i wanna die

[getlostinsidemycrazymind]

I feel like the world is against me and I can't be happy

-Night

[heartbreak-jayy-deactivated2021]

“You never loved me. If you did you would’ve tried to pick up any crumbling pieces. You would’ve tried harder like I did. But you didn’t.”

J. W., Love Letters I’ll Never Send

[your-life-over--mine]

How strange it is to stand in a room full of people and be alone. Watching people joke, laugh and smile around you, you feel that the world is going on without you and your presence is not needed. I don’t mean standing in a room full of strangers, no, I mean standing with friends, family, people you love. The gut-wrenching moment when you’re stood with the people who mean everything to you and you realize you could just disappear. Not needed, not wanted, not loved. How strange it is to know you’re insignificant. // how strange/insignificant

[i-wrote-you-a-poem]

i’m always a little too much for people to handle. a little too sad or a little too overbearing or maybe even a little too annoying. i’m always too much. but i was always too little for the only people i ever really loved and that screws me up inside. i was never enough

-11:55pm

[sleepinforest]

[feedthis]

[vodkakilledtheteen]

I’m scared of you telling me you’ve stopped loving me at 2pm in the middle of a parking lot. I’m scared of you telling me you’ve stopped loving me when we wake up one morning. I’m scared of you one day telling me you’ve stopped loving me after I tell you how much I love you. My mind is full of uninvited scenarios of you flatlining my heart with “I don’t love you anymore.” So please try to understand me when I randomly ask you if you still love me.

- Alexa Evangelista, the book I’ll never finish writing

[panic-waves]

i’m getting bad again but i’m too tired care

[wordslaver]

You had me, but then you decided i wasn’t enough .

[love-wont-save-us-now]

“Maybe I’m alive because I didn’t really want to die

All I really wanted was someone to give a little fuck

But nothing very special ever happens in my life

I waited there forever and nobody even looked up”

— Ghost, Badflower

[not-your-average-jericho]

You know, people will ask you if you’re okay all the time, but they don’t actually want to know. All they really want to hear is that you’re fine and life is great. People know exactly how to respond to happy. No one wants to hear that you’re depressed and sad all the time, because no one really knows how to deal with sad. Happy? People get. Sad? No one has a clue what to do with that. Not. One. Clue.

[suckmyskinny-bones]

“Dont ever tell anyone I didnt try, I gave it everything I had. But life can break even the strongest of men. Now all I can hope for is something to pull me back from the darkness, because I know I cant do it on my own

- my broken mind, from a book I’ll probably never write

[sadsweetunfinished]

It is truly incredible how quickly I can make myself feel sad and worthless

[uknowdarius-deactivated20220410]

“It’s hard to care anymore. It’s hard to wake up giving a **** about anything. My soul is so cold now and I can’t find enough energy to care…”

[vodkakilledtheteen]

I’m scared of you telling me you’ve stopped loving me at 2pm in the middle of a parking lot. I’m scared of you telling me you’ve stopped loving me when we wake up one morning. I’m scared of you one day telling me you’ve stopped loving me after I tell you how much I love you. My mind is full of uninvited scenarios of you flatlining my heart with “I don’t love you anymore.” So please try to understand me when I randomly ask you if you still love me.

- Alexa Evangelista, the book I’ll never finish writing

[wordslaver]

Do you ever get in one of those moods where you’re like feeling okay but you’re really sad at the same time and you just want to talk to someone and make them hug you but you feel annoying so you kind of just sit there being really sad..

[ailyncore]

“It’s just a bad day.” I said. “I’ll feel better tomorrow.”

But the bad days turned into bad weeks, bad months and now I don’t know what to do.