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Unpopular opinion but, I don't play LADS, not my thing, but I played Nikki for a while and I stopped for the obvious reasons (infold rigging gacha system being greedy etc etc). So my friends play LADS and all I see is just "okay, they're just doing the same vile thing again out of greed". And here's my take; corporate greed bad. Fandom who reacts disproportionately is also bad, like what do you mean it calls for actual harassments and racist behavior??? But to counter this with another racist behavior AND misogynistic behavior is just... not it. Grouping hostile fans together with the rest of the players, CN or outside of CN, is also not it. Most LADS players I know are just girlies trying to have a good time with fictional men, fostering communities, having fun, etc. It's just sad that they're already irked by the devs and the negative fans, and people use this as an excuse to be misogynistic that they pile against them too.

"bUt LADS iS a pRoBleMatiC gAmE" stfu, a lot cishet romance tropes are "problematic" since the very beginning of time anyway, players know they aren't real (also the double standards of cishet men can have all of those eroge and objectifying women content but GOD FORBID WOMEN ARE HORNY!!!)

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more dessendre children

I read someone said Verso based Golgra from Clea and I can never stop thinking about it since

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everytime I see a pomni fan and their main ship is funnygummy and ragapom

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Politics Schmolitics but this bothers me a little; Vanity Fair, a magazine known to side towards the elite and zionist sympathizers recently posted an article about the genocide on Sudan and tries to frame it in a bean soup kind of angle, nudging on how the public care more about "other wars" but not the genocide in Sudan and I feel like this is a call for a quick talk of Media Literacy 101 because here: 1.) You'd hear nothing good about Conde Nast's practice as a media giant historically and I think we can draw a pretty clear line just from this alone 2.) Word matters; Sudan is genocide -- true, but what happens in Palestine is "war" and equated with the invasion of Ukraine. Not undermining the severity of what happens in Ukraine here, but to some degree, Ukraine has a level of independency as a state and backed by Western powers. It's not comparable to Palestine that's literally being flattened and banned out of international aid 3.) Trying to pit the collective against one another; people who are very much against Israel and anti-zionists have spoken the same sentiments towards UAE for years now and have been encouraging people to boycott UAE products and tourism altogether. THIS IS WIDESPREAD and have been done in tandem. People have also point out to be wary of not just UAE but other Middle Eastern countries that have strong political ties to the US and Israel -- perpetuating the suffering on BOTH Palestine and Sudan altogether. 4.) Related to the point before, most people who are against the genocide in Palestine ARE AGAINST genocide in other places. The whataboutism Vanity Fair pulls in the article makes it as if people NEVER voiced their demand towards the situation in Sudan (and Congo for that matter). The reason why Palestine seems to be "the front face" is due to US's direct involvement in it and to push that if people can demand responsibility for what happens in Palestine, they can demand the same for Sudan and Congo. 5.) Some party highlighting the Palestine movement is to hate on Israel, but here. If one country commits atrocities, wouldn't you hate it too? I for one hate my own government and locals who side with them, work for them, perpetuate their corruption and oppression, etc etc. That's not even another nation. The world's anger towards the state of Israel and its government is valid but it doesn't mean that a lot hasn't tried to highlight the voice of Israeli left grassroot movements, people who are opposing the occupation and oppressed by their own government, and repeating point 3, PEOPLE HAVE EXPRESSED THE SAME LEVEL OF ANGER TOWARDS UAE. Also these same people hate on the US and the majority of them are also US citizens -- now you're see what I'm getting at? 6.) You can care about many issues simultaneously. Yes, it's good to focus on several where you think you can make the most impact (eg. I try to focus on circling wealth over locals because my currency has no value internationally -- I have no power to help Sudanese and Palestinians, but I can still care about them and boycott), but to care and do the bare minimum of spreading information is also possible. Especially when this is a symptom of a global system failure -- it's interconnected. You can't butcher it to pieces.

Yes, we care about Sudan. HAVE ALWAYS BEEN. It's not a flex Vanity Fair think it is and tbh it's kinda disgusting to use ACTUAL GENOCIDE to make sound like you're better than everyone so; no.

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aw shucks her again

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I don’t like any ship with Jax and I don’t know jackshit about current gen of kpop but I saw Gehlee’s tadc doodles and I think I found my Jax ship. I ship Jax/Gehlee. Kpop Yumeyuri. With all the awful things happening in the world today, I’d take this as a win; a pop star publicly yumeing— YURI yumeing

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Listening to this AI allegations on "Shy Girl" while drawing on CSP and thinking "would people think this was made by AI" as I lay each stroke when it's all consciously made by me, a human

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the downside of having an otp again is.................... having notp again :(((((( (very sad emoji)

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worse when half your otp is your favest but their most popular ship is your notp (why is this keep happening to me!!?!?!?!?)

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the downside of having an otp again is.................... having notp again :(((((( (very sad emoji)

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Abby and her Gummigoo (bonus Scanned!Abby and her Gummigoo!!)

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Abigail

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I’m finally able to release these doodles to the wild

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bark bark bark growl growl I love Pomni so much (scanned and real), she’s so kind, she deserves everything good, she deserves to be happy and if it means she gets to be with her NPC boyfriend forever then might as well, I’d do anything for the jester and the crocodile, the bored St. Louis accountant and the Australian stud — like I’d make her fantasy boyfriend materialize, anything

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Trapped in a digital world and the key to become real and truly human is genuine connection and estrogen?????????? The Amazing Digital Circus is fr asexuals and Gen Alpha’s The Matrix.

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TADC Spoilers, but less serious this time

I've been a hardshipper of funnygummy from episode 2 onwards and the ending fulfills all the possibility that Pomni can earn that happy ending with Gummigoo. Pomni is such a mood for all of us fictional men romancers, the NPC simps, the oshikatsu crowd, and of course, now that we know she too is a copied consciousness, romancing an NPC is no longer as weird as it is implied early on in the show.

But I have a himecut now and for a fact Abigail has a himecut too makes me wanna laugh like, yeah. I think in real life she's also a fictional man romancer. I'm sooo gonna project to her. I'm gonna make Abby invest a lot of time to that fantasy Australian stud.

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TADC Spoilers

TL;DR patriarchy, the system, amab insecurity yadda yadda yadda

The bar scene from episode 5 hits harder after the ending in relation to Jax's insecurity both as a man and as a woman. Even as a man, Jax can't (or hasn't yet) come to some sort of stability expected on her as a cis man, that among them, she's nothing but a runaway wreck, seemingly inferior from these accomplished women and non-binary and what does that say about her as a man. She possibly couldn't even prove her masculinity in the military, possibly resigning because she's too much of a wimp, an effeminate loser, an F slur, and other horrible things the military would treat someone like her.

She has to be in a room with Pomni, and as dull as her job is as an accountant, she's employed and has something stable. That's why Jax mock her pastime as an urban explorer, that instead of acknowledging Pomni's regular life, she's nothing but a YouTuber. She also mocks Zooble, who's painfully stereotypical for an alt coded non binary with "non conventional" pursuits, but Zooble is genuinely passionate about these. They like working at a bar and seem to quite enjoyed being a tattoo artist. Jax probably doesn't have this or hasn't figure out what she's truly passionate about. And then there's Ragatha, who's probably experiencing something close to home for Jax, but Ragatha finds some way to support herself independently and Jax hasn't.

She looks angry after listening to Ragatha but proceeds not address her discomfort, pushing herself away further, then goes on to mock the cooky Kinger who can't even remember his past or identity.

Because at that moment, she probably realizes that how much of a failure she is as a man, but even in a room filled with women and a trans person, she too is falling way behind.

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TADC Spoilers again but this time I need yall’s help

Other than Ribbit putting a ribbon on Jax’s ear, I completely miss the other hints how Jax is a transfem in the making. I was genuinely trying to take a lot of details in the theater, but my brain could only register so much and the precise two rows beside me were being annoyingly loud, noisy, and making a mess in the theater. That did split my focus away.

Can someone help me point out the other hints because I’d love to know.

Other than that, I do notice the military uniform part in Jax and a lot of homeless kids/people who have nowhere else to turn to sometimes enlist in reality. Considering this is a US production, we know that US military does prey on the vulnerability of people like this, so if Jax/Leeroy at some point served in the military, I believe so. This experience might have fostered his avoidance of genuine emotions and connection that is very much tied to toxic masculinity culture often present in the military.

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Say no more my friend, I got you *cracks knuckles*

It’s not just that the military has predatory tactics of targeting desperate youth, it’s also a well known pattern that trans women disproportionately join the military as a last ditch effort to “man up”

Her mom’s reaction was painfully realistic to a trans coming out. Our family members feeling personally betrayed and making it all about them because they see it as “losing” us. Lashing out by tearing us down before sporadically attempting these moments of acceptance that disorient us and give us false hope.

She has never looked in the mirror without commenting on how pathetic she looks, and irl she poses with something in front of her face in every picture.

Her defensive personas saying “no girls allowed” to Pomni and then viciously shouting at the locked door to shut up.

Jax’s core self and real memories are behind that door.

The only part of her that holds the key to that door is chained to the piano unable to reach it.

The hair style we see her with the most is that non-committal unkempt bob a lot of closeted girls have when they can’t come out but can’t stand having their hair so short either

She recently started going to Riley’s queer bar, then in a time skip afterwards (the bus stop) her hair is noticeably longer

Her final moments are a montage of her throughout the series to “isn’t she lovely”, a song about the singer’s new born daughter. They seem to have specifically chosen a song hard core emphasizing the word “she” in case anyone hasn’t caught on yet, lol.

I’m sure I’m missing stuff but that’s what I remember right now

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Thank you thank you thank you!!

(more below because spoilers)

Gosh these are so easily missed and taken out of context, but this explanation puts a lot of perspective. I find these can be misinterpreted of how Jax hates herself overall as a person but not exactly for the reasons why.

1.) I don’t clock in the military one because I know how the military targets vulnerable youth but I’m unfamiliar with how it’s a common transfem experience in the US or other Western countries for that matter (seeing I’m not from any area associated with the Western world and the transfem experience here is a bit different and while we view the military as a toxic masculine sphere, it doesn’t have the same connection as it is to the transfem population here that I know of. A lot of transfem experiences here are more visible through arts and culture.)

2.) I thought the whole argument with mom thing could be her just pointing out the bullshit and trauma that she had to endure for getting the burnt end of a divorce. But now that I think about it, for a fact that she hates how she reminds mom to her father kinda makes sense because she’s actively rejecting that forced masculinity and the “male behavior” associated to her deadbeat father.

3.) Silly me for not clocking in Riley’s bar. I just thought she completely mellows out and now willing to be more vulnerable to people from different walks of life.

4.) “The no girls allowed” thing read to me as her attempt to be edgy and pisses Pomni off and the locked door is just a part of her that desires actual help regardless of her identity, but it makes sense. (Now her ironic gender commentary about the maid outfit makes sense too)

5.) The Stevie Wonder song!!! This is where I got it wrong, I thought it was about Pomni due to her immense empathetic capacity, but knowing the context to the song now makes it more sense that it was a deliberate choice for Jax.

This puts another reading to Pomni diving in to her psyche for me, because instead of “empathetic girl coded character fixing toxic boy coded character”, now it reads as girl not giving up on a fellow girl! Thank you so much!!!

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(Spoilers)

No prob! I’ve heard what you said about point 2 quite a lot, and to me the phrasing is really key here. Jax says that she told her mom “something deep and personal”.

She isn’t talking about a vague moment where she went of on her mom and stood up for herself, she’s telling Ribbit that she entrusted her mom with very sensitive information that was shocking enough to invoke a huge reaction.

If it was a moment where she just vaguely stood up for herself in regards to being more effeminate, then she would’ve said something more like “I got fed up and went off on her”, an indication of something more general. But no, the language she uses and the hesitating demeanor she says it with makes it clear that this is a very specific confession she can’t bring herself to repeat. That’s why Ribbit giving her the bow was so significant, because Jax was too scared to come out again so she met her in the middle.