My heart beats for you
|Baku x Reader
|Romance, mild angst, fluff, emotional hurt/comfort
Yeon Sieun, Baku
English is not my first language.
The soft rain tapped against the bedroom window, like a reminder that the world outside carried its own weight of sorrow. You sat at the edge of the bed, hugging your knees, while the droplets traced uneven paths down the glass.
He was there — Park Humin, your Baku — sitting on the floor, back against the bedroom wall, head down, eyes fixed on a spot only he could see.
It was the third time that week he came to see you, and the third time he spent most of it in silence.
You tried to swallow the lump in your throat. Again.
—"You've changed, Baku," — your voice came out low, almost uncertain. — "Since that day… since everything that happened with your dad and the Union."
He didn’t respond.
You knew he carried a pain that wouldn’t heal in just a few days. You also knew he needed space. But... there was something more than pain. Something that turned into coldness, into distance, into absence.
You bit your lip hard before continuing.
—"I’m trying to understand you, I swear I am. But... you’ve stopped looking at me the way you used to... stopped teasing me, stopped smiling when I came near you... It’s like you don’t love me anymore, and I’m starting to think the problem is me."
His eyes finally shifted toward you, slow, heavy. He looked tired — not just physically, but on the inside too.
—"Don’t say that," — he murmured. — "It’s not you."
You got up and sat beside him on the floor. The two of you stayed there, in the corner of the room, surrounded by silence.
—"Then what is it?" — you whispered. — "Do you want to break up?"
That hurt more than you’d like to admit. And in that moment, even he seemed to run out of words.
He closed his eyes for a second, like it pained him. When he opened them, he looked at you — and there was no teasing, no sarcasm.
—"I don’t want to break up with you... but I don’t even know how to start explaining what’s going on in my head. It feels like everything I try to feel the right way... I end up ruining. Even with you." — He took a deep breath, then added: — "And you know what’s worse? I feel like trash, you know? Watching everything fall apart and not being able to hold on to anything. My dad, the Union... everything."
You listened in silence. He rarely spoke like this.
—"And in the middle of all that, you kept looking at me like I was something good. Like I was someone worth caring for. I... started to feel like I didn’t deserve it. And I thought that if I distanced myself a bit, everything would get better."
Your chest tightened.
—"Baku…"
He shook his head.
—"I know. I was an idiot. I should’ve talked. But I just... got lost and couldn’t really express what I was feeling."
There was a second of silence.
Then, as if gathering courage, he gently took your hand and brought it to his chest.
The palm of your hand felt the warmth of his shirt. And underneath, firm and rapid — his heartbeat. Fast. Almost desperate. Like it was screaming everything he couldn’t say out loud.
—"Can you feel that?" — he whispered, not taking his eyes off yours. — "It beats… it beats for you so much that I feel like, if I don’t hold myself back, it’s going to burst out of my chest."
You swallowed hard, your eyes welling up. Your hand still rested on his chest, like it was the only anchor you had in that moment.
—"And even then, you thought I didn’t love you anymore?" — he asked, his voice quieter now, full of sorrow and tenderness. — "I know I messed up, but I’d have to be insane to want to end what we have. And if I ever tried, you should hit me as hard as you can, just to knock some sense back into me."
You let out a short laugh, crying at the same time.
He exhaled and pulled you close, resting your head against his shoulder.
—"I’m sorry. I promise I won’t make you go through this again."
You closed your eyes, feeling his warmth, the scent of his jacket, the muffled sound of his still-racing heart. Your chest ached, but somehow, it also felt relieved.
There, on the bedroom floor, wrapped in his arms, you realized that maybe love didn’t have to be perfect.
It just had to be real.
Note: Weel, after a little while, I’m back to writing — to be more exact, after almost a month. That happened because I was a bit busy these past few days, but I finally managed to find some time to write. That’s it! I hope you enjoy it, and thank you so much for reading. ♡








