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artcmisz:

artie paused in his speech when their teacher bid them goodbye. when she left the room, he burst into his own set of giggles. “oh yeah, she absolutely adores you,” he joked as he slung his arm through the strap of his mat and then followed her out the door. artie mulled over mina’s suggestion for coffee for a moment. he wasn’t exactly uncomfortable around her – he had known this girl practically his entire life and while he did feel the occassional sting of hurt when he thought about everything that had transpired between them, he didn’t exactly feel weird. or maybe he did and he didn’t know how to put it into the right words. either way, he could handle some coffee with mina. “coffee sounds good. you’re buying,” he grinned, trying to remain light-hearted. it stung to see how unsure and hesitant she was with him. it was good in a way that she hadn’t forgotten how lucky she was that he was willing to forgive her, but it also hung over them like an unaddressed rain cloud.

mina’s smile widened as artie accepted her suggestion, and felt the anxiety lessen somewhat. “great,” she exclaimed, and tugged at his sleeve to get him to follow. “and of course i’m buying, it was my suggestion.” there was a lot she wanted to talk about, but mostly she wanted them to get some sort of normalcy back in their every day life. it would take time, but mina was willing to work for it, and she felt like she could without crumbling like she would’ve done in the past. if anyone had pushed back even the slightest mina would’ve completely fallen apart. slightest criticism would’ve made her unable to sleep and it would’ve been added to a long list of things she would avoid to do again. a small, read; huge, part of her was surprised she wasn’t deep into the depressive state she had been in so many times before. maybe it was because she had finally started to get help, and had people around her that genuinely wanted her to succeed. maybe it was because she knew artie was truly good for her and nothing would hurt as much as losing him permanently. while trying to ease up the tension in her own body, mina grinned widely as she continued to talk. “i can already tell this will be hell tomorrow. this is what i get for being healthy. if i can’t move will you come save me?”

#[ artemis ]#[ INT. — don’t ask why it has to be you. ]

artcmisz:

it was weird – the little routine that the two were trying to build back up. for most of his life, artie had never had to think twice about mina being at his side. it was almost a given. she was family – even with all her problems and wacky quirks, she was something that he had trusted implicitly. and then, everything with rowan happened. the thought still twisted something awful in his gut. it was a strange situation all together – he still cared very much for rowan (although each passing day made their breakup more manageable) but it wasn’t so much that that had hurt him so deeply. it was the utter lack of regard for how something like the two of them hooking up would effect him, especially mina. never in a million years would he have imagined that it was possible for her to hurt him like that. that was probably the hardest thing to wrap his mind around. the fact that she listened to his struggles in trying to get over rowan and thought it made perfect sense to hookup with the boy not once but twice. (he didn’t dare ask if it was even more than that.) now, after spending some time on his own without either of them, he just wanted to find some sense of normalcy. he wanted to forgive them, both of them, even if it wasn’t easy.

so, that was how he found himself in yoga class of all things with mina. it was the most ridiculous experience mostly because she couldn’t stop giggling. it made it hard for even artie to keep a straight face. as they began gathering up their things, he smacked her gently with his rolled up mat. “you’re god damn awful, mina. you call that keeping the giggling to a minimum? we’ll be lucky if the teacher let’s us come back next glass,” he said, unable to keep the laughter out of his voice. he was being completely serious but he couldn’t help but find the humor in it all.

mina tried half-heartedly to dodge his mat, but it hit her anyway. “i tried my hardest,“ mina whined in what she hoped was a cute and adorable way. “i’ve just never been good with the spiritual stuff, but i think it was pretty okay. the teacher didn’t make it into a big thing or whatever. besides, i’m pretty sure she loved me.” as if on cue, the teacher bid them a tense farewell accompanied with a glare pointedly directed at her. with a wide smile she waved her goodbyes and left the building with artie next to her. when they got outside mina tugged at the strap of her bag, unsure of what would happen next. their relationship was still fragile after all that had happened and while mina was grateful that artie even considered forgiving her, she was walking on egg shells around him. the last time she had felt this unsure of what her relationship with artie was she had been eight years old and still learning basic english. and the fact that she was to blame for the hurt and betrayal artie felt was something she’d never forgive herself for.

“do you want to grab some coffee, do regain our energy?” mina asked softly, and tried not to put too much hope into it. except for the family dinner, which had been more of an interrogation, they hadn’t spent more than a few hours together. she wanted artie to feel as comfortable as possible and if parting ways now was what he wanted she would have to be okay with that. “we don’t even have to stay we could just grab one to go?”

#[ INT. — don’t ask why it has to be you. ]#[ artemis ]

therapy was always exhausting. it was always going to be exhausting. but the past two sessions mina had finally felt a sliver of hope at the end of the hour. it wasn’t hard to open up anymore, even though there still were a few key pieces she kept close to heart. the realisation that she hadn’t told artie yet hit her, and she made a mental note to find a time and place to tell him. one that wasn’t in the last ten minutes of their first yoga session. mina had picked artie up right after she left therapy and they had made their way to the small gym to squeeze into tight lycra pants and get their stretch on. at first mina had found it difficult to focus, holding back giggles as she did one pose after the other while listening to the lady in the front telling them to open themselves up and feel their inner peace spread calm throughout their bodies. but after a while she had gotten the hang of it and had let the calm, composed breathing calm her down and focus.

“it wasn’t half bad,” she said when they’d rolled up their mats and were on their way out. “i only think i fell over twice and i kept the giggling to a minimum.” [ @artcmisz. ]