“If it’s nothing I wouldn’t approve of than why are you avoiding telling me what it is?” She had no right to judge. She couldn’t press too much into this. With all the secrets she was keeping from him... What right did she have to say anything at all? “We both need bigger paychecks Dante, but that doesn’t mean you should put yourself in any potential danger to get it. I’ll figure it out, I’ll pick up another job if I need to.” Not another job, more clients. There was always room to squeeze in another appointment or two.
There was something about the way that she was holding his hand that made her feel conflicted. She loved him, the other thing that came even slightly close to how much she loved him was her love for her daughter. Ellie would never be topped by anything, but her love for her child was different than her love for Dante. She wanted the conflict too go away, never in her life has she excepted to feel anything but happy around Dante, lately she couldn’t even remember the old feelings. Standing beside Dante used to feel like coming home, now it felt like being tired and five thousand miles away from home. “I was just leaving work, I chatted with someone for a while, but I really just wanted to get home. I was worried about Ellie and you, she told me you called her. She was really worried about you, she wanted to stay up until you got home but I wasn’t sure when that would be and you hadn’t contacted me, so...” She shrugged a little, pulling her knees to her chest. She wanted to lean against him, to curl into his side in a way that she was used to, familiar with, but instead she just rested her chin on her knees.Â