Finding YOU

"Finding the real HAPPINESS is a really tiring yet priceless journey.. "

[missyblogger16]

sa tumblr pwede ka mag rant ng mag rant na walang mag jujudge sayo. Dito pwede ka makaramdam.  Ewan ko ba bakit iniwanan ko mga tropa ko dito :(

[dakilangbabaeeeee]

i think everytime I feel of giving up nalulungkot si G, sorry po ah I just can’t help myself from drowning of too much emotion to the point I forgot to remember that I have You. Sorry :(

[poems-and-word]

[missyblogger16]

13.12.18

I am feeling a lack of motivation lately. No one believes that I am quite tired of life.

My sleep increased thrice than usual, I can’t engage much longer with people.

I wanted alone time so much more than usual. 

Something is off, something is not me again. Haay

Dear Self,

I hope you fight for yourself. I hope you don’t lose this battle again. Things will be better eventually. Not now, but it will. I promise.

It will; haay

Tumblr. i miss you.

[matabangutak]

Ang hirap kapag sobra kang ginawang tanga. ‘Yung pinaasa ka sa lahat ng sinabi niya. Yung akala mo ok na tapos wala pala talaga.Tapos ang ganda na ng hopes mo sa inyong dalawa. Napakaganda ng balak mo at nung nilolok forward mo sa inyo. Tapos wala. Maglalaho lahat na parang bula.

[missyblogger16]

parang tanga kasi talaga. hay

[matabangutak]

Pinabayaan mo tapos ayaw mong mapunta sa iba? Paano naman siya?

[written-on-polaroids]

He hurt you, so don’t you fucking dare to apologize for being angry about it.

Remeber this. (via

written-on-polaroids

)

[ex-masbitterpasakape]

i miss u ate :( ive been sad lately. lagi nlng ako nagpapanggap na masaya. hays

U dont need to make panggap, u can show na pagod ka na, u can cry and u can pause. Hindi ka naman robot at lalong lalo na di ka yakult para maging okay everyday. ❤ I misyu and always ingat

[missyblogger16]

Find you.

I thought I lost you in the same place where I  left you.

But you weren’t there.

Where did you went?

[matabangutak]

Ang taong masayahin ay napapagod din. Napapagod ngumiti sa lahat ng kaputahan na binibigay sa kanya ng mundo. Ang bullshit ng kapag malakas ka kailangan mas masakit ang mararamdaman mo dahil malakas ka at may tiwala sa ‘yo na kaya mo. Paano kung palagi na lang? Paano kung yung malakas ay naging mahina na rin tulad ng iba pero patuloy na ibinibigay sa kanya yung pang malalakas na tao lang na problema?

Minsan alam mong hindi na fair at ang tanging magagawa mo na lang ay magtiwala na lang ulit. Kasi kapag hindi ka nagtiwala ikaw pa rin may kasalanan. Ikaw pa rin ang praning. Ikaw pa rin ang gago at ikaw pa rin ang mali. Sa oras na palaging sila ang iniisip mo pero kapag galit sila ikaw pa rin ang hindi nakakaintindi.

Gaano kahirap sa isang tao para ma-gets na kapag nag aaway ay hindi niya kailangan ng isa pang matapang na kausap? Ang kailangan niya ay yung taong iintindi at lalambing. Di mo kailangan ng pride o kaya naman ay ipakitang under mo yung isa. No. Hindi ganun yon. Patunayan mong may pagmamahal at huwag mo hayaang mawala yung koneksyon na kayong dalawa ang nag umpisa. Huwag niyong sayangin ang panahon. Ilan na lang ang matino :)

[dailyinspirationquotes]

[caramelbar]

Day 5: Your views on suicide

Part of @cxymercado ’s 30-day challenge

Suicide is quite a touchy subject for me for many personal reasons. Some say it’s an easy way out, while others say that it’s the “ultimate sin”, landing you a secured spot in hell.

For me, it’s actually one of the most heartbreaking things in the world. My heart breaks for those people who felt like their lives are worth nothing. It breaks for those people who suffered so much and who has been in so much pain that the only way out that they saw was to kill themselves. It breaks for people who felt like there’s no escape to the nightmare that they are living in.

My heart also breaks for the families and friends of these people who decided to end their lives. It breaks for those people who would be left broken and confused for the rest of their lives because someone they loved committed suicide.

Suicide is a really serious issue that we shouldn’t take lightly. I guess many people take this topic with a grain of salt, with one of my ex-officemates mocking those who commit suicide, but I hope that with the continuous talks and constant efforts to raise awareness on suicide and mental health, many people would end up being kinder and more empathetic with other people. I hope we’ll eventually be able to stop the stigma and help provide the necessary support for those who need it. I hope we’ll be able to save lives, to turn somebody’s thoughts around.

If you are having suicidal thoughts, my inbox is open. Let’s talk. I’ll listen.

[missyblogger16]

I am writing to those people battling depression and mental illness,Living life in a grave is hard,It is dark and scary, it is more than just a feeling but a constant reminder of darkness; we understand. We do; Many of us do; Please do know that even it is hard to get up, you still did.Even it is hard to even breathe, you are still breathing.I am a survivor of anxiety, when the doctor diagnosed me with anxiety, i was in deep confusion, I was losing weight and losing sleep and losing appetite to study, eat and living was like a day to day habit that i did not want and my room was my comfort. i was in and out of the hospital with my constant vomiting and constant asthma attack that wasn't normal to me. I wasn't sure what i was feeling not until my brother told me, something is off to you.

i was desperately ashamed,  i asked over and over why me? I was sure that i was strong enough, but the doctor told me one thing "it's okay that you're having separation anxiety, you loss so much. and its  okay not to be okay" Then i realize i was not grieving well when i lost my father while we are migrating in a different country , i carried on that burden, coz maybe i was adjusting and coping to my new environment while i am actually grieving too, i did not know which one to feel i was 12 that time, and not until i lost my lola and my relationship with my long term partner was slowly in pain too. That's when i realize, human's heart and mind has a limit. and ITS OKAY not to be okay. but its not okay that depression will take away your life. 

And I promise to you at the end of the road there is a silver lining waiting for you.A light that is so much more than the monster of depression. Hang on, hold on, coz we want you to live, the world wants you here and your heartbeat; it's not full stop, it is semicolon; Keep going.  

[ex-masbitterpasakape]

Babalikan ka nya, para itest kung tanga ka pa, para saktan ka ulit. Ganyan yang mga yan. Porket alam nilang ‘masokista ka sila naman tong mga sadista.

[missyblogger16]

[marcelosantosiii]

Ikaw na mismo ang magpalaya sa puso mo mula sa paulit-ulit na sakit.

Marcelo Santos III (via marcelosantosiii)

[marcelosantosiii]

Umibig ka nang tama.

Kapag nasasaktan ka na, kapag nasisira na ang pagkatao mo, kapag nawawala na ang pag-ibig sa puso mo dahil sa kabaliwan sa pagmamahal mo sa kanya, HINDI NA TUNAY NA PAG-IBIG YUN.

Dahil ang pag-ibig, bumubuo hindi sumisira, nagpapangiti hindi nagpapaluha, nagbibigay pag-asa, nagbibigay saya.

Umibig ka nang tama. Umibig ka nang tunay.