hate me.

[miorines]

' ugh , stop with the bullshit already ! if you want it that badly, why are you letting others stop you ? '

. ☽ ˚｡･✧ : " Wh - What !? " Taken aback, by this woman's sudden outburst while Miorine was merely talking. Softly ranting about her 'lousy father', about the practices of this school &. the want to ... escape for lack of better terms. Among other things, the pair became rather close - friendly - something the president had indeed lacked. However, unexpected by Seele to react in such a way, which is poor judgment on their end. She should have known better than to willow in self pity, to blame everything around her for what's going on - for what's ultimately wrong. Fate, &. the course of events are IN HER OWN hands, regardless of Delling Rembran's rules. Regardless of Prospera Mercury's blackmailing - or coercing of using her own daughter, Suletta, to get her way. It is sickening.

Fingers clench each other, scratching at knuckles - pinching the skin. A clear indication of frustration - although the face of confidence soon follows.

" Yeah ... You're right. Nothing's going to be fixed - or right - if I don't DO something. I'm tired of my groom HURTING. I'm tired of these adults using us. " Sternness in Miorine's voice, she'd turn to her newly acquired friend. Hand out to shake, to embrace the others with certainty.

" Will you ... help me? I trust in your power, to aid in making these changes. "

[miorines]

‘ this entire time… she was just using me. she never cared about me at all… maybe i was too stupid to realize. ‘

. ☽ ˚｡･✧ : All too familiar, being used &. lied to from your parent. When they should be the one to PROTECT you, guide you down a good path of life, build you up - unfortunately in both parties cases ... their parents had done the exact opposite. Treating each other like nothing other than mere tools. No love or care had ever been poured into their beings, nothing REAL, anyway. A hand, coated in love - real love - came to grace Suletta's cheek. Basking in her warmth, being he source of COMFORT that their mother could never truly be - &. then some. Brows knit, lips' edges tug into a frown as the pilot spoke. Quick to readjust &. situate herself upon the others lap, form would lean into another, to play with a uniquely made ponytail ... Knowing how Prospera used her own daughter, so much anger filled the president's chest. More so, for the fact she couldn't do more to stop it. As if, part of this were HER OWN FAULT, too.

" I'm ... I'm sorry. "

Maybe, if Miorine hadn't been so hush - hush, maybe if she had found the words to explain it quicker ... But, that isn't fair. Miorine, like her groom, are only children among the adults. There's no point in punishing themselves for how those who're supposed to be GUARDIANS were to be mature, were to be actual protectors to the one's they've made.

Silver looks up toward her partner, examining their features, trying to offer looks of assurance. Anything that could potentially make Suletta feel less shitty about what things have come to. It's not long that her lips then purse, peppering a tan jaw line in kisses. Gently, trailing them toward their ear lobe. Nuzzling.

" Please don't call yourself that. You aren't. "

It didn't help that Miorine's made the mistake of referring to groom as an idiot from time to time. Sickened with her own choice of wording - she'd proceed to apologize for those instances, too.

For someone she claimed to be so important, so precious to her, there's nearly nothing that's been done to TRULY PROVE that. To TRULY PROTECT her savior, her lover.

[miorines]

‘ you mean… you really want to be with me…? ‘

" Duh, you idiot. You ARE the reason I stayed &. didn't flee to Earth, after all... " Appendages clenched white fabric, causing visible wrinkles while Miorine buried her face in the crook of groom's neck. Trying to talk about feelings isn't a strong suit here, most often the words spoken would come across harsh; uncaring. Perhaps this is the president's own naivety, expecting others to just read her mind.

Even as aggressive as her sentence came out, it's enough to exhaust &. cause a tear or two to fall. Hesitant in wrapping her arms 'round Suletta's broader figure; creating a tight &. loving embrace.

[miorines]

@suletta ♥

[war-is-bad-girls]

by @COuiF

source

[miorines]

@suleitta ♥

[miorines]

[war-is-bad-girls]

Sweet wish by @Morumottokun_S2

source

[miorines]

@suleitta ♥

[miorines]

i can’t believe you did it.

. ☽ ˚｡･✧ : " Yeah, me either. But, there's just some things you must do in order to survive ... " Being in such a dire situation, put into perspective how her fiance might've been feeling at the time - smiling; likely in hopes to reassure Miorine. A blanket of comfort &. a feeling of RELIEF in the president still remaining alive. Fists balled together while lids closed for a moment, taking in the new reality of being a murderer. However, if nothing were done ... this child may have been no more.

Hypocrite.

The student offers her own smirk, one not as bright as her grooms would be, yet still there. A hand, stained with red, had been offered to help the girl up; retracted once noticing insidious liquid dripping ... breath's shaky, aggressively trying to wipe it away. The act of taking another life - be it for the greater good or not - had been quick to take its mental toll. Miorine turns away from the other, gripping hands together in attempts to calm down, walking away from the scene - of course, expecting to be left alone.

Yet, the words couldn't help but to repeat themselves;

" I'm sorry. " I'm sorry.

↪ @chiheru / / heathers (1989)

[miorines]

Nortrette Rembran

(small tweak)

[halveablock]

tools

[miorines]

i loved you.

. ☽ ˚｡･✧ : The words are surreal, not something one would have ever expected to hear. Much less from her groom - or rather, ex groom. She, too, had once loved Suletta - still loves, even. But, it's silly of her to have assumed after all of the HELL she &. others put the GUNDAM Pilot through, that they'd still retain such feelings. There'd be no surprise if it's been replaced with resentment, a disdain - after all, it is something Miorine had hoped for in the end.

" ... I guess, that was our first mistake. Thinking we could've had such a blissful life together - we were nothing more than girls being dumb teenagers. "

↪ @suleitta / / heathers (1989)

[miorines]

I'm in your arms, I'm in your care.

↪ @suleitta ♥

[moosings-deactivated20231019]

HEATHERS (1989) PROMPTS

ₓ ˚ .   ୭   ˚ ○ ◦ ˚     as always, some triggering content may be present! change any pronouns to better suit your muse(s) needs!     ˚ ◦ ○ ˚   ୧   . ˚ ₓ

i can’t believe this is my life!

i loved you.

why do you have to be such a megabitch?

praise jesus, hallelujah.

i left him drunk and flailing in cow shit.

how do i turn off the god damn bomb, asshole?

there’s a new sheriff in town.

fuck me gently with a chainsaw, do i look like mother teresa?

hey, don’t worry about it.

maybe it’s time to take a vacation.

oh my god! i just killed my best friend!

our job is being popular and shit.

you stupid fuck!

i was coming up here to kill you.

all we want is to be treated like human beings, not to be experimented on like guinea pigs or patronized like bunny rabbits.

real life sucks losers dry.

i’ll tell everyone about tonight.

color me stoked.

well at least you got what you wanted, you know?

when teenagers complain that they want to be treated like human beings, it’s usually because they are being treated like human beings.

you want a clean slate as much as i do!

monday morning, you’re history.

you goddamn bitch!

i know you understood everything.

greetings and salutations.

they all want me as a friend or a fuck.

it’s more tasteful than it sounds!

ew! that son of a bitch!

i’m gonna have to send my sat scores to san quentin instead of stanford!

did that sound bitchy?

do you think that just because you started this thing you can end it?

my life’s not perfect.

lick it up, baby! lick! it! up!

what is your damage?

i just want my high school to be a nicer place.

you know what i want, babe?

i’m on my way to a party.

i’d like to know exactly what i did!

why are you pulling my dick?

i have no control over myself when i’m with [name]!

this stuff leaves a bad taste in my mouth…

it is one thing to want somebody out of your life, it is another thing to serve them a wake-up cup full of liquid drainer!

i was teasing.

is your life perfect?

you want to fuck with the eagles, you have to learn to fly.

i don’t really like my friends.

i can’t believe you did it.

my teen angst bullshit has a body count.

suicide is a private thing.

you teach people how to spread their wings and fly?

let’s go get a slushie.

why can’t you just be a friend?

if you were happy every day of your life you wouldn’t be a human being, you’d be a game-show host.

i’m worshiped and i’m only a junior.

our love is god.

today was great, chaos is great! chaos is what killed the dinosaurs, darling.

i’ll kill you, i’ll fucking kill you, i swear to god!

did you have a brain tumour for breakfast?

how very.

excuse me? i don’t get it.

you look like hell!

that funeral yesterday must have really been rough, huh?

the only place where different social types can genuinely get along with each other is in heaven.

you were nothing before you met me!

what are we gonna tell the cops?

i don’t really like your friends.

everybody’s sad… but it’s kind of a weird kind of sad.

fuck you!

are we going to prom or to hell?

just how do you think adults act with other adults?

[miorines]

it's okay if you want to leave me... I don't want to hold you back...

. ☽ ˚｡･✧ : Each word struck like a bullet - multiple piercing an exposed heart. Fists balled, pressing nails so deep into each palm, she'd attempt to draw blood &. steady the anxiety welling within her chest. But, it would only be selfish to bring two halves to a whole back together. To embrace &. reassure her groom, to pepper sunset peach skin with many kisses, until she just couldn't breathe anymore. To gently caress rose tinted cheeks with those palms so desperately clawed at with nothing but comfort, someone to lean into, to feel protected in such a way only LOVE could provide.

This isn't that reality, however.

Suletta has to hate you. To despise you, you have to make her feel as if she's no longer needed. When, in all honesty, she is whom you need most of all. Someone you WANT most of all.

This is the only way to ensure she's free, out of the clutches of controlling a GUNDAM, or to be controlled by that woman - by Prospera. She has to make her own decisions, to be on her own, away from this place - this operation. For too long, has her dearly beloved been used as nothing more than a TOOL for others gain... She really is such an idiot, getting involved in everyone else's affairs. If only she hadn't gotten in the way that day - damn it. Maybe, these feelings of conflict, warmth, wouldn't have existed, this would have been EASIER for both sides to progress down this path of severed bonds.

( You can only gulp, swallowing spit &. realize just how cotton mouth you really are. ) Pinkish - tinted irises lock on to Suletta, a serious look, one usually worn around everyone. A look that hasn't been used as a mask 'round her beloved in some time ... Pale brows creased, struggled attempts to not cry - to stay strong. She has to.

" You're no longer the holder, &. you've served your purpose to me already. You helped me to achieve my goal in getting out of this hellhole, I just needed you around a little longer to ... To get my lousy father off my back. But, after what you did. How can I trust that I'll be truly safe around you? Someone who SMILES when murdering someone. How can I trust that I won't meet the same fate with you? "

More pins into the beating muscles resting within their rib cage - wanting nothing more than to rip it out, to stomp it to the ground - needing it to freeze over. To remain unfeeling. How hypocritical, as this is just what Miorine's done to someone she had been so undeserving of loving. ( This pilot, she deserved so much better than you. You are colorless, yet another parasite this girl had the misfortune of meetings, to sap her own colors. Piss - poor attempts to make another colorless, as yourself. )

" ... Quit fiddling with the green house, Suletta. I've hired others to take care of it while I'm gone away on business. You'd only be in the way. Focus on your school work &. real friends, instead. I've got to go. "

[miorines]

As I looked in the mirror, my reflection winked at me. I’d thrown my tooth brush at it from becoming startled, however it just stood in place. Out of dead & curiosity, I pressed my hand to the glass, I felt every part of it pass through my very being. Eventually, I’d been on the other side & slowly turned, looking back.

My reflection winked at me again.

… What a strange dream.

[miorines]

haha look miss miorine this tomato is as bright and pretty as you………. (rizz w?)

. ☽ ˚｡･✧ : " Don't be stupid. " Despite these words shot toward her groom, there's a light blush to cross their cheeks with such a compliment. Even a smirk as eyes closed for a moment, before looking over the tablet again.

[miorines]

tags ;

愛 ) ... red colored sentiments appear so beautiful . / dyn - suleitta

誇 ) ... embodiment of distortion . / in chara

誇 ) ... to strangle my colorless self . / inspo

誇 ) ... this knife is your destiny . / vis