i don't think i'm the hero type.

a person who longs to leave the place where he lives is an unhappy person.

[millsregium]

this world is not meant for you. independent supernatural original character penned by mads, 21+, she/her

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[millsregium]

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It had been an impulsive decision. It shouldn't have been, but it was. He'd gotten an email from college about re-enrolling, and since then, he couldn't stop thinking about it. He started questioning what he was doing with his life, how long he'd let this drag on, and what sort of future he'd have if he let it continue much longer.

All of this was just supposed to be a road trip for him to find himself again and save people along the way. It's been nearly a year now since he started. It was about time he started thinking rationally again and started planning out his life.

College itself was always supposed to be temporary. Going back there felt like taking one step forward and three steps back. He couldn't bring himself to do it. That left MLS, the Major League Soccer. He still had contacts there. He managed to negotiate a spot on the reserve team, with a promise of a spot on the primary team if he worked for it. It won't be easy, but it's a career. Soccer makes sense for him. He could make a career out of it, and he has a future in it. There's no future in hunting monsters.

With everything lined up, that only left talking to the people that he'd gotten to know over the past year. He had a list of people he wanted to see one last time before he headed back to LA, and Emma was at the top of it. She's the one who taught him almost everything he knows about hunting. She's the reason he survived the year. He owes it to her to explain.

He'd called and asked her where she was and booked a hotel room nearby. He wants to do this in private, and he wants to give Emma the option to walk out if she wants. He really doesn't know what kind of reaction to expect from her.

"Thanks for agreeing to meet me. I have something I need to tell you, but first I want you to know that I've really appreciated all your help. I know it must have been annoying answering all of my countless calls and messages." He doesn't know how to make it not sound like a breakup speech. Maybe in some ways it is one. He still wants her to be part of her life, but their friendship is bound to change. "You've really been a lifesaver this past year. I wish I could pay you back for all of it."

[millsregium]

lucas spends the whole mother's day weekend at his mom's house in LA

[pickdead]

            @millsregium    ….   said      [     i can’t do this alone.   ] 

SO,  THE  UNFORTUNATE  THING  FOR  LUCAS  IS,     is  that  once  you  know  mercy  –  she's  kinda  like  a  leech.  the  only  way  to  make  her  go  away  is  to  kill  her  off  (emotionally  or  physically,  either  way)  with  a  flame-ridden  stick  to  the  leg  (too  niche?)  or  something.  instead  of  giving  him  a  spiel  –  because  mercy  doesn't  give  a  fuck  or  two  about  being  wise  or  whatever,  that's  for  people  who  have  more  to  lose  than  she  does  -  she  looks  at  him.  and  blinks.  then  looks  again,  this  time,  with  a  slight,  hello??  expression.  annoyance  in  the  mixture.  lucas.  please  think  about  who  you  are  talking  to  –  loyal  as  a  dog,  stubborn  as  a  mule,  annoying  as  a  teenager.  “you  think  i'd  let  you  go  through  this  bullshit  alone?”

[millsregium]

he rolls his eyes at her expression. okay, he was dumb to think mercy would ever let him go through it on his own. it feels nice to hear her say it, even if she does it in her own annoyed way. it reassures him that they're on the same page in their friendship. he's too used to one-sided friendships. it's refreshing to spend time with her. he won't let his wallet out of his sight around her, but he doesn't feel like he has to worry about being used or left. "i didn't want to assume." he'll stop underestimating her. it's nice to know he's not alone. "you know i'm here for you too, right? whatever you need, day or night, i'll be there." he means it too. he'll drop everything if she calls.

[millsregium]

cont. from here | @hcrv3lles

he should've been there. he'll make sure he is next time. even a beginner hunter has to be better than no backup. "i have a med kit in the back of the car. i'll wait until we're further away, and then i'm pulling over and patching you up." he's not leaving any room for a discussion. this is what's going to happen. lucas grabs his jacket from backseat. he'll just buy a new one. it should be clean enough. "press this against the wound and let me know if it gets any worse." he doesn't have any formal medical training, but being the son of two doctors, he has picked up a thing or two.

[millsregium]

i made a verse where lucas rejoins his old life and starts playing pro soccer again. like this if you want a starter within it

[millsregium]

I had to double check that it makes sense for lucas family to be as rich as they are and yeah we're good. his mom is a pediatric surgeon and his dad an oncologist and together they'd average over a million USD per year

[yourwuond]

                         ⤷     @millsregium  said:   it's  unbecoming  to  snitch. 

RIIIIIIIIIIIGHT.      maashous  can't  quite  cover  up  the  snort,  because  lucas  sounds  so  formal  when  he  says  it  like  that.  like  one  of  his  previous  foster  parents  used  to  chastise  him  for:  sit  up  straight,  don't  talk  back,  don't  sound  so  idiotic  when  you  speak.  “unbecoming?”  there's  a  chuckle  as  he  says  it  aloud  now;  it  sounds  just  as  stupid  as  it  was  hearing  it.  “you  come  from  the  1950's  or  are  you  practicing  SAT  words  for  fun?”  it's  not  even  close,  but  maashous  dropped  out  –  so  what  does  he  know? 

[millsregium]

okay, maashous is right, that came out way too prim and proper, even for him. "nah." he shrugs. "i'm a rich kid i have to act all stuck-up every now and then or i'll lose my trust fund." he whispers the last two words, god forbid he speaks it into existence. lucas clutches his chest at the mere thought.

[yourwuond]

                     ⤷      @millsregium asked:     “that  version  of  me  is  gone.”

HE  BRISTLES,      just  a  little  —  chest  tightening in an eagle scout knot  and  standing  up  even  straighter  and  damn  if  the  lucas  doesn't  know  how  to  strike  a  cleaver  through  his  heart  sometimes.  maashous  wonders  if  he'd  ever  been  as  closed  off  like  that.  couldn't  imagine  it,  though  sometimes  the  thought  of  it  creeps  into  his  subconscious  like  mold.  “well,  i  wouldn't  say  gone,”  because  that  version  wouldn't  have  anywhere  to  go  besides  swallowed  whole  by  the  black-hole  of  lucas'  …  new  [  ?  ] version.  “that  makes  it  sound  a  little  ..  harsh.”  sways  on  his  feet,  thinking.  maashous  is  always  thinking.  sometimes  for  terribly  long  times  –  but  this  seems  like  something  he  needs  to  spit  out,  like,  tomorrow,  or  akin  to  a  rotten  —  nevermind.  “i  don't  think  killing  your  past  self  off  is  going  to  do  you  any  good.”  knows  from  experience. 

[millsregium]

he knows maashous means well, but lucas is creating necessary distance between the new him and the old him. the old him was neatly placed in a box and stored away, practically dead unless found and reopened. he can't keep up with the old him. it's too much. the old him couldn't handle the things the new him has to face. "the old version of me doesn't serve a purpose anymore." the old him doesn't spark joy, and he's learned from the konmari method to rid his life of anything that doesn't. maybe it's a little harsh to say that version of him is dead, not to mention emo. "he's permanently locked away. is that better?"

[milkmemes]

Don't ask me how I slept. I didn't.

[millsregium]

all the werewolf content on my dash is forcing me to rewatch wolf.pack

[millsregium]

lucas tends to make up tiny lies to avoid talking about sad stuff. why talk about the complex relationship he has with his father when he can lie and say he was named after luke sk.ywalker and that they always watched the movies together growing up? why not just lie whenever the truth is hard to stomach?

[millsregium]

to further touch on this: lucas is very open and honest about everything that has to do with his new life. he doesn't hide how he struggles with the supernatural and hunting and the secrecy. it's everything that includes his past life that he keeps to himself and will make up lies to cover up. he hasn't made up his mind on if he wants to go back to his old life so he wants to avoid jeopardizing it. every now and then he will let some people in and share parts of himself that relates to his past life, but it's not often

[millsregium]

lucas tends to make up tiny lies to avoid talking about sad stuff. why talk about the complex relationship he has with his father when he can lie and say he was named after luke sk.ywalker and that they always watched the movies together growing up? why not just lie whenever the truth is hard to stomach?

[fairy-tail-babes]

Headcanon Game - A to Z (NSFW)

Hey guys! I thought I’d so something fun this weekend, so I did my best to sexualize the alphabet and turn it into a headcanon game!

So here’s how it works. You send me a character (or a few), and the corresponding letters that you want me to answer for them!

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex) B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s) C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person) D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs) E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?) F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual) G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc) H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.) I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)  J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon) K = Kink (One or more of their kinks) L = Location (Favourite places to do the do) M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going) N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs) O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc) P = Pace (Are they fats and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.) Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.) R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.) S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…) T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?) U = Unfair (how much they like to tease) V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make) W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice) X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words) Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?) Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

I’ll have this running all weekend, so feel free to drop by!

[millsregium]

since it's sunday, lucas' top 3 from the bdsm test are: submissive, vanilla, and experimentalist

[rose-hip-november]

Joseph Zada as Johnny Sinclair Dennis WE WERE LIARS (2025) 1.07 - Everybody Knows That The Captain Lied

[millsregium]

i need to make some more but please feel free to check out my open starters