The second the words came out of your mouth– the moment my mind grasped the situation.. I instantly stopped and detached myself from having any feelings towards you. Not in a negative way and not in some petty, childish, upset way. I heard every word and it was true, which made it hurt more.
So instead of typically trying to fight for us, I just flipped a switch. I turned off any sort of memories or feelings I had for you. It was my mind and body’s way of survival: forget you ever happened. Pretend it was some sort of day dream. Otherwise how the hell would I get through this?
Yes, our futures have so much in store for us. We can and will both move on with our lives and try new things; maybe move somewhere new, meet new friends and eventually fall in love again. You’ll meet a good girl that’ll give you everything you want and need, but you can’t compare every next potential candidate you meet to me– it won’t get you anywhere. It’s true when you said our love will always be there. It will be.
Maybe in another eight years we’ll bump into each other again. Maybe we’ll pick up where we left off. Or maybe you’ll be married with that good girl you deserved. With a few kids. That house you wanted. The dog. And maybe I’ll have someone as well. We’ll say “hello,” of course– Always polite to each other. Ask how the other is doing, maybe even give each other a hug good bye pretending that you still don’t make me nervous whenever I see you.
It’s funny how we have always been the masters of bad timing when it came down to us.
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