I just lost my dad on the 6th of July. It was scary and i didnt know what to do with myself and how i would react to something so devastating.
What am i gonna do now? everything that i have learned is from my dad. I always keep saying that i am ok, that i am fine. but i dont think i am. i feel really bad deep down inside because i was far away from him when it happened. i really miss him. and i really want him back. i wanted him to walk me down the isle when i get married. to hold my first born child when i give birth.
i wanted him in my life longer.
why i wanted to write this? i dont know and i dont really care if people think that im being dramatic or whatever. its my life. i can do what i want and i decide to post this.
because this is my diary. i write what i feel.














