It's Me...i Think... 🥀

Last Attempt: 22 February 2019🥀Days Since Last Cut: 0🥀 Trigger Warning ⚠️

[mini360foot]

[mini360foot]

If I could go back I’d change everything

[mini360foot]

It always happens and I can’t take it anymore

[mini360foot]

Getting close is dangerous...

[mini360foot]

So, a guy at my university residence committed suicide today... I didn’t know him but I knew of him. I feel so selfish for feeling upset. I didn’t know him. Do I have the right to even be sad?

[mini360foot]

One day someone who knows me will find this account and I’ll be back in hospital and I don’t even know if I’m upset by that thought?

[mini360foot]

I’m trying...

Does that count for anything...?

[mini360foot]

Darling, don’t you understand I care way more about you than you’ll ever care about me and that kills me ever so slowly

[mini360foot]

My eyes light up when I see you... just for your face to remain cold and unhappy...

[mini360foot]

The world is cruel and everyone is out for themselves... you’re not important to anyone... sorry to break it to you...

[mini360foot]

One day I’ll have the courage and when that day comes the world will finally hear my voice

[bipolarblueberries]

By all means, talk and raise awareness about depression. But please mention:

•Not showering or brushing your teeth for two weeks •Getting sick from a vitamin D deficiency because you haven’t been outside in a solid month •Getting lightheaded when you stand up from bed because you’ve been laying down for days •The body pains •Shampoo not bubbling because this is the first time you washed your hair in three weeks •Over stimulation •Pity from a distance •'Get over yourself, there’s people *in Africa starving, with cancer, homeless, living in poverty, dying, ect.’ •Massive weight gain •Massive weight loss •Both •Your body literally changing how it looks and deposits fat based on frequent weight gain and loss •Hair loss •Zero self esteem •Breaking out in acne so bad you can’t put your head on a pillow from pain •Being too depressed to commit suicide •Self imposed isolation •Stomach cramps •Nausea •Vomiting •'You’re so dramatic, it can’t be that bad’

If you don’t, I’m not saying you’re not raising awareness, but you definitely need to reevaluate your platform

[mini360foot]

If they can’t respect the wishes you have, then how will they respect the friendship

[mini360foot]

You watched me leave... that’s when I knew I didn’t deserve the happiness you bought...

[mini360foot]

That’s what people do... they leave...

[mini360foot]

I’m crumbling and you just stood back and watch the pieces disintegrate

[taojat-ornis-deactivated2019100]

Everyone who reblogs this before February 14th, 2019 will get a rose in their inbox

[taojat-ornis-deactivated2019100]

I’m not giving myself a rose, I just want mpre ppl to see this and have a chance to get flower’d