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[maryambxt]

You guys ever feel, feel your heart physically shatter when you hear words you never wanted to hear

[maryambxt]

give me validation or give me death ❔❓

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:) :(

I think i have achieved base level of emotion. I am not completely sad or happy. It is a weird feeling. This is yet another useless update.

[maryambxt]

 ‏ﻏﻢ ﮨﮯ ﯾﺎ ﺧﻮﺷﯽ ﮨﮯ ﺗﻮ!

ﻣﯿﺮﯼ ﺯﻧﺪﮔﯽ ﮨﮯ ﺗﻮ

ﺁﻓﺘﻮﮞ ﮐﮯ ﺩﻭﺭ ﻣﯿﮟ

ﭼﯿﻦ ﮐﯽ ﮔﮭﮍﯼ ﮨﮯ ﺗﻮ

ﻣﯿﺮﯼ ﺭﺍﺕ ﮐﺎ ﭼﺮﺍﻍ

ﻣﯿﺮﯼ ﻧﯿﻨﺪ ﺑﮭﯽ ﮨﮯ ﺗﻮ

ﻣﯿﮟ ﺧﺰﺍﮞ ﮐﯽ ﺷﺎﻡ ﮨﻮﮞ

ﺭُﺕ ﺑﮩﺎﺭ ﮐﯽ ﮨﮯ ﺗﻮ.

[maryambxt]

ﻣﯿﺮﺍ ﺍﺏ ﺟﯽ ﯾﮧ ﭼﺎﮨﺘﺎ ﮨﮯ

 ﺍﭘﻨﯽ ﺫﺍﺕِ ﺧِﻠﻮﺕ ﺳﮯ

 ﮨﺠﻮﻡِ ﺩﻧﯿﺎ ﮐﯽ ﻧِﺴﺒَﺖ ﺳﮯ

 ﻧﺎﺗﮧ ﺗﻮﮌ ﮐﺮ ﺍﭘﻨﺎ

 ﺗﯿﺮﯼ ﻣَﻨﺰﻝ ﮐﯽﺟﺎﻧﺐ

 ﮐَﮩﯿﮟ ﺭﻭﭘﻮﺵ ﮨﻮﺟﺎﺅﮞ

 ﻣﯿﮟ ﺍﯾﮏ ﺩَﺭﻭﯾﺶ ﮨﻮﺟﺎﺅﮞ

[maryambxt]

‏اسی خیال میں گزری ہے شام درد اکثر

کہ درد حد سے بڑھے گا تو مسکرا دوں گا

تو آسمان کی صورت ہے گر پڑے گا کبھی

زمیں ہوں میں بھی مگر تجھ کو آسرا دوں گا

 ‏بڑھا رہی ہیں مرے دکھ نشانیاں تیری

میں تیرے خط تری تصویر تک جلا دوں گا

بہت دنوں سے مرا دل اداس ہے محسنؔ

اس آئنے کو کوئی عکس اب نیا دوں گا

[maryambxt]

وہ جو ہمیں عزیز ہے کیسا ہے کون ہے

کیوں پوچھتے ہو ہم نے بتانا تو ہے نہیں

دنیا ہم اہل عشق پہ کیوں پھینکتی ہے جال

ہم نے ترے فریب میں آنا تو ہے نہیں

عہد وفا سے کس لیے خائف ہو میری جان

کر لو کہ تم نے عہد نبھانا تو ہے نہیں.

[maryambxt]

But i am a sunflower, a little funny

If i was a rose, maybe you'd want me.

[maryambxt]

"If you expect the world to be fair with you because you are fair with them, it is like expecting a lion not to eat you because you don’t eat lion"

-John Spence

[maryambxt]

‏‎گر یُونہی رہی دِلوں کی رنجش

مُشکل ہے بہم نباہ رہنا

ناصرؔ ــــــــ یہ وَفا نہیں جنُوں ہے

اَپنا بھی نہ خیرخُواہ رہنا

ناصرؔ کاظمی

[maryambxt]

Hello people! i just wanted to share something!

so i was sitting in my room crying with destructive rage & fear, rush of conflicted emotions, and i was completely rattled.

 I started crying but it was not easy to stop. I tried so hard, i listened to songs then i started reading a book, even tried to sleep. but it didn't help at all.

I know you guys must be curious why tf was i crying? all i can say is my mind was twisted, my feelings were like intense void stuck in my chest.

I started thinking about all the bad things that happened with me like nobody has fought for me to stay. i make myself too available. i’m always giving. i’m always the one who ends up losing. Then i felt helplessly helpless.

4:00am:  FINALLY after crying of 7 to 8 hours, I took shower & did wudu.

Fajar is the time when you don't need to speak because you know Allah knows the depth of your heart so you just sit on prayer mat with tears in your eyes.

I was sitting on the Jay e Namaz and tears started rolling down my face, i cried my heart out.

All i said was:

"Ya Allah! I know You see my tears. i know You hear my prayers. i know You are testing me"

I can't tell you how satisfactory that moment was.

Talking about it over and over again or crying in grief doesn't help mates.

Talk to Allah. Even if you’re only able to get one word out. You know you don’t have to explain why, when, you cry your heart out because Allah knows exactly what is wrong with you. Allah can understand your feelings.

[maryambxt]

If i ever disappear from your life silently without even saying a word. I hope you know the only mistake you made was LYING. I don't hold grudges, i will still pray for you but i dont want unfaithful and untruthful people in my life.

[maryambxt]

scary how you can get feelings & emotions for someone in such a short period of time but those are the ones you gotta watch out for.

[maryambxt]

today, i encountered the worst moment of my life. and when i say it i have a completely straight face but im so happy that im safe YA ALLAH SHUKAR

[maryambxt]

But you'll never be alone,

I'll be with you from dusk till dawn. :)

[maryambxt]

‏ہر حال میں ہنسنے کا ہنر پاس تھا جن کے

 وہ رونے لگے ہیں کوئی بات تو ہوگی

- جونؔ ایلیاء

[maryambxt]

don’t test my patience :))))))))))

[overthinkinguy]

Me when people take my love and kindness for granted

[maryambxt]

i can relate