What are you crying for?

Chee. Bulimic, depressed, Cyclothymic and at time suicidal. This is Not a safe place, follow at your own risk. This is where I post anything related to my eating problem/my negative feelings. | kik: okmineok | CW : 141.24lbs/64.2kg...

[obliterated-dreams]

It was not a home, it was just a house with a family, full of broken promises and dreams, who live through this misery called life.

(via obliterated-dreams)

[br-o-ken-poetry]

Sometimes it makes you angry - you want to scream into a pillow until you’ve lost your voice, break things and cry. Sometimes it makes you exhausted. You want to sit on your bed and forget the world exists.

broken thoughts (via br-o-ken-poetry)

[depression-stays-but-you-dont]

[br-o-ken-poetry]

You begin to wonder if you are the toxic one. Not them - your parents. Not them - the people from school. Not them - your horrible friendships, not your dreadful past, not any of the things you blame, deep down. You begin to wonder if it’s you. If it’s always been you. Maybe some of us truly are destructive to everything we touch.

broken thoughts (via br-o-ken-poetry)

[leohearts]

I’m trying. I’m trying really hard but I can’t pretend it doesn’t hurt when it really does.

Leohearts (via leohearts)

[silently-screaming-insidee]

I deserve all the pain i give myself.

[strangersinadarkparadise]

[thegoodvybe]

[cutter-girl]

I swear but is so hard

[mine-ok]

I don't knw whats wrong with me

It's back The cycle if depression Everything is fine? Yet I cry What's wrong with me...

[mine-ok]

No update

I can't remember my password and my old email's password thats why Ive been offline

[mine-ok]

A little help..?

Hello. As I previously mentioned I gained a lot of weight. I am trying to lose "fat" weight but I really want to lose it in a healthy manner. If anyone has a tip to offer, can you let me know please? I really do not want to relapse :(

[mine-ok]

I!gained!a!lot!of!weight!and!I!am!freaking!out!

[mine-ok]

I gained a lot of weight and now I am 154lbs / 70kg... :(

[mine-ok]

I’m sorry… For talking too much and getting sad a lot… I’m sorry… For being like this and not sure how to fix myself… I’m sorry… For crying a lot and not being able to stop the tears from falling… I’m sorry… I’m really sorry…

Me

[mine-ok]

August 7, 2016

I lost my feelings few days ago, thankfully I got it back in less than two weeks I... don't feel to good right now? My body hurts and I barfed when I ate yesterday, I did not stick my finger down my throat or took any pills (except the medicine was prescribed for me) It's been almost 8 years now since this all started I think I am disliking my body even more..? I am trying not to go back into the cycle or purge in any form though I want to lose weight... but.. I don't wsnt to be constantly controlled by numbers again? I'm not sure what to do? I wish I can make peace with myself... People keep telling me I am not a bad person but... I keep thinking otherwise? Why can't I see what they see....? Why am I like this??? I'm scared... What do I do if others start seeing me how I see myself ...??? What do I do if those that I care about and say that they care about me too one day just .. leave ? Because.. I am so .. noisy and... so... ? Mean?? Bad?? Am I ?????? I ... I don't know anymore? Who am I?

[elizejski-cien]