Grey's Expressions

In this page, you can read all of what's inside my mind and heart.

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Please take time to read. Thank you.

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I miss writing to you.

Sorry fir being so busy these days, and I can't take time write an entry. Please forgive me TUMBLR 😔 MAPASAYLO PA MAN KAHA KO NIMO?

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Confessions of an almost tempted Girlfriend

If you are weak, you lose the game.

Honestly, there were so many temptations. You just gotta be brave enough to refuse from them. Because if you are into something/someone that's really special to you, you will do what's best.

Using social media platforms, they are the best example. You can talk and meet anyone on it. Not realizing that you were only tested by Him, just to know how true you are.

Truly, I was the best example from this. Some guys just pop up notifying that they want to add and be friends "kuno". But not really the intention, they are up to something. Something that might break you and your current relationship.

At first, they will just gonna say "Hi, kumusta?" And then later on, "Pwede manguyab nimo?" From there, you'll ask yourself, "What are the odds?" Like how do they know that I needed someone to talk to nowadays? But still, all you wanted was just someone to talk with, NOT MORE THAN THAT. I admit, usahay nindot kaayo motubay. Labi na'g imohang partner, wala nay pake nimo. Kanang dili namo almost mastorya. Puro na lang mo selosan, puro na lang away. And of course you, tao ra ka. You wanted someone to comfort you. Pero ingon pa sila "ayaw'g kumpyansa anang mo-comfort nimo, kay may hidden agenda pud na sila". How true this statement is: tinuod jud kaayo siya.

To think nga sila imong gi-openan sa imong problema, of course they know how to play with you. They know what to do.

But in my case, I'd prefer not to talk with any other people aside from the ones I really know, I mean personally. I always ignore messages, especially when it comes from strangers. Bahala na'g na'g storyahan ko nila'g "arte, strikta, feeling gwapa", basta kay ako, allergic ko anang mga in-ana.

It happens nga mapul-an ka's ka-boring. Pero kung tarong ka, you know the difference between right and wrong, of course temptations will just be nothing to you. I mean, we all get tested. Faith and loyalty, are two of the most tested aspects in a relationship. And if you are not strong enough to fight against these temptations, then probably you will bite all the baits.

Luckily, I know what I want and who I love. I wanted us to be happy and stay in love. But as to you, you were weak. And so we ended up being apart.

Temptations, they can really break you I say.

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I chose you over everything... But now, I'm left with nothing.

I had all the chances, the opportunities in life before I met you. Then you came in. Everything changed.

I could get back finish my studies, because someone offered me.

I also had my chance to pursue my dream of being a singer, but I was torn between leaving you and staying with you all the way.

When I got work, I could have a better position. But you always doubted me. We always fight because you were jealous. You said I might get another man in my life. That I could replace you. That I will leave you.

I always had my chances, but I always think of you, of us first. I care of how you would feel.

I could have a better life without you. But then, as what they say, when you get struck by love, there's no way out of it.

I gave you everything, the love, effort, chances and etc. I gave you all my time. I lived with you. Still taking chances of a happy life with you.

Chances are .. Opportunities knocks once, so you better live with it. But I didn't. I let the opportunities passed.

And so here I am, out of chances for better life.

Now, that you have everything, especially your career, you are leaving me. Leaving me, now that I am left with nothing.

How could you do this? How could you just stand there and see me like this? How could you leave without saying anything?

I was with you, from your lowest to what you are now. I've seen you from your pain to your gain. I was there, through thick and thin.

For almost 5years, your family is mine too. How could I detached myself from them? How could I detached myself from you?

How I wish, the memories we made are just nothing to me. Of how I wish I could just erase them in just a snap of my finger. How I wish that what you told me is just a prank. How I wish.

I almost begged for you. But it seems like you had made your mind. That there's a change of heart.

(Will be updating...)

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I tried ..

Today, I tried to please him again. I know it's hard. I don't wanna lose someone I love again. Because I don't know what's gonnna happen. I might explode. I might lose myself too.

And today, I tried again. I tried to look for work. And honestly, I am so lucky. So lucky to get nervous for interview again.

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Friday the 13th

July 13, 2018 - Friday, I can't believe that it will be one of my unlucky days.

He broke my heart. I have lots of questions - questions that will never be answered.

I was cornered, don't know what to do. Torn between letting go and leaving the house.

The house that has been my home for almost 5 years. My life of being with him. The memories we made together. His family has been family. I have built friendship to his cousins.

This will be updated.

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Heart

I really don't know what makes you beat for him anymore.

Am I this very unfortunate when it comes to love?

I have given all for him, but it's all taken for granted. Why?

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I Remember You

I remember now.

I remember the love, which I gave you wholeheartedly.

I remember the pain, which you gave me in return.

I remember you, but nothing beats louder than the pain you've caused.

Ms. Grey