I KNOW YOU'D KISS ME IF YOU COULD STAND THE TASTE OF BLOOD
Smut and overall mina being mina
"Wilhemina ? Mina baby ? Babe are you in there ?"
There was no response from behind the door you were gently knocking on. You had met wilhemina venable over a year ago, but it was only the first few times she let you stay at her house for more than a few nights, you had been dating for a couple weeks, and she had agreed to being your 'girlfriend' -despite saying it was a childish thing to say and how it felt mostly ridiculous to agree verbally- a week before now.
"Wilhemina you've been in here for awhile now and I'm getting worried...just..are you safe ?" After a shirt moment of silence you heard her speak.
"Of course I am y/n. How could I not be in my own bathroom ?! Now. Do you even have a sense of privacy ?"
"Lost of reasons actually..I'm sorry I was just concerned about you, join me when you're done sweetie"
You went back to bed and laid in a sexy manner over the sheets, you had gotten into a black bra with leather straps, the outfit was really working and you looked dominant and hot. You waited patiently for her to come out of the bathroom and surprise her with this little gift. You wanted to thank her for getting out of her comfort zone, letting her have you like she did the first few times you'd made love
"..y/n...i..i don't...'know' how to do this"
"That's okay baby just trust me I'll show you how"
You gently laid her on her back, all soft against the mattress, she hadn't taken off her clothes, but slowly you unfastened her nightgown, giving her hungry eyes while doing so. She looked at you a little scared, tying to cover the newly discovered skin.
You took her hands and kissed them
"None of that...you are beautiful, inside and out"
You had continued your trip to the valley of her breasts, down her sternum, bit and nibbled her body eliciting whimpers from her, startling herself slightly unaware that these sounds were able to come out of her, and shamefully biting her lip.
"None of that darling, absolutely none of that...let me hear your pretty sounds baby"
She gasped when you lifted at the fabric to make it lift above her breasts, and finally kiss the skin directly. She moaned heavily when you took her nipples in your mouth.
"OH god...y/n..i didn't know this could feel good"
"When it's done rightfully it does"
"No o.. one's ever.. you..know"
"I remembered don't worry, you've got nothing to be ashamed of"
You continued to go further down and she relaxed against you with your praises and sweet words.
You had only ever caressed her over clothes before, spooned her while you both went to bed, gently kissed down the column of her neck, but never quite reaching further the skin bellow her bellybutton or getting very intense.
"Well, well, well, someone's got quite dressed up for me"
"..I..I...well I just guessed if something was bound to happen.... it would tonight" she replied blushing. You pulled away to look into her eyes
"Hey...nothing has to happen tonight...we can just...cuddle like we usually do"
"Really ?" You climbed off of her to cradle her into your arms.
"Baby...I don't ever want you to feel like you're bound to do anything like that with me... I just guessed it was the good timing, we've been together for long enough to be more trustful...did you not want that.. to happen ?"
"Oh no...no..I did, it's just, I'm anxious... you are..th..my first"
"Honey... It's okay, I'm a little anxious myself, but eventually sex, making love is about letting go, and being your first, is an honor, but it's not as big of a deal as people make it out to be"
"But... it's still important"
"Yes...but only if you make it out to be"
"I'm just scared it'll hurt"
"What would hurt honey ?"
"Well...you know.. the penetration..."
You were slightly straddled by her reply, pulling away from her little you kissed her cheek before explaining back
"Oh mina.. none of that is supposed to hurt.. and it's also something that doesn't need to happen"
"But then ? That's not Sex isn't it ?"
"It is..just because society convinces you that penetration is the needed component of having sex it doesn't mean it's true...there are tons of people who make love without it"
"Mmm" you nodded in the silence.
After a short time you felt Wilhemina press her lips to your neck, and eventually starting to kiss her path over your pulse, her fingers starting to wonder around your hips, sides and funding the back of your head, she pressed you against her and took you in for a a kiss, that rapidly grew to her beginning to make out with you and rolling on top of you
"Mmfhey...mina..mwait..i thought you mm didn't...want to ?"
"Oh...believe me I do..."
She rolled her hips against yours and you could almost feel the heat from between her legs, your hands found her waist and you gripped the skin making her moan.
Before you rolled her onto her back,
"Well I'll be very happy to oblige then"
Your hands wondered around her body, groping her underneath her clothes, rolling her nipple between two fingers, making her hips buck involuntarily. Her body felt electric, she had never felt anything so intense. You had never expected her to be so vocal, but she made sounds you ever even expected to ever hear, let alone out of her mouth. You looked down where her shorts were, and asked her if you could take them off.
"..y/n.. I need to say, It's embarrassing, but..i don't know...if I've had my period, spotting, because I...well.."
"Well that's not anything I haven't seen or been through, there's no shame to have, do you want to check it in the bathroom ? Or I can ?"
"I don't think it's much... it's really weird I'm planning to ask my doctor, because it only happens when...well when...I'm with you...?,"
You finally put the pieces together and let out a giggle, making her brows push up in defense, she was about to push you off of her thinking you were mocking her but you found her hands before she could and kissed her knuckles.
"Oh..no baby...I'm not laughing at you mina, it's just.. have you ever been aroused ?"
".. I'm not sure...i don't know what it feels like...oh god I should leave...I'm making a fool out of myself."
"You're not sweetie I promise"
"Oh..okay" you pulled away but sat on your heals so she didn't feel threatened but she did have you close..
"Sweetheart ? What wrong"
"Nothing." She sat up slowly and
You suddenly felt her start drifting away, so you took her face between your hands.
"Baby ..look at me...no look at me... I'm not going to hurt you.. it's okay to let you be yourself in front of me"
"And you think I'll trust you to your word ?. Just like that. I barely know you y/n. For all I know you could just be trying to get into my pants, then leave like the fool you are"
"A fool for what ? Wanting you ? Wanting to be with you ? Liking you ?"
"Don't be like that, you know this was going to go like this"
"Why are you pushing me away ? Is it the sex ? I told you I don't need it.. I just wanna hold you close and make you feel good, of that means no sex than damn it ! I'll be the virgin Mary for 30 years but...please don't push me away like that"
"I am well aware that there are things to be expected from a relationship. I am not stupid y/n, as your girlfriend it's something I owe you, to give you pleasure like that"
You caressed her cheek and she made to bury her head in your neck but stopped herself
"..Mina..this isn't...oh god..you are not an object... A tool for someone's pleasure. It's something you have to wanna give..or receive. It's...i can't believe I'm saying this...sex isn't a requirement someone can make from you. Babe...you don't owe me any part of your body ever ..it has to be something you choose to give to me.. when you want to, not because of some obligation"
"Don't be silly y/n this isn't how any of this works."
"This is how anything should work"
"It is, but it's not the problem here isn't it ?"
There was a moment of silence before she finally leaned into your neck nuzzling the skin there.
"You're making me soft and it's scary"
"..you know it's okay to be soft sometimes"
"I'm starting to..but it's out of my comfort zone"
"Oh...honey .. I'm so proud of you"
"I don't want you to wake up tomorrow and realize how ridiculous I am, or se me as weak"
"I would never...honey you are the strongest person I know, just because you can't be strong all the time for no reason it doesn't mean your weak."
".. I'm beginning to know that"
You held her neck and caressed the soft hair on her neck.
"I just...I'm sorry I ruined it... I realized how easy it would've been for you to hurt me when you laughed...and it...I."
"Hey....hey no...you didn't ruin anything, and I would never laugh at you darling"
You kissed her mouth again, pressing your body close to hers, claiming your adoration for this woman, after a while she pulled you on top of her again, grinding herself on your thigh subconsciously
"Baby...as much as this is great for me are you sure you wanna keep going ?"
You pulled away and She nodded your face between her hands
"Yes...please..it's just..you know ..my little problem is back.. I just don't understand why it's always random..."
You decided it was better to just show her it was normal, so you put your hand inside her shorts and cupped her, finding what you already knew of, Wilhemina venable laying beneath you wet as you would have never guessed. She gasped at the contact, her hand gripping your wrist and pushing her hips against it in search of more friction.
"Oh god...what..I...sorry I'm...I'm dirty"
You pulled your fingers out of her clothes and showed her her own juices dropping from them.
"Mina...this..isn't anything dirty" you said as you licked and sucked your fingers clean
"You never answered my question, have you ever really been aroused before ,?"
"Well, when women are sexually aroused they usually produce something to lubricate their sex, this is called 'being wet', it's a reaction to being turned on"
" ..wait...so what does that mean ?"
"That you are so wet right now it's almost honoring"
"Don't apologize for that, it's hot, and at last i know I'm not doing to bad"
She giggled and pushed your head back down to her breasts and started to take off her own shorts.
Your fingers started playing with her as your mouth attached to her nipples, making her moan and buck against you, you continued to work her up until she came, moaning loudly and shaking on the mattress you were a little worried she'd get hurt, when she came down from her high you went behind her legs to clean her up, she looked down confused.
"I'm just finishing my job darling"
"What are you going to do down there ? You can use your fingers from here too ?"
"Oh I'm not going to use my fingers darling"
You pointed at your mouth before saying "this darling"
"Oh...I.. isn't it dirty ? And something people don't enjoy doing ?.."
"Not as a woman, baby ... I would love to taste you but if you're uncomfortable I won't you know"
"I'm not I'm just..what if you don't like how I taste ?"
"Your pussy is going to taste like a pussy...I'm not expecting cherry flavored icing cake"
"Also I tasted you off of my fingers before and you have nothing to be anxious about"
You kissed her belly silently asking for permission, when she pushed her pelvis towards your face and wined on the bed as your fingers grazed her you parted her folds and dived in. Your hands playing with her nipples as you were Licking her up and down and in circles to figure out which one she liked best, her body moving in pleasure as your tongue worked wonders on her, she groaned and held your hair with her nails digging in your scalped in hopes to ground herself, when she came it was quieter this time, just letting out a series of strangled moans and crying out your name.
When she came down from her high you pulled back a little your fingers fooling around and caressing her lips, up her clit and her other hand parting her legs a little, Digits grazing her thighs, you asked her if she was okay with your fingers going inside her and she agreed in between pleases of pleasure, you rubbed her faster to get her closer to cumming as your other hand tried to find it's way inside her, barely able to get past the tip of it. After making small to no progress
You figured it would just be painful if you tried any further and focused back on her little bundle of nerves
"Baby...you look so pretty laying like this for me... I bet you want to cum huh ?"
The praise and sudden suction of your lips on her brought her to the edge again and she came one last time her legs trembling at the side of you. You laid back next to her, cleaning your hands before running your fingers on her stomach, waiting for her to catch her breath and come back to you.
"..is it over ? You don't need me to make you feel good ?"
"Well it's getting late, and no I don't 'need' you to do that, I had plenty of fun watching you cum three times for me"
She blushed and hid in your neck.
"No need to get all shy darling"
She nuzzled you and breathed in your sent, immediately relaxing even more.
"Y/n You didn't finger me even though I told you it was okay why baby ?"
"Well, I tried but somehow I couldn't get past one knuckle, and I didn't think it was that important since you had your fun without it anyway, but maybe we'll have to dig into why I couldn't tonight one day ?"
".sure thing hhha" she yawned before finishing her sentence and you told her it was time to fall asleep.
That was one of the most special nights of your relationship, limbs laced together as one, walls down and so utterly beautiful without them.
You were still laying on your sides as your mind came to wonder at what was taking so long ? So you got off the bed quietly and knocked a little on the door.
"Mina baby ? Are you sure you're okay ?"
There was a moment of silence to long for your liking so before mina could even answer she heard.
"Baby I'm worried, I'm going to come in okay ?" You pried the door slightly open before she could answer
"Hone...HEY ! No. Stop that ba..." You replied as you avoided the hard soaps she threw at you in fury.
"Can't we talk like adults ?! Stop throwing shit at me right now !"
She eventually ran out of things to trow and you went inside, you found her still dressed sitting on the side of the bathtub a broken hanger in her hand.
"Is this a diy homemade abortion ? You know women can get it done by a doctor ?"
"If you came here to mock me you might as well leave. And what are you doing in this accoutrement ? Are you planning to prostitute yourself tonight ?"
"Okay wow.. first of all rude. Second of all I came here because I was worried you've been in here for almost two hours"
"I'm not pitying you mina god-damnit !"
She flinched at your outburst and looked down.
"Hey..sorry it just upsets me when you talk like that...I'm not pitying you darling...I swear.. I just want you not be in pain or discomfort"
"Because it's called empathy"
"Don't act like I'm not capable of feeling that"
"Are you ? Because sometimes I genuinely wonder sometimes ! Like when you insult everyone and decide to be nice to me like a fucking whethercock, or you SUDDENLY become a bitch right after we have sex"
"I... I'm..sorry..I just.. it's..." She burst into tears and you immediately regretted the words that fell from your mouth, you went to her as she sank down her legs to cradle herself on the floor.
"I know...I'm sorry...I wasn't thinking, I know why you do tha...no please don't cry baby"
"I...know..I'm ..not..p..perfect...I...I just ..."
"Shhhh baby...it's okay...breathe with me"
You put her hand on your chest.
"... I can't believe I'm letting you see me like that.. I'm making such a fool of myself" she made to stand but you stopped her midway and pulled her on your lap.
"What. !? Are you doing let me stand.."
"No.. you're staying right here, just like I am. It's okay you're not making 'a fool out of yourself' you're human, we freak out sometimes and it's okay... Now what happened ? What were you doing here before I arrived."
"People don't get upset over nothing without having bubbled up everything, what happened ?"
"It's not if it upsets you"
"I can't take of my clothes by myself. I usually have a metal disposal that i use but I broke it a few days ago and was going to order one but they don't make them anymore"
"Oh...Mina...that's nothing stupid...why didn't you ask me ?"
"You're not going to help me dress and undress everyday"
"Don't be silly. You're not some sort of homeaid. Besides I would never let you do that for me"
"If it doesn't bother me ?"
"I don't care, I'm not going to be some incapacitated cripple"
"Dont talk like that about yourself, needing help isn't necessarily a bad thing. Everyone does sometimes. Your disability doesn't make you weak Wilhemina, it's your greatest strength"
".. I don't believe that"
"It doesn't matter I do anyway, until you can. Now as for tonight you're going to let me take these off because it's getting late and you're not sleeping in that" you lifted her to her feet and followed her, before you took of her skirt and undergarments, hands resting on her hips and soothing the skin.
"Wait ..you don't have to..."
"Shh wait here I'll get you some panties and a nightgown" you said as you pressed a kiss on her cheek to assure her you were not leaving her side. You came back and asked
"Were you going to take a shower today ?"
She nodded and you found her a wet cloth
"Can I wash you too ?" Everything in her was screaming to get away from you, from your kindness, from your affection, but she saw the admiration in your eyes and took a leap of faith, decided to trust you.
You took the cloth and gently wiped her legs and thighs before going between her legs, she shook a little because she was sensitive but when you were done you rinsed it again, and placed your hands on her shoulders, gently tapped your fingers on her zipped dress and dragged the zipper down before the fabric pealing off of her.
"Are you cold ? You're shivering"
Her top pooled around her ankle, and you took her hands to get her out of it.
You found her eyes on her mirror, a bit anxious so you pulled her hair out of her ponytail, watching it cascading down her neck. You moved it out of the way, kissed her skin, up and down her throat, shoulders and back, dragging your lips across her spine, arms holding her tight as you saw her fight her own tears, her chin trembled and you took her jaw in your hand, caressed her lips and cheek before she sobbed in your arms,
"You're beautiful, so so beautiful my dear"
Her body shook before you got her ready fo bed. Taking her hands and leading her under the covers, rubbing your hands against her thigh as she cuddle you.
"You didn't tell me why you were wearing that"
"Because I wanted to surprise you tonight"
You kissed her neck and squeezed her hips.
"But it's okay darling I'll surprise you another day...I bet you'll have a wonderful time"
