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azure (n.) -a clear blue sky; deep blue hue: a deep blue color

[fyp-psychology]

Don’t hold on to someone who’s leaving, otherwise you won’t meet the one who’s coming.

Carl Jung (via fyp-psychology)

[missanonymousfangirl]

Happy birthday, Elijah!

Para sa nag-iisang Elijah Riley Vasquez Montefalco ng buhay ko.

Hi baby! Happy 24th birthday! Though lagi mong sinasaktan ang puso't damdamin ko, I just want to tell you that I love you so much... So much I can even tell that you could always be my greatest downfall.

Pero baby, isang taon na akong patay na patay sayo. One year and 27 days, to be exact. Alam mo ba, noong una inis ako sayo. Kabadtrip ka kaya. Isa kang dakilang kontrabida sa lovestory nina Klare at Eion. Pero nagkamali ako. Ikaw pala yun. Ikaw pala yung para kay Klare. The moment I've finished reading the whole trilogy, I stopped for a moment. Wala lang. Napatulala ako. Kasi alam ko, by that moment, ikaw na. Nasira na ang sistema ko. How could a fictional character ever do this to me? You made me fall so hard I wouldn't even mind the fact that I could stand up. Kaso hindi mo naman ako magagawang saluhin. Kaya isang malamig na semento ang kinabagsakan ko.

I've reread the Until maybe for the nth time already. But you're still giving me 'the' goosebumps every time you're saying something. Kahit isang "baby" lang na tawag mo kay Klare, nagwalala na agad ang kung anong mga demonyo sa tiyan ko. Bakit ganun ka Elijah? Bakit ganoon ang epekto mo sa akin?

But of course I won't forget the fact that you actually weren't made for me. You were made for Klare. Fictional characters would always end up with fictional characters. Elijah, I always knew we could never be the end game. Oo, masakit. Pero wala eh, ginusto ko ito. Una pa lang dapat hindi ko na hinayaan na lumago yung feelings ko sayo. Kasi nga hindi ka naman totoong tao. Bakit ganoon? Bakit ang dali-dali niyong magpafall ng tao kahit alam naman ng mga tao na never kayong magiging riyan para saluhin sila?

Elijah here. Elijah there. Elijah everywhere. Kahit saan ako, pangalan mo ang bukambibig mo. Samantalang ang pangalan ko, ni hindi mo man lang alam na nag-eexist pala ito. Elijah, damn you baby but you really made me fall this hard. Akala nga ng ibang tao sa paligid ko, totoong tao ka. Nahuhusgahan na nga ako minsan kasi sinasabi ko na may boyfriend ako at Elijah Montefalco ang pangalan. But who gives a fudge? Mas pabor nga ako na ganoon. At least, kahit paano, may mga tao palang naniniwala na ikaw at ako ay may "tayo".

Kainis ka. Mahal na mahal kita at siguro oras na lang at ang realidad ang mag-uudyok sa akin na kalimutan ka. Pero ngayon, habang sariwa pa para sa akin lahat ng nararamdaman ko para sayo, I'll take this.

Elijah, someday, I'll find my own soldier. A real and an existent one. I, soon, will be happy. Maybe not with you, but that would be fine, right? Because finally I'll find my own Elijah Montefalco. But for now, I'll settle with you. Forgive me if that day comes, huh baby?

Thank you for existing. Kahit sa isip ko lang at sa isip lang ng libu-libong taong nakakikilala sayo. At least, kahit paano, masasabi ko, na nag-exist ka at patuloy na nag-eexist.

Just always remember that I have loved, am loving and will always love you.

Love, Monica.

P.S. Pero joke lang Elijah na maghahanap ako ng soldier ko one day! Ikaw pa rin talaga, hehehe! It's either ikaw ang makakatuluyan ko o forever na akong single! Ehehehe

[missanonymousfangirl]

Then at least let her move on.

[missanonymousfangirl]

It's like this: you guys will talk until 2 am, to 2 hours a day, to 2 minutes, to 2 days ago, to never.

[missanonymousfangirl]

We will never be even. I am in love with you. You are in love with her.

[missanonymousfangirl]

My biggest fear is to die before I even get a chance to personally meet you.

[missanonymousfangirl]

And God made two great lights: the greater light to rule the day, and the lesser light to rule the night: He made the stars also. - Genesis 1:16

[missanonymousfangirl]

A wrongdoing from reality can be fixed in a fiction? It's a curse and a gift at the same time. A gift to make everything right and a curse for knowing that the only way to set things straight was to write a fiction.

11/23 by Pilosopotasya

[missanonymousfangirl]

And then it became so bright I had to close my eyes.

[missanonymousfangirl]

Because the worst thing you can ever tell a fan girl is that she will never meet her sunshine.

[missanonymousfangirl]

When she's telling you sweet things quoted from books, I'm out here writing you one.

Anonymous

[missanonymousfangirl]

I could never stop thinking that maybe she loved mysteries that much that she became one.

Paper Towns by John Green

[missanonymousfangirl]

He's still the same.

[missanonymousfangirl]

If you are meant for each other, no matter who else you meet or where else you go, you'll always come back to the one you're supposed to end up with. Fate really is a beautiful thing.

Karmic Hearts written by Jhing Bautista

[missanonymousfangirl]

Excerpt from I Just Loved Too written by Jhing Bautista. 

[kpopfantasywriter]

It’s time for us to be his Peter Pan and protect his dreams. We need to respect his decisions and accept the path he is chosen, no matter where it takes him.