idk who to tell but last night i learned thru random convo that the mother of a girl in my class is my old doctor
i didn't tell her but i was trying to be friendly and ask her about her family and things started connecting and i checked her facebook and yes in fact my old dr is this person's mother
and i'm so so uncomfortable with this knowledge
because that dr invalidated my feelings so many effing times - when i used to be on antidepressants (i stopped bc they made me feel worse), that dr would say things like "just be happy and the "depression" will go away like ma'am what???
when i said i was in pain, she would be like "just lose weight" (stupid af bc she would never adjust my thyroid meds) or "it'll go away with time" like jokes on fnkin her bc it's been over three years and i still have chronic pain and regularly have to go to physical therapy and chiro
i couldn't breathe thru my nose+had recurring tonsillitis&tonsil stones (i had very enlarged tonsils with lots of crypts) and she fully ignored me saying it would be fine and i went to a specialist who immediately was like "yeah you gotta get your nose fixed and tonsils out asap, when is the earliest you can come in for surgery"
i switched doctors because going to her gave me so much anxiety and i would reschedule over and over to avoid her
but now i'm anxious bc i thought i got away from her/would never see her again but her cHILD is in my class and we will be in every class together for the next 3.5 years and we're both in our grad school's student gov team and we'll have events with family members and what if i have to see her and what if she doesn't respect hipaa like i'm so fnking anxious about this i could not sleep and i can't stop stressing over this









