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i like pinball comics and mecha anime i hate doctors and mario chronically tired chronically lonely chronically underead aspiring artist schitzophrenic but not in the fun way detransitioner????

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my compulsion towards art is going to fucking kill me man

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"why would you do this to her"

a more simplistic face

hopefully just as expressive in her vacancy

i dont know why i hurt her

it was after everything else

i think it just felt too hollow and unreal without the pain

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"relaxation"

finally some good fucking sleep

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"miku"

i draw alota abstract turquoise faces

some of them are more recognizably her than others

some of them speak

tho thats far rarer

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"precarious"

another part of my ongoing attempt to turn my sexual trauma into some kinda appeal for strangers "into that sort of thing"

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"If only i wasnt able to see you"

the pose is meant to communicate trying to pull the arm back in

as a representation of the anxieties created by the old paternal adage "dont look at me like that"

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i drew raven from teen titans

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"command center"

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i missed a vc with my gf

shes at college and we already get so little time together and i missed it because i couldnt stop crying and didnt want her to hear for fear of lossing her

im so fucking pathetic i hate it

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i got lost again

its scary when i dont have my handler

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"untitled"

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"judgement"

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im being carried away

maybe its the current

maybe i was pushed

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based on a very real story

i dont like to think about high school

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sone stratchy dark mood pieces i did to play around with style

you might need to turn your brightness up