Nocturnal Emissions

Melvin. 23. Dancer. Designer. Photographer Just a man on a mission trying to find his place in the world

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-vibes with me

-checks me when I’m being dumb

-calls me out on my bullshit

-isn’t afraid to voice her opinion

-believes in the good within people

-doesn’t give a fuck about what other people think

-visits me and makes sure I’m good when I’m sad

-regardless of how much time goes by, picks up right where we left off

-can have an intellectual conversation with me about things that matter

-always has my back no matter what

Regardless of whether it’s romantic or not. People like these are a rare breed now a days. Keep them around. Don’t be selfish. Free souls like these can’t be held down. The most you can do is wish for their happiness.

Life has taught me that things don’t work out how you expect them to. Just enjoy the present. Cherish the little things like staying in and watching anime til 6am.

Life is too short, and people come and go. Enjoy the little things. Cherish them.

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Just let me enjoy rn, and not worry about later. Who knows the people we’ll become after distance

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My mind and my heart are in different places. What to do?

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life is just hard. you get into the most intricately complicated situations, and the collateral damaged caused is seismic. It’s aberrant, unpredictable to the point where it will hit you when you least expect it. preperation can only do so much, but i think its just a matter of conviction. Keep chasing, dont settle 

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Always find my self back here. Who’s up?! :)

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Out of my grasp

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My sleeping schedule is fked up lmao who’s up 😈

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I’ve been struggling for a while now. If you know my situation, you know how hard it’s been. In January, I decided to move out. I figured it was my time to learn how hard it was to support ones self. Within one month of moving out, work literally gave me a fake raise which literally just resulted in me working more hours for the same hourly wage. 60 hours a week, no breaks, and “salary” which technically makes me a slave. On top of that, my designing laptop got stolen which was the source of 25% of my income because of graphic design jobs. So with the combination of those two things, I roughed it out, then life smacked me in the face, threw me into depression, and I racked up a debt. This debt has taken me 3 months to finally pay off, but in order to do so, I had to make drastic changes to my life. Rent is already set, so I had to take money out of other things. There were literally days where I wasn’t eating. It got to a point where I’d forget to eat, just because it wasn’t a priority for me. My roomates know I’m struggling, so today I came home to this, and it’s honestly the nicest thing someone’s done for me. I know it’s not a lot, but it’s something. Thank you :)

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[kitchenmachinex]

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Inconsistency gets the best of me. I just want to get lost in your thoughts and not worry about you leaving me there.

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It’s weird. You weren’t there, but I wanted to see you. Just to know you’re okay

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Damn. You really fucking intrigue me 😍

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Mentally, I think I'm all messed up rn. I'm reverting back to apathy and not caring. I think for a little bit, I need to be as selfish as possible. I need to do me, and not care about anyone else's feelings. I gotta get myself back on track. I'm letting go of four years. I can't stand still, that's not like me. I need to move forward. I've been held back long enough

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the ripple effect is so unforgiving. 

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Above all else, it was a good run 🤘🏻 things have changed

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I'm taking a chance and putting my fail in the unknown. Rather than being calculated, I'm letting go of the reigns. Letting destiny in control one more time. It's scary not knowing where you're going, but I have a feeling to give fate a chance one more time.