse of her soft skin before he could-
āLucanis?ā
Lucanis jumps as his train of thought is broken, he clears his throat as he tightens his grip on his coffee cup, āyou lookā¦ā
āVERY NICE ROOK.ā
Thereās a pause as Spiteās voice rings through the library. Lucanis suddenly wishes that the device spinning above their heads would malfunction and he would be torn up by the fade.
Rook, in all her kindness laughs, her hand coming up to cover her mouth, āthank you Spite but I was asking Lucanis.ā
Her eyes meet his again and he swallows. Thereās a pause before he takes a deep breath, calming the shock in his mind.
āI thinkā¦ā he started slowly, stalking his way up to Rook, āyou look beautiful, though I would advise against leaving some of the most important parts of you⦠vulnerable.ā
Rook doesnāt know if the dip in his voice is intentional but it makes her shiver nonetheless. Her eyes trained on the free hand that comes up to feel the plumage on her shoulders.
āT-thatās what I told Taash,ā, she says with an awkward chuckle. Suddenly feeling very warm.
Rook breaks her gaze away from his hand and nearly gasps when she meets Lucanisā eyes. Dark and intense, with a heat in them that was starting to become familiar to her.
Flustered, Rook breaks eye contact. laughing awkwardly as one of her hands comes up to fiddle with the chains in her neck. Lucanis tries to not make his stare so obvious.
āI-I should change, no need to be in armour here right?ā Rook steps away awkwardly, not waiting for an answer. Nearly tripping as she quickly ascends the stairs towards her room.
Itās only when Lucanis hears the creak of a door opening and closing does he slouch and inhale shakily, his hand reaching towards a bookshelf to steady himself, āmierda.ā
hi, i know i haven't been super active, but my dragon age phase has come back in full swing so if any of you are interested I have some stuff on this side blog :)
crush!Meian who you always see around the grocery store because you have a similar schedule. You go for a lot of the same items and the annoying chore of grocery shopping soon becomes his favorite day of the week.
crush!Meian who always hurries to the bread section for his favorite only to see you toss the last bag of it into your cart, shooting him a wide grin and peace sign.
hopeless crush!Meian who doesnāt remember how to be cool and suave when eventually he reaches the aisle at the same time as you and you both go for the last bread and he pulls back telling you to have it.
āOh. Why?ā, you asked in surprise.
Because you touched it first, he thought.
āBecause Iām in love with you.ā, he said.
new boyfriend!Meian who brings you every single ointment the pharmacy has to offer when you cut your finger during cooking. He lays out six different tubes and explains that they are for different stages of healing when you interrupt him with a kiss as Thank You.
new boyfriend!Meian who cannot and will not keep his hands to himself when youāre even somewhat close by. Your love handles and pudgy thighs are his absolute favorite.
long term boyfriend!Meian who canāt stop smiling when he watches you getting ready for a date or waiting for him on the couch after training, everything prepared to continue the show youāre both obsessed with and kiss the stress of the day away. He will 100% rest his head on your tummy while you play with his hair.
long term boyfriend!Meian who practices his proposal speech in front of the mirror several times, not realizing that the bathroom door has been open the whole time, and when he comes out, you tell him sweetly that version four was your favorite as you fix his tie.
newlywed husband!Meian who forgets everything to do with volleyball in the post-game interviews, because he is too busy scanning the crowd for you. In his honeymoon phase he is a PR nightmare because all he wants to talk about is his wife. Any excuse to bring up his wife. Ask him about his thoughts on his opponent and he will somehow mention his wife.
newlywed husband!Meian who was once asked, āWhat, in your opinion, is your greatest accomplishment to date?ā and everything the captain could think of was, āMy wife recently taught me how to air flip pancakes and I did it on the third try.ā
a/n: I am watching Love Next Door and the ointment scene was too cute not to use!
a/n: hello! itās been a while. recently iāve been playing a ton of zzz (interknot level 43 already o-o) and itās such a silly game and i love wise <3.
also recently iāve been coming to terms with the fact that itās okay if my fics are shorter than iām used to so hopefully my i can post more things in the near future
āI donāt understand girls, let alone virtual ones.ā Something wise told his sister half jokingly when they were first introduced to their new assistant Fairy. He was just so busy with proxy duties, running Random Play, and making sure that Belle didnāt run into trouble that he never really put much thought into meeting new people and going on dates.
Unfortunately for him, there was currently a really pretty girl in the store and he suddenly wished that the opposite was true.
He hopes he didnāt seem too creepy from where he stood behind the counter watching as you perused the collection of the store. 18 was in the staff room with Belle for some maintenance after it started counting change wrong, so Wise opted to just take over the store for the short amount of time it would take.
It was both a blessing and a curse that you just so happened to walk into the store at that moment.
From what he could tell you hadnāt been to the store before, you definitely werenāt a regular and it didnāt seem like you had any specific film to pick out in mind.
āJust let me know if you need any helpā he wanted to say, but his mouth stayed shut. He couldnāt bring himself to speak, his mouth was dry, what if his voice cracked?
He forced his eyes away from you to look at other customers, the luckyboo to his left, the window outside. Anything but you, staring was rude after all.
āExcuse me.ā Wise gripped the edge of the counter tightly, the voice was unfamiliar but deep down he knew. Such a nice voice couldnāt belong to anyone else that was in the store. He swallowed, turning his head to look at you.
You make eye contact and it takes everything in him to not let his legs give out.
He smiles, hoping it didnāt look too awkward, āHow can i help you?ā He asks calmly *calmly*.
You smile, and Wise nearly melts. Was it normal for a stranger to have such a big effect on him?
āIām gonna be honest Iām a bit overwhelmed with the selection you have here,ā you say sheepishly, āI was wondering if you had any recommendations?ā
His hands start sweating as he mentally starts going through the storeās catalog, āOf course, you have any genres in mind?ā he mentally pats himself on the back for not stuttering.
You take a moment to think, āHonestly Iām just looking for a film thatās calm, something I can watch to wind down. So anything like that? Even a good documentary would work.ā
Wise nearly shouts in victory. A documentary? Perfect, absolutely perfect. āWell actually I enjoy watching documentaries, depending on what interests you I would recommendā¦ā
Wise spends the better part of ten minutes making recommendations, and why he enjoys specific films. To his surprise youāre listening to every word and nodding along, even asking questions as he talks.
Eventually, you settle on a film to rent and Wise is pulling up the stores system to start the transaction.
āCan i have your number?ā he says suddenly as you pull out your card to pay.
You look at him stunned, āPardon me?ā
Wiseās eyes widen as he realizes what he just said, āF-for our system!ā he coughs, āJust to keep track of what youāll be renting, a-and if you like you can sign up for a membership too.ā
You blink, āUm, actually yeah Iād love to sign up.ā
His gaze snaps to meet yours, usually it took a bit more convincing from customers. āThatās great!ā he manages to say, was it getting warm in the store? āIād just need you name and your number then.ā
The rest of the transaction relatively goes smoothly. With him now knowing your name and having your numberāfor the membership of courseāalong with you promising to swing by the store again and talk about more movies with him.
The door to the shop finally swings shut behind you, and Wise drops his head, leaning on the counter with an embarrassed sigh.
Itās then that he hears a snicker to his right and he looks up. His sister stands there with a fixed and waving 18, and an amused smirk on her face.
desperate male lead syndrome is making a strong comeback in 2024 and iām here for it!! so i wrote about this annoying loser (your honour i love him so much)
husband atsumu drabble because this is what the people want ^^ (iām people)
ābaby, donāt go looking at yerā poor husband like that!ā atsumu pouts, poking your cheeks at the sight of your evidently disdained face.
okay. you could go do that. you could also just forget the broken ceramic on the floor, still not cleaned up because atsumu would rather make amends with you first than cleaning up the potential risk that was right infront of you both.
honestly, you couldnāt tell whether you should be glad, or concerned.
āiām not mad at you,ā you say, the expression on your face clearly betraying your words. ādonāt worry about it, atsumu.ā
you thought that maybe your words would ease the blonde manās resolve, however it seemed to have only made it worse for him.
āatsumu?! no baby, no love, no ātsumu?!ā he stresses, hands going up to his mouth.
you stare at his rather dramatic delivery,āand was that the life in his eyes flying away?? he looks like a modern rendition of casper the ghost.
āiāll do the dishes for a week, no,āa month! iāll buy yaā those heels yaā told me not to buy at the mall!!ā atsumu frantically spouts, saying anything he could think of as he continues to cling onto your figure, his face mushing onto your neck and shoulder area.
you shut your eyes. just.. how could you stay annoyed? look at his pouty face, how his ears seemed to be more red than the rest of his skins current complexion. he practically made it impossible for you to even be the least bit mad, and you wouldāve felt as guilty as a convict for even attempting to do so. thatās the kind of effect he had on you.
in response, you merely sigh. but there wasnāt any bark to it. āor, you could clean up the shattered pot on the floor.ā you say, making sure to bring your tone to a more gentle and reassuring one.
atsumu turns to at you once again, his blonde locks tickling your skin as he moves.
āyerā not mad anymore?ā he beams. āi mean, we could always make another pot, right? how ābout it?ā he says, hopeful eyes staring directly to your orbs.
in all realness, you genuinely werenāt mad at him, ā(as much as he would sulk and say you definitely were), no. you were just sad at the fact that you and atsumuās ceramic that you both had worked so hard to sculpt and paint on your first date was now shattered on the floor, all but beyond repair.
āi was never mad at you, promise.ā you say. ājust a bit disappointed. i liked that pot a lot, you know.ā your hand reaches for atsumuās cheek, pinching it slightly. physical touch always seemed to reassure him more than anything else.
atsumu mentally notes that he should make you breakfast in bed the following morning as he stares at your affirming expression. he plants various of pecks on your face after doing so.
āiām sorry, princess.ā atsumu cooās, his hand pushing away the little hairs on your forehead as he plants a kiss on it.
āiāll make it up to yaā, i promise.ā
ā ⢠ā
now, you know that you most definitely shouldnāt be all too surprised, considering that, well, āthis was miya atsumu we were talking about,
but seriouslyā¦.
you stare at the little bundle of fur politely sitting on your lap as you rub your eyes, just having come out of your nights sleep. you also happen to notice the smell of pancakes and hot chocolate coming from the bedside table.
ā ātsumu, whereā?..no, when did you get this dog?ā
āi have my ways.ā he proudly grins. ābut look, itās yerā favourite breed!ā
āā¦.yes, i know. but where did youāā
āwe have a daughter now, hehe.ā
āsince when did i agreāā
āso adorable, definitely takes after her mommy and daddy. look at the bow on her head!ā
okay that kuroo piece is still coming but have this small sakusa x MSBY!manager blurb that I just thought up and got so excited about!! Iām marking this down as fem!reader just for this specific little ramble. it can be read separately from the series !!
warnings: none, but probably a bit of a disconnect from what really happens at charity galas lmao
sakusa kiyoomi has a certain reputation for being very stoic and stand-offish in public- always polite but rather blunt in interviews. heās tall, intimidating and not very personable around those who donāt know him, so itās not a surprise people perceive him this way. his preference for wearing his mask most of the time only adds to this reputation, and he couldnāt care less. in fact, you would argue that he finds comfort in being perceived as unapproachable by strangers.
but when MSBY fans realize how horrifically down bad their favourite wing spiker is for the team manager, they have a field day with this absolutely drastic personality shift.
it starts with little jokes made by fan accounts about how much nicer he is to you in comparison to his teammates. they latch onto passing comments made by bokuto or atsumu about how when youāre at practice they feel at ease because theyāre less likely to get obliterated by his sarcastic remarks.
no one has clued into the fact that youāre together yet, just that thereās some serious chemistry between you two.
it doesnāt go much further than that until the night of some charity event a lot of different teams are attending. of course managers are there, as well as coaches and trainers and JVA employees.
youāre doing the press/carpet walk before entering the event and in between photos and walking between journalists, one of the straps of your heels has come undone.
you frown a little and inspect it before realizing your dress restricts your ability to fix it yourself, so you nudge your boyfriend and stick your foot out to draw his attention to your predicament.
you donāt think twice about how there are no words are spoken. just a simple action and understanding between two lovers.
so people watch on as sakusa kiyoomi drops to his knees right then and there without protest and fixes your shoe. you take the opportunity to adjust the neckline of your dress (a deep, silky forest green to match his tie) and look around while you wait for him to finish.
you donāt realize the uproar this is bound to create, and you definitely donāt think twice about the fact that your boyfriend isnāt wearing a mask to this event.
ā¦which means everyone is able to see the blush on his face and the tiny yet extremely lovesick smile on his lips as he gets up. you grin and pat sakusa on the cheek in thanks before walking to the next reporter, him trailing behind you dutifully.
you check twitter the next morning and your timeline is flooded with videos of that moment, captions gushing about how sweet and happy he looks. some fans go as far as to say he looks like a lost puppy following you around.
he doesnāt regret it one bit, but you have to comfort him when he loses his stand-offish reputation after that because he dreads the idea of more people possibly coming up to him in public.
a/n: hello hello! (is acting like i havenāt been gone for forever), can you believe i found this just sitting on a random note in my phone 90% done???? i literally wrote this over a year ago and never found the motivation to finish it ;-; due to its age toshi might be a bit ooc.
anyways, iām not entirely back yet but i keep seeing lovely comments and reblogs that just make me want to start writing again ;-; maybe with the haikyuu movie being released soon my motivation will amp back up. ALSO iām gonna try to start reblogging regularly again
*request box is still technically āclosedā but if anyone has some genshin or *ahem* Baldurs gate 3 requests, i may be inclined to write if they pique my interest :)
enjoy!
If there was one thing that you knew for an absolute fact. it would be that volleyball would always be his main priority.
You knew this well before you started dating him, it was part of the reason you refused to admit your true feelings for him. You refused to take him away from his first love. Something that he was so visibly passionate about.
So you stayed on the sidelines, watching wistfully as the boy you had a crush on rose higher and higher, while you stood on the ground looking up in awe. This was comfortable, you were content with just watching and admiring. It was all you thought you were able to do.
Until he had asked you out first.
You had genuinely thought that Tendou was joking when he had told you that the Ushijima Wakatoshi saw you as anything more than one of the teamās managers.
His face was always devoid of emotion. Your interactions were limited to him nodding in thanks as you gave him a towel or water bottle, or him humming in acknowledgment as you relayed to him the notes you took after the most recent practice match.
And yet you found yourself standing in front of him, just outside the gym after practice, heart absolutely racing as he asked you out on a date.
Your first date was awkward to say the least. Having never spoken outside of club activities, you found it hard to keep a conversation flowing as you two sat in a cafe sipping your drinks.
He had walked you back to your dorm that day, but before you could go in, he had grabbed your hand.
You stared in shock at the large hand enveloping yours, āUshijima?ā
Suddenly, you felt a tiny gust of wind and a slight pressure against your forehead. You could only stammer dumbly as you realized the pressure was his lips.
He pulled away after a moment. He was heavily avoiding eye contact and turned his head to the side, but you could see the tips of his ears turning red.
āI donāt know much when it comes to this stuff. But I know I would like to go out again⦠if thatās okay with you of course.ā
You gaped at the boy in front of you āI- um weā¦ā you took a deep breath to centre yourself and smiled āYes I would like to go out with you again Ushijima.ā
Your relationship progressed quite fast after that. More dates, hanging out with him and Tendou in their dorm.
You were there for everything, cheering him on during games, you were the first person he would seek out when he won, you comforted him after a loss.
Your relationship lasted through high school and even university. It wasnāt long before you two ended up moving in together.
When Wakatoshi found his place with the Schweiden Adlers you were ecstatic. You had also just landed a great job and it felt like your two were simply cruising through life with ease.
Unfortunately your seemingly perfect life would never last forever.
Being in the v-league, volleyball seemed to fill his schedule more now than ever. Constant practice, games outside of the city even in other countries sometimes.
You hardly saw Ushijima anymore despite living with him. Even when you did, he was tired or just about to leave for practice.
It felt like you were pushed back into the sidelines. Watching hopelessly as he rose higher and higher, to places where you could not reach. It was no longer comfortable, you could no longer look in awe, but in despair as you watch him slip from the already loose grasp you had on him.
You couldnāt even remember the last time you went on a date. Every time you mentioned doing something in his free time he had brushed you off.
Which led you to now.
You woke up to an empty bed yet again. It was your day off so you werenāt rushing to get out of bed.
Yet you felt off.
The dryness in your mouth and throat is what you felt first. Then how runny your nose was. Finally, the cold sweat you were experiencing.
You were definitely sick.
You groaned to yourself and pulled the blanket to your chin. Hoping that you could possibly sleep it off.
Yet your efforts were in vain. After what felt like hours of trying to fall back asleep you realized that you were just going to feel even more miserable without anything to eat or at least drink.
You pushed yourself up onto your elbows and immediately regretted it. The world spun around you and your entire body shook. You collapsed back onto your pillow and panted at the exertion it took.
As you caught your breath you turned your head towards your bedside table, where your phone sat charging.
Weakly, you lifted your arm and with a bit of effort you were able to grab your phone. As it turned on you winced at how bright the screen was and with bleary eyes you managed to open your contacts.
The words seemed to blend together as you searched through your contacts, you nearly sobbed in relief as your eyes finally focused on the name of your best friend.
You clicked the call button and dropped you hand to beside your ear, preparing for the way your throat would undoubtedly hurt as you spoke.
After a couple rings you heard the person on the other side pick up and you quickly began speaking, desperate to get them to come quickly so that you could hopefully feel better.
āHey, Iām sorry if youāre busy but do you think you can bring me some drinks and maybe food? iām not feeling the best and I donāt know if I can get up at all.ā
The person on the other end of the phone began talking but you could barely decipher it as your head spun and your body shivered despite how warm you were.
ā-/nā¦.y/n?ā
You froze at the deep voice on the other side of the phone. You pulled away an looked at the screen, nearly breaking down at the sight of Wakatoshiās name instead of your friends. Quickly you put it back against your ear
āAh Iām sorry Toshi. I meant to call a friend youāre probably busy you donāt have to come back home.ā you said quickly, actually sitting up as you rambled nervously, reprimanding yourself for interrupting his practice.
You had called and texted him during practice before. At one point he was fine with it, responding during breaks or calling you back once practice had finished. But lately you had been greeted with one worded responses, or you were just ignored.
One time you even tried to pry once he got home from practice, asking him about his odd lack of response. That day, he had turned to glare at you.
āIām busy y/n. I donāt have time for things like that.ā
āYouāre sick?ā your thoughts were interrupted by his voice again. He used a tone much gentler than the one he had used that day.
āA little bit, nothing to worry about I can just call-ā you cut yourself off with a harsh cough, unable to hold back the whimper as your throat throbbed in protest.
āIām coming home.ā
Whether from his words or the fever you couldnāt tell, but a chill ran down your spine
āN-no toshi you donāt have to Iāll be fine donāt leave practice just because of meā
āIāll stop by the store for some ingredients donāt get out of bed.ā
And with that the call ended. Slowly, you took the phone away from your ear and looked at it in shock. He was leaving practice early. Something you werenāt aware he was willing to ever do.
At least not recently.
Only when the shock settled, did you realize just how much your body was protesting you sitting up. So, despite your better judgment, you lied back down, waiting in nervous anticipation for him to come home.
What might have been half an hour felt like forever as you laid in bed. Shivering underneath the comforter despite sweating profusely, rubbing your nose raw from having to blow it constantly, all whilst it felt like you were spinning.
In your haze you didnāt even hear the front door or you bedroom door open. How could you when your body demanded all the attention you had?
Wakatoshi stood frozen in the doorway, a plastic bag hanging off his arm, silent as he took in the state you were in.
How hadnāt he noticed before he left? you couldnāt have possibly entered this state within the couple of hours he was gone.
He felt a tug of unease pull at his heart and willed himself to walk up to you.
āy/n,ā he called softly. sitting on your side of the bed.
You flinched at the sound of his voice not knowing he was in the room. Slowly, you opened your eyes and winced at the light in the room.
āToshi,ā you croaked pathetically.
His face softened and he brushed your damp hair away from your face, frowning when he felt how warm your forehead was.
āHey,ā he greeted, he lifted a hand and thatās when you saw a thermometer from the medicine cabinet in his hand ācan you open your mouth please?ā
Weakly, you did as he asked, and as it sat in your mouth, he quickly walked towards the master bathroom. Mumbling something about a towel.
You didnāt hear him however as you turned your head back towards the ceiling and already felt your eyes drooping again.
You only came to when you felt something cool against your forehead, you opened your eyes to see Toshi looking down at you with furrowed eyebrows. The thermometer beeped and when he looked at the reading the crease deepened.
Toshi disappeared for a moment again, making his presence known when he began to take the comforter off of you.
You whined as he did so, shivering even harder as air hit your body. You even sat up to try and grab it back.
āās cold toshi,ā you slurred.
He was quick to place a thinner sheet on top of you āI know dear, but we have to get your body temperature down.ā
As you pulled the blanket closer Wakatoshi opened the bag he brought with him. You heard the rattle of a pill container and then the crack of a bottle being opened. Wakatoshi turned to you and held out some medicine and water.
You reached out a shaky hand to take the medicine, placing the pill in your mouth. Wakatoshi helped you hold the bottle, noting how weak your arms were.
You sighed in temporary relief when you finished drinking, glad that your mouth felt less dry.
Wakatoshi allowed a small relieved smile to cross his face and he quickly helped you lay back down.
āIāll make you some food, stay here.ā
Once he was sure you were comfortable he made his way to the kitchen quickly getting his ingredients ready.
It was only when he was midway through washing some rice when he took a moment to pause.
When was the last time he had cooked for you?
Wakatoshi continued his task albeit feeling guilty thinking about how youāve been the one cooking and eating dinner alone for some time now. It used to be a shared responsibility. Now he usually came home late so you would put a plate aside for him or he would go out to eat with the team.
He was still deep in though as he pushed the bedroom door open with his back, a tray consisting of a bowl of rice porridge and a cup of tea left a trail small trail of steam as he walked.
You were asleep but woke easily at the sound of his footsteps. It took a moment for your eyes to focus on him.
He gestured with the tray, āDo you think you can eat?ā
You looked at the food, perfectly plated and garnished, your mouth watering slightly at the savoury smell.
āI think so. At least a little bit.ā
He helped you sit up, and when he saw the weakness still in your arms he fed you himself.
You hummed contently at the first bite of food. You had missed this more than you thought you did.
After about half the bowl was done and your tea finished, you signalled that you stomached as much as your body would allow. Now with your body temperature having gone down and your stomach full you could feel yourself becoming less and less loopy. You watched quietly as he put the tray on the bedside table. When he was finished with that, he sat still on the bed and stared at the wall.
You looked at his face, despite it deceptively lacking emotion, you knew better than anyone else that something was bothering him.
However before you could ask he began to speak
āWhy wasnāt I the first person you contacted when you realized that you were sick?ā
You froze, looking down in your lap fiddling wIth a loose thread in the blanket.
āā¦Wellā¦youāve been busy as of lateā¦.I didnāt think it was important enough to take you out of practice. Someone less busy would have probably been willing to come.ā
He slowly turned to face you. āYou didnāt think that your wellbeing was important enough?ā
You shrugged, āWell volleyball is always going to be your biggest priority. Iām just sick itāll pass.ā
Obvious distress crossed Ushijimaās face āy/n, you are my main priority.ā
You paused. Perhaps it was time to tell him how you were really feeling instead of dancing around the subject.
āā¦It hasnāt felt that way lately.ā you say hesitantly, your voice small.
Wakatoshi faltered. You kept looking down, almost scared to look him in the eye.
āI was content with that at first, your love of volleyball is admirable, itās was drew me to you at first. But it always made you seem unattainable. When you asked me on that date all those years ago I was over the moon,ā you paused to clear your throat huffing in annoyance as your sickness interrupted you.
āBut I can only endure so much Toshi. Nowadays it feels like your going where I canāt reach. Youāre always busy, which is understandable for a professional athlete⦠I just wish it wasnāt to the point where Iām worried about your reaction if I were to try to talk to you.ā
There was a shift in the mattress. Then familiar arms that you had been longing for wrapped tightly around you.
āToshi youāre gonna get sick.ā
āItās fine,ā
ābut-ā
āIām sorry y/n.ā
you stiffened but stayed quiet to let him speak.
āYouāve done so much for me without complaint and I have done so little in return. iām sorry for letting it get to this point. It took you getting this sick for me to realize.ā
A stormy look crossed his face, āI⦠Iāve been struggling to balance work and home, in return Iāve been neglecting you and letting how tired I am influence my reactions. you donāt deserve that. you are my first priority y/n, I donāt know what I would do without you.ā
You sniffled and wiped a tear that fell from your face. You didnāt even know you were crying. For a man usually so quiet and stoic, he always knew what to say to you when he needed to. It was always so endearing to you.
āIf I had known you were going to take it this well I wouldāve said something earlier,ā you say softly.
He smiles sadly, āI havenāt been making it seem that way hmm?ā
You shake youāre head but smile back, ānoā
He sighs to himself but places a gentle kiss against your forehead much like how he did all those years ago. Your eyes flutter shut and you make let out a pleased sigh. You were much more comfortable than you were when you first woke up.
āWeāll talk more once you get better. I promise,ā He eventually says. holding you a bit closer to him.
You nodded and snuggled closer to his chest. While it wasnāt an immediate fix, it was a start.
āSounds good to me Toshi.ā
He smiled down at you āSleep, Iāll be here when you wake up.ā
Genre: Angst. hurt with no comfort :0. a bit of a character study??? with a touch of song fic (but no lyrics because itās just not my thing)
Warnings: none(?)
Requests: Closed
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a/n: A small gift for 300 followers :3 Based off of the song āUs Without Meā by Grent Perez (PLS LISTEN TO IT. AND HIS WHOLE DISCOGRAPHY ITS BANGER AFTER BANGER FOR ANY MOOD). i havenāt had the energy to do any requests but this song just inspired me and i managed to write it between all my school work.
I hope yāall enjoy this because i know that iām very inconsistent when it comes to posting but iām so so grateful to everyone that enjoys my writing. Iām currently in stem so being able to be creative in some way between my stressful life has been a blessing. itās just an extra benefit that people enjoy what i write.
In his defence. He was never that in tune with his emotions. At least⦠thatās what he keeps telling himself.
The silence that came with staying up well into the night was something that he used to relish in. After a hectic day of training he knew that eventually the night would come and he could relax in complete silence doing whatever he wanted.
That was until you left.
You used to go up to him to talk about your day the moment he got home. He would often tune you out as he took off his shoes, up until he managed to get into the shower. His days used to be filled with your voice.
Used to.
For a while after you had left the apartment, he thought that youād eventually come back. You always did. You usually needed a bit of time to calm down after big arguments such as the one you had that one fateful night.
Eventually youād come around. Thatās what he always told himself.
Though it seemed like this would be the one exception. Now he was left in this apartment that felt far too big, and far too quiet for one person.
How he wished to hear you talk about your day just one more time.
He was never the type to think much about the past, always the kind of person to look towards the future and its plethora of possibilities, but not this time.
In the quiet parts of the night, when there was nothing to distract his mind from reminiscing, his mind forced him to consider the āwhat ifās?ā What could have been had he not spoken to you the way he did that night. Had he put aside his pride for once and chased after you like the damn fool he knew he was.
You leaving him left him with more questions than answers. Rather, more questions that he didnāt want to know the answers to. Questions that he would never be able to pull himself to ask.
He would never ask those questions. He kept his space. He wouldnāt dare contact you because he knew that it wasnāt him that you wanted. Definitely not because he was scared of any further rejection.
Definitely.
So he was stuck, thinking about what you had, cursed with the thoughts of what could have been while you had managed to break free.
He eventually got into the habit of watching from afar, just to make sure you were doing okay. Thatās what he would tell himself unconvincingly. What a mess he was, looking at your posts on social media for a bit too long. Clicking on your account and scrolling through it a bit too often.
Analyzing your most recent post for a bit too long, and realizing that there were two drinks at the table you sat at. Youād always beg him to visit new cafes with you, more often than not heād say he was busy or tired.
Heās stare at the picture for far too long, and eventually realize that you were looking at the person taking the picture with the same flustered yet elated look that you would give him all that time ago.
His heart sinks to his stomach but all he can do is look at you through a screen.
The more you posted the more evident it became that you were over him. He would chuckle angrily at his phone. The same phone you would beg him to get off of, just to give you even a fraction of his attention. He could never tell if he was angry at you for moving on so quickly, or at himself for caring so much now. Only after you had left for good.
He found himself wondering how you purged him from your heart so easily. When the mark you left on his was still so prominent. Then he remembers how he treated you and the mark begins to throb.
He thinks about how you live somewhere else now. How youāve made a new place your own but even after all this time there are still remnants of you in his godforsaken apartment. The bath mat you bought, the way you organized the kitchen, the body wash you insisted he buy because you liked the way it smelled. He still buys it.
All this pain and heartache that he feels. He worries that heāll be tethered to it forever. forced to live with the fact that heās lost the best thing that could have ever happened to him and heāll just have to accept it. For a man that only looked to the future, he canāt imagine himself living as carefree as he once did and it worries him. More than he would ever like to admit.
He finds himself comparing your new relationship to the one you two used to share. An immensely unhealthy habit for one to develop, but one he couldnāt free himself from.
āWe used to be like thatā he thinks to himself dejectedly as he sees a video of you and your new flame a mutual friend posted. He can see himself in the position of the other person but then he is dragged back to reality, and can see itās the relationship you two once had. Just without him.
In the end he has to accept the bitter truth and realize that it wasnāt him that you needed. But god he still desperately needed you.
But as he looks at your new relationship, it becomes more clear to him. He didnāt deserve you, and he would have to live with that. The amount of attention and love you now get. The happiness in your eyes that grows with each post. Itās incomparable to how you two used to be. When heās feeling particularly pathetic, he imagines himself as your new partner. Devoted, loving, determined to ensure the relationship works.
Thatās where his imagination stops. In reality he knows that your relationship never looked like that. It never would have, not with how he was.
Woah I'm new here in Tumblr but I'm glad I came across your blog! Not sure if you're accepting requests but thoughts on Angst/Comfort where trust issues comes after Atsumu (or Kageyama šāāļø) does something that upsets their s/o??
Man of Many Words
Miya Atsumu x gn!Reader
Genre: Angst with some fluff at the end
Warnings: none(?)
Requests: Closed for now :|
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a/n: First of all iām so sorry this took so long anon but I hope that this somewhat fulfills your request ;-;. Writers block is crazy I was pumping out one shots so easily and then bam I hate everything I write. The ending of this one in particular was difficult for me but i hope it suffices :ā). anyways requests are still closed for now but iām hoping to write something that will help the creative juices flow again
It is well known among Atsumuās friends and family that he tends to talk. A lot.
It was something you found endearing about him when you first started dating. Whenever you were with Atsumu, awkward silences were few and far between. There was always something he could talk about it.
For the most part you were happy to listen and talk about whatever it was he rambled about that day. His limitless passion was part of why you fell in love with him.
Still, the habit of his had some drawbacks.
āOh, congratulations by the way!ā
You turn your gaze away from the restaurant window and look at your friend in confusion.
āCongratulations on what?ā
It was your friendās turn to look confused, āOn the big promotion silly!ā
There was a pause as you took in their words. āHow do you even know about that?ā You spluttered. āI just got the news a couple days ago. I was planning a big announcement and everything.ā
āOh I ran into Atsumu at the grocery store yesterday and he told me!ā their gaze softened when they saw the defeated look on your face. āIām sorry I thought he wouldāve told youā
You waved your hands in front of you, āno no itās not your fault⦠Iām not very surprised at this point. I was just hoping to wait for all the paperwork to go through before telling anyone.ā
āWell if itās any comfort Iām proud of you y/n.ā
The smile you gave them was bittersweet, āthanks.ā
āāā
Needless to say, you were a bit peeved when you got home that day, though your boyfriend didnāt seem to notice.
āHi babe! how was lunch?ā He called from where he sat on the couch.
You stared blankly at the back at his head for a moment, āfine.ā
āThatās great! I was thinkinā for dinner we could order out ya know? This commercial came on and-ā
āWhy did you tell f/n about the promotion?ā
He paused and finally turned to look at you. Taking in your frustrated state, still, he shrugged, āit seemed like a good time.ā
You let your bag fall to the ground before fully stepping into the living room āAtsumu I told you that I wanted to wait, it would have only taken another week.ā
Now standing up from the couch, the confusion that was evident on Atsumuās face only served to fuel your anger.
āBut this is such exciting news y/n! Thereās no time like the present!ā
āAtsumu thatās not for you to decide! That was my news to tell!ā
āLike you said, you were gonna tell them eventually!ā He raised his hands up in surrender, āIām sorry but you know that this is just how I am! I was just so excited for you I couldnāt help myself.ā
You left that fight defeated that night, unable to think of any comeback, because yes, you did know Atsumu. You knew how your life was never your own being with him. You knew the extent of just how stubborn he was and how ignorant he could be to the world around him. Trying to wrap his mind around something could feel like pulling teeth sometimes.
After managing to get through a tense dinner, life went on. You did end up celebrating with your closest friends and family and soon after you began to take on your new responsibilities.
Unfortunately, Atsumu continued to act as if he hadnāt completely crossed a boundary you had set. He continued to talk about your lives with his friends it seemed that you couldnāt go a full week without somebody asking you about something you never told them about.
The pure helplessness you felt that day remained lingering within you as you carried on with work. You found yourself almost dreading going home, and contemplating not telling him anything.
But how could you when everyday without fail he would grace you with that smile, oozing with love and fondness before sweetly asking you, āSo how was your day?ā
You were in a bit of a mess with yourself, trying to figure out how to get your concerns through his thick skull. The new role you had taken on further adding to the stress you had been feeling. While you loved your job You were both physically and mentally exhausted.
It was only a matter of time before everything became too much.
To the horror of you colleagues, you had ended up fainting at work. You had finally succumbed to everything in your life that had been piling on top of you.
Luckily, it wasnāt long before you regained consciousness, surrounded by your colleagues you sat up and slowly and rubbed the back of your head sheepishly.
At that moment some paramedics had rounded the corner and while you insisted you were completely fine, you allowed them to check you for injuries and give you some fluids, it wasnāt until they were sure you were stable and didnāt need any further help that they left.
As embarrassing as the entire situation was, you were glad that your boss let you have the rest of the day off, it was near the end of your shift anyways. So you grabbed your bag and left, still mortified at what had just transpired.
As you rode the train home, the events leading up to you losing consciousness replayed in your mind, you thought about everything that had led up to that point. How your coworkers reacted. As you sat in the quiet train, your mind still struggled to process what had happened.
Even with your spiralling mind, everything led to one conclusion.
You couldnāt tell Atsumu about what happened, at least not today.
Because you knew him. You knew exactly what would happen.
It would start with the texts from worried friends, calls from both of your families, and end with people mentioning off handedly, āI heard you fainted the other day. How are you feeling?ā and you would be left to do damage control as your boyfriend continued to live his carefree life.
You could tell Atsumu ādonāt tell anyone thisā but you knew better. You knew better than to trust him and his big mouth. How could you have any other option when heās never proven that he could listen?
So you would stay quiet. Long enough for you to recover from your lingering headache, long enough for you to process everything that had happened and figure out how to prevent it from happening again.
Long enough to be able to finally relax without worrying who you were going to get a text or call from.
Even with your mind made, the universe seemed to laugh down at you, and make life much more difficult for you than it needed to be.
You nearly cursed out loud when you saw his car in the driveway. He was home early too.
You sighed as you slowly unlocked your front door. The sounds of the TV growing louder as you stepped in.
Atsumu turned back and gave you a look of confusion as you took off your shoes. āHey babe, wasnāt expecting you ātil later.ā
You smiled at him āI could say the same for you.ā you slid your feet into your house slippers āI got a lot of work done today and my boss let me go home early, why are you home?ā
Atsumu shrugged āPractically the same as you. Been makinā a lot of progress at practice lately.ā
You walked in front of where he sat and pressed a gentle kiss to his forehead. even with how your relationship had been going, at least this was something you hadnāt lost.
Atsumu wrapped his arms around your waist and looked up at you, ādid you eat yet?ā
No. I was so busy at work that I kept postponing my break. You thought to yourself bitterly.
āNot yet, I decided that I might as well eat at home if I was leaving early.ā
Atsumu hummed, āI havenāt either. We could order something and then watch some movies? Take advantage of our free time.ā
You smiled down at him, a relaxed movie day with him was exactly what you needed. āI would like that a lot āTsumu.ā
You pulled slightly away and he whined, causing you to laugh softly.
āIāll go take a shower and you can order whatever you want, ok?ā
His pout grew back into the loving smile of his as he nodded, āCan I use your phone? You always have coupons.ā
You nodded and he allowed you to fully pull away. Reaching into your bag you pulled out your phone and handed it to him before making your way to your shared bedroom.
It had been maybe 20 minutes of Atsumu scrolling through the various restaurants (heās very indecisive when it comes to food) before a text from who he recognized as one of your coworkers popped up.
āHey! Hope your feeling better. We managed to get everything done so thereās no need to worry for your next shift.
Also remember to seek medical attention if anything feels off. I know you were cleared but you hit your head pretty badly.ā
He froze as he read the text over and over. He didnāt even realize how much time had passed until you came walking out of your bedroom with a relaxed smile on your face.
āSoo, you decide on a place yet?ā
You were met with an extremely uncharacteristic silence, your brows furrowed as you looked at your boyfriend staring intently at your phone.
āAtsumu?ā
The next thing you knew, Atsumu flipped the screen to you.
āy/n what is this? Medical attention? Did something happen?ā
Your eyes skimmed the message and you froze.
āā¦O-oh there was a bit of an incident at work that happened before I left. No need to worry!ā you tried to wave his hand away and mustered the calmest smile you could.
He looked unconvinced.
āy/nā¦ā
You felt your resolve crumble where you stood. The accusatory look he gave you full of worry, and worse, anger.
You sighed shakily, āever since the promotion Iāve been finding it hard to find time to really relax soā¦ā you looked away, unable to look him in the eye due to your guilt. āI ended up fainting.ā
Atsumu shot up from where he sat, āYou passed out?!ā his hands frantically grabbed at your shoulders, trying to get you to look at him āYou should have told me right away! I could have picked you up! Who knows what would have happened if you fainted again on the subway. I canāt believe you lied, you were just going to keep this from me? Why? Why didnāt you tell me-ā
You pushed yourself out of his grip, āBecause I didnāt want to!ā you huffed, tired of his tirade, āI admit that I was fully content with not telling you.ā
His hands dropped from your shoulders and you almost broke at the sight of his crestfallen face āWhy?ā
You took a deep breath, āI wasā¦scared that you were gonna tell someone.ā
There was a moment of tense silence. āYouā¦you couldāve just asked me to not-ā
āCould I Atsumu? Could I really? Iām not sure if I believe that, especially after you told me that thatās just who you were and that it was unavoidable.ā You paused as you realized you were raising your voice, you looked away in shame. āIām sorry, I didnāt mean to yell. Itās just that sometimes I wish that our business could be our own Atsumu, even for a little bit.ā
You took his silence as a cue to keep explaining yourself.
āI needed time today to finally relax for once and process everything. I canāt do that if I have someone new calling me every five minutes to make sure that Iām okay. I want to be able to worry about my own wellbeing, without having to manage other peopleās. I canāt do that if you tell everyone you know whatās happening in my life.ā
Atsumuās continued silence began to worry you. āAtsumu?ā
Without warning you were pulled into the familiar strong arms that could only belong to your boyfriend.
āIām sorry y/n.ā he mumbled into your hair āI thought I was being supportive. I just love bragging about to to everyone and letting people know how weāre doing. I never really thought about how that would affect you. Iām sorry I made you stress out so much.ā
You smiled into his chest and hugged him back āIām happy that you understand āTsumu. Thereās nothing wrong with gushing about me, I just need you to understand my boundaries.ā
You felt him nod āIām sorry again Iāll do my best.ā
You could already feel yourself relaxing again into his arms āthatās all Iām asking for Atsumu, thank you.ā
You let out a sigh of relief as you held each other. It felt as if a massive weight had been lifted off your shoulders.
The tender moment was interrupted by the sound of a stomach growl. There was a stunned silence before the two of you burst into a fit of laughter.
Atsumu looked down at you with a gaze that filled you with an indescribable warmth, laughter still evident in his face. āHow ābout we order and finally relax for the night? Just the two of us?ā
You smiled fondly up at the man and nodded āJust the two of us.ā
i regret not making this blog a main blog because i canāt reply or write comments but i feel like itās too late š i donāt even know if i could transfer everything over successfully and while i know follower count isnāt everything i donāt want to confuse anyone
A short telling of your mermaid self, and the dragon whoās fascinated by you.
ā å½”fem terms used for reader, Zhongli is a lil silly (and in love)
You don't know how long it's been since the dragon started paying you visits, but everyday he arrives without fail to listen to you sing.
He is quite the large creature, with scales as brown as wood, and eyes as golden as the evening sun. When he arrives, he curls up comfortably by the pond where you dwell. He hums softly as you sing, his eyes closed for most of it. When he's decided it is time for him to depart, he always opens his eyes, fixes you with a watchful gaze for a few moments, and then takes to the skies.
He's quite non-threatening, for a dragon, so you're comfortable drifting to the edge of the water to get a closer look one day. You smile up at him as he opens his eyes and blinks slowly, head slightly tilted in curiosity.
"Hello!" you say amicably. "Thank you for always being my devoted audience member!"
The dragon doesn't respond; maybe he doesn't understand you? You wait a few moments, gazing into his golden eyes, before wondering if you should just continue singing.
Then, out comes the dragon's tongue. He licks your face once, twice, thrice, huffing softly.
"Oh!" You giggle, as he continues to lick you affectionately. "That tickles!"
The dragon huffs again and retracts his tongue. Then, he stretches out and a gleaming golden light illuminates him. You watch on in surprise as his illuminated form grows smaller and smaller...until in the dragon's place is a man a little taller than you are.
Like the dragon, his eyes are golden. His long brown hair flows softly with the breeze, and his beautiful brown silk hanfu shimmers under the light. A pair of gilded horns sits elegantly atop his head, much like a crown.
He is beautiful, but...oh no...he's going to tell you off, isn't he? He doesn't like the songs you're singing today, so he's going to turn you into his dinner! And that's why he'd licked you - he had been taste-testing you!
But he smiles and says gently, "Pardon me, lovely maiden. My name is Zhongli. I felt I had to personally convey how much I adore your singing."
"Oh!" you exclaim, your ears heating up. Is it because of the compliment, or the sheer attractiveness of this man? Perhaps both. "Well - thank you, kind sir. Though I must admit you'll find much better singers in the deep sea. I am but a shallow-water mermaid, and I am as simple as they come."
The man smiles softly, kneeling down. "I beg to differ, my dear."
Now your cheeks heat up - along with the rest of you. This dragon-turned-man seems genuinely interested in your company. "Is that why you transformed into a human? You wanted to talk to me?"
"Yes. I assumed this form would be more...friendly, for lack of a better word. I didn't wish to scare you."
You bite your lip. How foolish was your initial assumption! "I really thought you were going to eat me..."
"Ah," says Zhongli. "I apologise for giving you that impression. In any case, I am not particularly fond of seafood." He sees the look on your face and immediately shakes his head. "Not- not that I consider you as seafood...oh dear...please forgive me." He bows deeply.
"Pffft..."
"Hm?" Zhongli rises from his bow to see you stifling laughter.
"Hehehe...you're silly!" you croon, elbows propped up on the edge of the ground.
The man blinks, at first unsure how to take that. But when he sees your brilliant smile, your eyes crinkled like crescent moons as you laugh at his plight, he cannot help but crack a smile as well. Oddly, his heart skips a beat. "Yes, perhaps I am."