There's a certain in comfort in the darkness.

Nothing to special to be said.

[misfithazard]

I just need to find a balance fuck.

[ninasdrafts]

You know the saying "home is not a place, it's a feeling". But what if it's a person? What if I've been told all my life not to make a home out of people but I never listened? Worse - what if I failed miserably every time? What if I told you I got used to taking up residence in chests and lungs and hearts? That I learned how to fall asleep with someone else's bones wrapped tightly around my own? No home of mine has ever been permanent. Safe. I've had roofs collapse beneath torrents of rain, had windows shatter in the middle of winter. Walls I'd thought stable turned out to be built on shaky foundations and crashed down around me. But even when I was left in the ruins of what once was, it never took me long to open another set of doors. To move into a new home, not caring if it was temporary, abandoning my baggage in the hallway. And that's what makes it so dangerous, I think. That's what sets us up to fail. I can no longer be alone with my thoughts. With myself. But what am I supposed to do? I've never felt at home in any place, I think. Not if it wasn't filled with people I love.

what if home is a person? / n.j.

[liesandnights]

But I think what scares me the most is if I woke up one day and forgot my own name, I'd probably still remember yours.

[misfithazard]

I'm.The.Problem.

[misfithazard]

Holy shit ..I am at a loss for words...I can't stop crying...how do you handle the news that your Best friend has a stage 3 cancer and it's not looking good for her..This isn't fucking fair!! She's a god damn person,a amazing mother too three little boys,a all around awesome human .... God damn it I'm so mad at the world ...

[misfithazard]

Not going to lie not talking to you sucks because for the last 4 or 5 years of my life you have been one of my only actual friends. Video chatting all day was one of my favorite things it was nice to have company it was nice to be able to have someone to share everything that's going on in my life with. Sucks that I messed up our friendship. Sucks knowing you'll never be in my life again. I definitely could have been a better friend towards you and I should have been and that is something I'm going to have to live with. All I hope is that you are doing well. I've thought about messaging your brother and asking about you but I don't know if it's crossing boundaries or not and I don't want to put him in the middle. Maybe one day later on in life will cross paths again... Miss my friend hard today...

[misfithazard]

I need a change . .I need to lose some of this god damn weight I gained through pregnancy.i legit have stayed the same weight since the day at had Avery in September of 2017.. I hate my body.i hate the way I look.i hate the fact everyone talks about my weight...I hate the way everyone around me is losing weight not even trying...I hate looking in the mirror..I'm disgusted with myself...I need to work harder,eat less,and work on myself because I'm not happy with life anymore honestly.m

[misfithazard]

Haven't spoken to you in a while and it's crazy how it feels so unnatural it drives me crazy how quickly I got attached again...I went against every damn moral I had in hopes to have something I've wanted for so long for it to all come crashing down... It my fault tho I made these choices and knew the outcome Everytime and still choose to do so.amaybe one day I won't have feelings for you,I should hate you with every fiber if me yet here I am still upset it didn't work..

[misfithazard]

Welp...I fucked up

[misfithazard]

You can't say the things you did and pretend they weren't said!! I'm literally a human with real damn feelings and very overly sensitive...

[misfithazard]

Please make up your god damn mind!!! I can not take this roller coaster ride anymore...you tell me we can't talk anymore and than one day you start again and this time you swear you're here to stay..You swear it's different this time..That I'm all you want..and now you're barely replying....same thing you did last time .. fuck..

[victoria-pedretti]

THE NOTEBOOK (2004) — directed by Nick Cassavetes

[achokingroseback]

Our timing will always be a little off..

[acocktailsip]

Movie 002 : The Notebook

[aretherestarsinhell]

there is a place in my heart

that you will forever occupy

just as there is a space in the sky

for each and every doomed romance -

love, that was never destined to be

-i guess we had different definitions of “forever” c.r.

[miseducatedmelanicmuse]

[ongawdclub]

O v e r s t a n d

[misfithazard]

I think I might be bipolar.Like truly I feel like maybe even I have a personality disorder Im not sure.But I do know I'm driving myself crazy running around in circles in my mind.Im pretty sure tho I've decided it's time to work on myself and focus on me and what I need in life. I think I need to be alone for a while and to stop making such irrational decisions...I'm a grown adult and I need to stop acting like a highschooler and get my shit together and than maybe I can love someone they deserve and they way u deserve to be loved