shadows will scream that i am alone || open
Out of all the trials, this one - this specific trial, that bear be damned, had to be the one to ruin everything.
Yuuki, Takahiro, Aito... and the girl everyone knew as Shizukana Miller. In her stead lived Misato Meiji, the polar opposite of the quiet, stoic individual that seemed to inhabit this body prior to her arrival.
It felt... wrong, in a sense. To be inhabiting a shell. To live a lie for so long, and to forget who you truly were. Had she forgotten her purpose? To help, rather than to harm?
Perhaps that didn't matter - it was like Shiori said. She was a monster. Misato, and Shizukana. Both of them were monsters. Shizukana was responsible for everyone ending up in this place, and Misato... Misato was the reason they were an orphan in the first place.
Her whole existence was a curse.
But she'd deal with it. With the rejection, the loathing, the constant question "what if?". All of it. She wasn't sure why, but she just. She felt she had to live now. She had died twice over, in a metaphorical sense. This was a rebirth, an awakening. This is who she was meant to be, how she was meant to act, and so she decided that in this moment, she would live with her scars. They were part of her, clearly, and there was no use running. That would just show that she was a coward. But she, Misato, was not a coward. Shizukana, on the other hand... she was. Despite acting like she was fearless, she was afraid. Of what, she wasn't sure. But they knew that she was.
Lingering in the unmarked room, something felt... familiar here. Like she had been in this specific room before. Maybe Shizukana had been here, but Misato definitely hadn't been in here, so this room was new to her. The IVs, the beds... it didn't just feel familiar. It felt like there was an air of guilt, of secrecy, beyond even what she knew. The room was bothersome, to say the least, so she had to get out of there.
And with her luck, she runs straight into someone.
"Oh, sorry! Didn't see you there. You okay?"
An intro many have gone through, but not Misato. Not for the longest time, at least.