summary: diluc explains everything and you become lesbian good friends with kokomi.
warnings: angst, no comfort, cheating, diluc lowkey gaslighting reader, extremly not like diluc someone help pls, my bad writing, NOT PROOFREAD
"then what is it diluc? if it's not what i think, then what is it?" diluc stays silent, eyes full of regret. you scoff and turn to leave, but diluc holds you back by your wrist. you stop. for a moment, both of you are silent, diluc holding your wrist. it feels as if time had stopped. but you need it to keep moving. by then, you had made up your mind. it was no use clinging onto your ex-lover. you would only feel shame. you yank your wrist away from his grip and turn back to him. "i will give you half an hour to explain everything to me. if not, i'm leaving, diluc. i am giving you a chance, so please, accept it." you stare into his red eyes. finally, with an exasperated sigh, he whispers, "ok. i'll explain."
"between me and donna...it was..it was just supposed to be a one time thing(yes, in THAT way.). i was just...lonely, i suppose, and i didn't want to spend the night all by myself. so..i guessed i just called donna to come over since she was nearby.." you held back your tears and looked at him straight in the eyes. "so you admit to having an affair, diluc?" diluc's eyes widen, "what, no!? well, i mean, yes, but..i didn't mean to ok? it's just that i couldn't control myself, you had been on a business trip that week. i really needed someone by my side." you scoff. "diluc, that business trip was 3 months ago. you have been having an affair with donna for 3 months?" diluc slowly nods.
"so, what happened that night? when you were dancing toghether in the tavern?" diluc sighs. "nothing really. i just wanted a dance with someone, since you were never really there. i'm not saying you're a bad partner, it's just that, well, i only did it for my mentality. i want to be a good partner for you and love you, and i can't be a good partner if my mental health isn't good, right?" diluc tries to take your hand, but you pull it away, and slap diluc right across his face. diluc gasps in surprise, looking back at you in shock. "i can't believe you, diluc ragnvindr. you disgusting excuse of a man. i can't believe i was in love with you. we're done, mr. ragnvindr. please, never try to find me, or i will kill myself. goodbye. i hope i never see you again." you quickly walked out of his mansion, holding back tears of anger.
as soon as you shut the door of your bedroom, you broke down in sobs. the tears kept flowing and flowing, soaking your bedsheets. you cried until your throat was hoarse and no more tears could escape. the pain in your heart was indescribable. it felt as if you had been stabbed over and over again, and as much as you wanted the pain to stop, it wouldn't. and it will never.
a few days later, you moved permanently to inazuma, moving in with kokomi. you had become great acquantainces during your previous trip and after hearing your tragic breakup, she immedeatly let you stay in her shrine. you soon got over diluc, and although it took a long time, kokomi was always there to help you. diluc was now just a part of your past, and something you did not need to remember. kokomi, however... </3
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a/n: IM FINALLY DONE UGHHHH. this took way too long yalls.
p.s. i legit listened to a 3 hour weight loss subliminal while writing this 💀💀
summary: diluc explains everything and you become lesbian good friends with kokomi.
warnings: angst, no comfort, cheating, diluc lowkey gaslighting reader, extremly not like diluc someone help pls, my bad writing, NOT PROOFREAD
"then what is it diluc? if it's not what i think, then what is it?" diluc stays silent, eyes full of regret. you scoff and turn to leave, but diluc holds you back by your wrist. you stop. for a moment, both of you are silent, diluc holding your wrist. it feels as if time had stopped. but you need it to keep moving. by then, you had made up your mind. it was no use clinging onto your ex-lover. you would only feel shame. you yank your wrist away from his grip and turn back to him. "i will give you half an hour to explain everything to me. if not, i'm leaving, diluc. i am giving you a chance, so please, accept it." you stare into his red eyes. finally, with an exasperated sigh, he whispers, "ok. i'll explain."
"between me and donna...it was..it was just supposed to be a one time thing(yes, in THAT way.). i was just...lonely, i suppose, and i didn't want to spend the night all by myself. so..i guessed i just called donna to come over since she was nearby.." you held back your tears and looked at him straight in the eyes. "so you admit to having an affair, diluc?" diluc's eyes widen, "what, no!? well, i mean, yes, but..i didn't mean to ok? it's just that i couldn't control myself, you had been on a business trip that week. i really needed someone by my side." you scoff. "diluc, that business trip was 3 months ago. you have been having an affair with donna for 3 months?" diluc slowly nods.
"so, what happened that night? when you were dancing toghether in the tavern?" diluc sighs. "nothing really. i just wanted a dance with someone, since you were never really there. i'm not saying you're a bad partner, it's just that, well, i only did it for my mentality. i want to be a good partner for you and love you, and i can't be a good partner if my mental health isn't good, right?" diluc tries to take your hand, but you pull it away, and slap diluc right across his face. diluc gasps in surprise, looking back at you in shock. "i can't believe you, diluc ragnvindr. you disgusting excuse of a man. i can't believe i was in love with you. we're done, mr. ragnvindr. please, never try to find me, or i will kill myself. goodbye. i hope i never see you again." you quickly walked out of his mansion, holding back tears of anger.
as soon as you shut the door of your bedroom, you broke down in sobs. the tears kept flowing and flowing, soaking your bedsheets. you cried until your throat was hoarse and no more tears could escape. the pain in your heart was indescribable. it felt as if you had been stabbed over and over again, and as much as you wanted the pain to stop, it wouldn't. and it will never.
a few days later, you moved permanently to inazuma, moving in with kokomi. you had become great acquantainces during your previous trip and after hearing your tragic breakup, she immedeatly let you stay in her shrine. you soon got over diluc, and although it took a long time, kokomi was always there to help you. diluc was now just a part of your past, and something you did not need to remember. kokomi, however... </3
end.
a/n: IM FINALLY DONE UGHHHH. this took way too long yalls.
p.s. i legit listened to a 3 hour weight loss subliminal while writing this 💀💀
summary: diluc tries to manipulate convince you that his previous actions meant nothing. but you knew he was lying.
warnings: angst, no comfort, cheating, idk diluc probably doesn't act like this-
"you broke your promise, didn't you diluc?" you slowly laughed, the aching pain in your heart growing by the seconds. "i-i have no idea what you're talking about (name). i'm confused, and also, where have you been all these days? i was worried to death." you gritted your teeth. how could he lie to your face with such an innocent and caring facade? diluc walked over to you, trying to take your hand, but you quickly pulled your hand away. diluc stared at you, a confused expression on his face, but his eyes reflected not love, but pity. "leave me alone, diluc. how could you do this to me. you deserve nothing." with that, you briskly walked out of your office, slamming the door.
the next day, you boarded a ship to inazuma. you needed a change of environment, and have overheard a conversation saying how the land of eternity was best for healing your inner self. as you stepped onto the dock, a wave of blossom petals landed in your hair. you already felt relaxed. for the next few days, you traveled around inazuma's islands and enjoyed their local foods. you went to shrines and prayed and have done so many things, yet you felt so hollow. like a part of you was forcefully ripped away and thrown onto the ground. it hurt so bad. you needed diluc.
you returned to mondstadt after 2 weeks in inazuma. when you came back, barbara went mad and told you how diluc went insane because of you. he was a destructive machine. hearing so, you rushed to diluc's mansion, finding him curled up on his bedroom floor.
"what are you doing here (name)? after breaking my heart like that? you have no idea how hurt i am. yet you have the audacity to leave me for so long (name). how could you?" you wanted to throw up. you knew all about what diluc had done. and you weren't going to ignore it. "seriously diluc? are you insane? you dare to pretend i broke your heart when you did it first! you disgust me." diluc stared at you, his blood red pupils livid with anger. "how dare you talk to me like that (name)! i have done nothing, yet you accuse me like this? i never thought you would do this." you scoffed in revulsion. "you cheated diluc. i saw with my own eyes."
diluc was silent. he was stunned. it took him a couple seconds to process what just came out of your mouth. "w-what do you mean, (name)? i would never do that to you, you know that. my heart only lies with you." he tried to wrap his arms around you but you pushed him back, making him topple over. "your heart? i don't need it. give it to donna. clearly, she needs it more." "donna!? who do you take me for? i would never be so unfaithful." "oh really now, diluc?" you said with a smirk. you pulled out something from your purse. it was a picture of diluc and donna dancing in the tavern hand in hand. diluc gasped audibly. "so, what do you have to say diluc?
"𝚒𝚝'𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔."
A/N: NAURRRRRRR THIS TOOK WAY TOO LONG UGHHVBIUVTGYUHVVUG ITS SO BAD. i wanted to finish it but i need sleep ok :/
warnings: angst, cheating 🙄, no comfort, fem reader
you happily walked down the stone path, diluc's tavern just in sight. in your hand was a special gift that you had saved for months to get. diluc was a rich man and could easily buy anything he wanted, but you wanted to gift him something with meaning to it.
as you pushed the door of the tavern, the warm air enveloped you. the lights were on, which was strange;diluc usually turned off nearly all the lamps when closing. as you took off your hat and scarf, diluc's familiar laugh reached your ears. you stopped. he never laughs, even with you, so who could it be that made the serious and stoic man laugh?
you peeped around the corner. there you saw diluc with his fiery red hair, let down from his usual ponytail, a look you rarely saw. but in his arms, was a woman. you couldn't see her face but you knew it was donna. there was no mistaking her shrill giggle and breathy voice. their hair flew together as they glided across the wooden floor, hand in hand. you couldn't believe your eyes. you wanted to confront diluc, scream in his face, insult him, cry in front of him, kill him. but you did nothing. you loved the man so much that you couldn't hurt him. so you silently picked up his gift, and walked outside the tavern.
a few days later, diluc came looking for you. he went all across the city, just for you. barbara had come and told you so.but you juat chuckled. you knew how fake it was. that all he wanted to do was use you as a toy to escape his boredom. you knew who he gave his heart to. diluc ran into your home as you were burning all the letters he had sent to you over the years. "what are you doing? didn't you know how long i was looking for you? i was really worried, you know?" you stood up and walked slowly to him. "don't act so innocent diluc. as if you cared for me. i know everything already." diluc opened his mouth to speak but you silenced him with a finger on his lips. "you'll never understand my pain, diluc. didn't you make a promise to me diluc? that we would be together forever?"
A/N: IM SOBBING THIS IS SO BAD HELP😭😭😭 anyways ty for reading this mess <3
✦ summary: Chat knows that they have an significant other. If only they weren't so avoidant about the topic of romantic relationships. 「hc//streamer au」
✦ content warnings: the return of smugbedo and kazuflirt; light swearing on scaramouche's part
albedo: kreideprinz
✦ Albedo is well known in the general gaming community as that one streamer with fabulous fanart and intricate cosplays. Which, may I add, are all self made (tailorbedo when).
✦ Most of his social media posts are either Aelbdo’s art and cosplay showcases, with the exception of promotional event posts. Interestingly, the model for every character cosplayed whether male, female or non-binary, is the same person. The model tagged is linked to a private account, with the only information available stating that the owner of the account is a model.
✦ Naturally, chat got curious and began investigating. In any cosplay post that depicts a ship, it’s always the mysterious model and Albedo posing. The camera is angled in such a position that the model’s facial features are indistinguishable or hidden.
✦ susbedo 100% when asked about the model.
“Oh? I suppose you’ll find out sooner or later.”
tartaglia: childe
✦ That streamer who manages to talk animatedly while playing an intense section of a game. He’ll be focused on winning a battle royale while still interacting with his viewers. King of multitasking??
✦ Of course, Childe has many things to talk about: A dog he saw at the park; the flavour of ice cream he ate today; what his s/o made for breakfast today. The topic of Childe’s s/o seems to be an intensely recurring topic.
✦ If Childe doesn’t talk about his s/o at least once per stream, then you know that this isn’t the real Childe: it’s an imposter who’s holding Childe hostage offscreen.
“Did I tell you about the time my s/o bought me this adorable narwhale keychain?”
itto: hanamizaka heroics
✦ Himbo streamer who also has very wholesome energy. Seems like he boasts a lot but they’re all truths.
✦ Itto can’t stay still for long periods at a time, so every once in a while he leaves his desk to walk around the room. While he’s stretching, there’s a pair of hands that seem to spawn from nowhere that keeps the stream entertained. When big man’s ready to continue whatever he’s doing, he places his chin on a waiting upturned palm which promptly squeezes Itto’s cheeks.
✦ Sometimes Itto holds the hand when he’s doing something that only involves his dominant hand.
“Hey! Whaddya mean they’re too good for me? You don’t know what you’re talking about!”
✦ Calm streamer with an even calmer voice that can make you fall asleep within five minutes - even if he’s reading a horror story.
✦ Every approximate two hours, someone knocks on the door and enters with a drink, food or both. When this happens, Kazuha never fails to pause whatever he’s doing at the moment to have (as dubbed by chat) “Kazuha’s wholesome break”.
✦ During the time period of twenty minutes, Kazuha spends the time interacting with the stream and the person who makes and delivers his meals. He also shows off the meals since they look like they’re straight out of an aesthetic cafe.
✦ What makes chat so sure that this mysterious person is Kazuha’s s/o? Why, it's the very fact that he kisses their knuckles just before they leave and has a smile that outshines the light of the sun.
"Chat, aren't these pancake adorable? It looks like a bear..."
scaramouche: balladeer
✦ A streamer that only plays single player games and games where you have direct control over who can join your world.
✦ Scara only plays in multiplayer (especially in genshin as it’s free) with one person: his s/o. When he’s not screaming to blind people in quests or cursing when he’s pushed off a cliff during exploration by Paimon, Scaramouche is inhabiting the world of his s/o.
✦ Either farming materials, speedrunning commissions or visiting the heart island, Scaramouche carries his s/o (even though they’re both the same adventure rank).
✦ Since he turns on his camera, chat can occasionally see soft Scaramouche asking someone offscreen if they’re doing okay.
“I deny everything! Stop calling me a damn simp!”
xiao: vigilant yaksha
✦ The streamer that has played every game in existence and is probably an expert in every single one of them.
✦ He streams in his bedroom with his face camera on. There’s almost always someone sitting behind Xiao on his bed, but chat can’t tell who it is since Xiao has a blurred background filter and the other person is too far away for the microphone to pick up their voice.
✦ Chat often hears conversations between Xiao and the person in the background, though they can only hear Xiao’s side. From what they can tell, Xiao’s dating this person.
✦ Xiao denies all existence of his s/o, but he makes no move to hide the banter taking place. Also Xiao’s s/o falls off the bed often, which leads to the stream being ended abruptly.
“I don’t have an s/o. [pause] Yes, our date is still on this Sunday.”
zhongli: vago mundo
✦ Clueless streamer. His stream doesn’t know what’s going on most of the time, but they stay around anyway because of his voice.
✦ Whenever something happens that Zhongli can’t make a head or tails out of, such as a chinese lottery ad opening and he doesn’t know how to close it, he calls a person offscreen to help him. He doesn’t actually say any names, opting to use pet names such as "dear" or "my love." It’s really infuriating, but he’s probably not doing it on purpose. Probably.
✦ Whenever someone asks zhongli who this mysterious person is, he’ll give a vague answer such as "Hm? Someone I live with" or "Oh, just someone I know" and then tactfully changes the subject. This could mean that this person is just a family member, but we all know you don’t just call your sibling or parent pet names reserved for a significant other.
✦ Speaking of which, if you strain your ears a moment after Zhongli utters a pet name, you can hear a laugh in the background.
warnings: heavy angst, suicide, blood, no comfort, major death, depression, self harm, my bad writing at 2 am, not proofread
he knew about your suffering. he knew about the scars on your arm. he knew about your indescribable pain. he knew everything, because you told him. all those nights, where you couldn't stop crying, he was there to help you and comfort you. he was everything to you. and you might have been everything to him. but you would never know. because you ended everything before it could happen.
it had seemed like a normal afternoon. you were at home, on a video call with xiao, spilling all the juicy gossip you heard at school. xiao was a great listener, despite his snarky demeanor towards others. he was always gentle to you, and would do anything to protect you. "oh, sorry y/n, i've got to go. i promised to have dinner with my friends today. shall we talk another time?" you smiled. you've already taken up too much of his personal time these weeks; he deserves some free time. "oh sure, go ahead! i've wasted so much of your time rambling on and on." you're no waste of time to me. anyways, i'm running late. stay safe, ok?" you silently nodded yes. it was a lie. even you didn't know it was a lie, until it happened.
everything felt like it was collapsing on you. tears cascaded like waterfalls down your cheeks. you picked up the small, blood-stained blade once again and pressed it harshly against your skin. the blade cut through your skin, deathly red liquid escaping through every crack, forming another horizontal slit on your arm. it hurt so bad, but the pain in your heart made you believe this was helping. you counted each scar and each fresh cut. 19 cuts in total. your arms were stinging with pain, blood dripping on your legs and the once white bedsheets. the only words in your head was "this is helping." it wasn't. but you were too lost at this point. there was no return.
xiao was having great fun, reconnecting with his friends over a joyous dinner, but something just felt...off. there was an annoying itch at the back of his mind, telling him something was wrong. that he should come home. that he should be doing something else right now. but he didn't. xiao had to move his schedule around so much for this dinner, he wasn't going to let anything distract him from his fun. even you.
this is wrong, you thought. xiao wouldn't be happy with you doing this, you thought. you reached out your night stand, snatching your phone, the bloody slits making you wince in pain. you dialed in his number and waited. and waited. for his familiar voice. his warm, gentle words to bring you back to peace and away from your darker side. but, it never came. he never responded. you chuckled to yourself. how could you be so stupid to think that he really loved you. your little silly crush could never be returned. in fact, he probably thought you were an attention seeking little brat, who was only a wedge between him and his social life. you were nothing but a mistake.
xiao waved goodbye to his friends, a smile glued to his face. with some almond tofu in his hands, he headed to your apartment. it's been a while since he has been over there, and what better to share a sweet treat and watch a movie. that itch was still there though. what could be so important that it distracted him from his friends?
xiao knocked on your apartment door. nothing. xiao knocked again, louder. still nothing. he was starting to get nervous. he called out your name, banged on the door, calling you on your phone, but nothing worked. he didn't have a key or anything. xiao was getting scared. what if you did that again? he couldn't swallow the fact that you might have harmed yourself again. xiao took a deep breath, and called the police.
"i'm sorry. we did everything we could, but it was too late. again, we're very sorry for your loss." xiao slumped down to the ground. tears fell in big puddles from his eyes, splattering on the cold hospital floor. how could this have happened? how could he have let you done this to yourself? why, couldn't he be there for you, when you needed him the most.
"if only i had come sooner.."
A/N yall this took way too long to write. i literally wrote this when i was crying for no reason smh.
..the amount of times i have lost sleep over fantasizing about genshin men having a crush on you but theyre too shy to talk to u so they secretly put notes in ur desk everyday and being ur note bestie 😫😫
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