EYES OPEN

I act as if I don't care, but I do. I seem to be blunt and emotionless at times, but trust me I'm sensitive as fuck. I overthink things, but I manage to live my life the way I want to and that's what matters to me. So if you wanna hang around my life, take these things to consideration.

[thepersonalquotes]

[typelikeagirl]

[thepersonalquotes]

[missvastdreamer]

[missvastdreamer]

When Destiny Plays

Just when I thought I was over him, he came and proved me wrong. Just one smile and I let my armors down. Just a simple conversation makes me drown into his eyes. His every move intoxicated me. It’s so mysterious how can one “I miss you” coming from him can make me into him all over again, for the countless times.

I’ve never been so wrong in my life, not until now.

What sorcery did he cast on me? Its so powerful I can’t undo it. 

[missvastdreamer]

And now he came back. I am once again smitten by his charms. Guess he will always have a special place in my heart. How I wish I also have a place in his.

[thepersonalquotes]

[missvastdreamer]

Wondering how I had a memory lost,

When I perfectly remember every moment spent.

It's like, I know what and how it is

But I can't seem to put it into words and writing.

[thepersonalquotes]

[iglovequotes]

https://iglovequotes.net/

[iglovequotes]

https://iglovequotes.net/

[thepersonalquotes]

[missvastdreamer]

Save me

My head is spinning

Don’t know what I’m doing.

Pretending to be fine

When everything’s not,

I’m slowly drifting apart.

I’m wide awake when everyone’s asleep,

What if’s and what not battling in my head.

It’s silent but in my mind it’s purely chaotic,

And no one will truly understand

How frightened I am.

[thepersonalquotes]

[missvastdreamer]

How did I lost my fondness in writing.

How can I bring it back?

Been busy making a living that I forgot what was once my passion that made me feel alive when everything else is fucked up.

[bernadettelogue]

[missvastdreamer]

Here we go again

[missvastdreamer]

If being right and just leads you to being hated by others, would you still choose to be right and just?

[missvastdreamer]

My Past haunts my Present and prolly my Future as well.

Today, after getting into an argument with my sister I realized how fragile and broken I am. Remnants of the past still lies in my unconscious state and it just resurface now. Making me sob my lungs out. Now I fully understand why I'm like this. Why I changed so much. Why does the cheerful and people person me vanished and why did my heart hardens. This is all because of my past. It molds me to become the person I am now. A person my family isn't used to. The pain and shame I received from years ago still lingers and I'm still afraid of it. Afraid to experience it again. Now I understood why no matter how big my savings become I will never be contented. I'll always want and strive for more. I'll stay selfish for I am afraid that history will repeat it self. How ironic past be called "past" when the feelings never left you, after all these years... I'm still broken by it. And now I understand why I am fucked up.