Nova here. I wrote a long heartfelt post but it was deleted by tumblr. Here’s a new one.I became an admin of this blog at age 13 and I am currently 17. Things have changed. At the time of height popularity and activity I used this as a way to distract from my personal problems. I have realized this years later. Over the years I dedicated a large amount of time, attention, and focus onto this blog. I also have changed. Music wise I only still listen to fall out boy, panic, pierce the veil, Lana Del Rey, and Kpop. Before you say I’m a sellout I listened to Kpop at the same time I got into miw. Metalcore has lost my interest. It no longer sounded pleasant and I sometimes the loudness and energy from screaming was too much. Around the height of popularity I had a large amount of things going on in my personal life. I avoided these by running blogs. I ran a popular tumblr blog (this) and wrote a popular fan fiction book on wattpad. I no longer use wattpad because of the updates and format. I enjoy having fan accounts. Then it became unenjoying. Years ago I stressed over making sure my confessions were perfect and that this blog was orderly. I remember spending hours sitting on my bed making hundreds of confessions. Not moving for over 5 hours and refusing breaks. As the activity died down a lot I no longer did that. My personal issues continued but I still carried on with posting. Then I went to high school. I’m now in the 11th grade. I focused on running this and doing good in school. Until this year I overworked myself to meet my expectations that were almost impossible to reach. This lead to breakdowns ever few months leading to a set back. Now I realize that I did that with this blog. I overworked to make it great and caused myself to burnout. I had to meet the demand. Only in 2018 have I stopped overworking myself. And I still get the results I want. When this was popular I found myself enjoying it less and less. I started this out of fun but overtime it became a chore almost something I had to do. The person who made this left early on and I became in charge. With this being the most popular confession blog for miw people flocked. One reasons why I stopped enjoying it was the people. Being popular younger immature fans (I was and am a teen but I always tried to avoid conflict and considered what I would post before posting) brought drama and toxicity. I felt in the middle of the drama because I would post the confessions with people varying in opinion causing arguments. And it wasn’t like this for this blog but other fandoms and I got annoyed. may seem hypocritical since I’m into the Kpop fandom. But I only run a small account for fun. Something else that happened was me despising groups I was into. I used to like black veil brides but then over time I began dispise them (the people were a factor). It happened when I was still writing my bvb fanfic book. I didn’t want that to happen with motionless. All the stress and frustration that came with running a blog (or writing) caused me to despise groups. I stopped before I came to hate them. Now I don’t hate them but don’t listen to music or interact in the fandom. I tried to keep this blog alive by getting admins but they also have things going on so of course they can’t be involved all the time. I’ve changed, my music choices changed, my view changed, and I no longer am a fan. No matter how I tried this blog can not be revived and will never reach its formal glory. I will not delete the blog or it’s post because people still visit.
Miwconfessiona deserves to finally be laid to rest. Thank you for the good memories (there was a lot) and support. Thank you to motionless in white for being themselves and providing music and a fandom. May this blog Rest In Peace.